Chapter Seven: Strange Feeling

Kinabukasan maaga akong nagtungo sa hospital ng maka-receive ako ng text sa hindi pamilyar na numero. Pagkarating para bigla ako nakaramdam ng kakaiba. Parang kinakabahan ako na hindi ko maipaliwanag kung bakit.

"Sigurado ka na ba sa desisyon mo, anak," naririnigan kong tanong ng mama ni Howard. Nakatalikod sila sa akin, kaya hindi nila ako nakita paparating.

"Hindi ko na ba mababago iyong desisyon mo? "Tumango na lang ang isa.

"Lalayo na lang po kami, hindi ko naman po ipapagkait kay Howard iyong bata. Para na rin po sa ikakatahimik ng lahat, kahit anong gawin hinding hindi naman niya ako kayang mahalin. Marahil tama nga si Zyrene, inagaw ko lang siya. Totoo naman po iyon, hindi ko naman ipagkakaila. Kahit kailan, hindi ko narinig sa kaniya na mahal niya ako. Masuwerte pa rin po ako dahil sa kabila ng lahat ng nangyari; hindi niya ako kailanman sinisisi. Pero hindi ko na po kaya ng konsensya ko, totoong inagaw ko lang po si Howard. Pinilit ko sila mommy sa kasunduang iyon kahit alam kong nagpaplano na si Howard sa gaganaping kasal nila ni Zyrene. Mama ang sama sama ko po." naluluhang sabi niya kaya habang ako parang na estatwa sa kinatatayuan ko. Marahang hinagod ni Mrs. Satillan upang pakalmahin siya.

"Nagmahal ka lang, iha. Nagmahal lang kayong dalawa ni Zyrene ng iisang lalaki. Iyon nga lang sa magkaiba niyong paraan ipinakita ang pagmamahal niyo para sa anak. Ang swerte ng anak ko para mahalin siya ng katulad niyong dalawa." nagulat ako sa sinabi ni Mrs. Satillan. Kailanman ay hindi niya ako tinawag sa aking pangalan.

"Hindi na po kaya ng konsensya ko. Nasasaktan ko na po ang kapatid ko at ang taong mahal ko. Hindi ko na kayang makitang nasasaktan si ate. Kaya magpaparaya na po ako. Sapat na po ang limang taon na hiniram ko sa kanya ang taong mahal niya."Hindi ko kinaya ang aking narinig. Para akong nahihilo sa rebelasyon na kapatid ko ang naging karibal ko. Nakita kong napalingon sila sa gawi ko bago ako mawalan ng malay.

NAGISING ako dahil bigla akong nakaramdam ng uhaw. I need some water. Kaagad kong inabutan ng tubig ng isang taong, hindi ko aakalain na makikita. What is this waiter doing here? He looks like an angel. A beautiful man does have hazel eyes and golden hair.

"Nawalan ka ng malay kanina. Sabi ng doctor dahil na over fatigue ka. Iwasan mo raw ang ma-istress at hindi maganda sa kalusugan mo." nag-aalala niyang sabi. Then, what's she doing here? Where's Mrs. Satillan and that woman? Where are they?

"Where are they? "I asked him after I gave him the glass. He took the glass in my hand and filled it with mineral water from the dispenser. And he gave it to me, and I accepted it. Woah. Why have I felt so thirsty. Nagpapaypay ako sa sarili ko. Why do I feel so hot? He just calmly stared at me while his Adam apple moved slightly.

"I'm asking you. Anyway, why do I feel so hot? Is the air conditioning closed? "He just sighed.

"No, the air conditioner was open. Stop making moves, woman. You make this room hot," he fiercely said.

Our eyes met. I see his eyes burning and his ears turning red. He touched my face and caressed it. His eyes are the most innocent I've ever seen. He kept getting closer to me until the door was open. I immediately pushed him and looked at the one who opened the door. I don't know, but I felt relieved when I saw it was a nurse. I felt his burning stares on me that made me lose my breath.

"Mam, Mrs. Satillan wants to tell you that his son is already awake." After she said that, she left. And I heard a heavy sigh from the man beside me.

"Can you bring me to his room? I want to see him," I weakly said to him. I saw the hesitation in his hazel eyes, yet he just nodded.

"If you can't bear it anymore, just run to my arms. I will take you somewhere; you will never feel the pain but only the tears of joy.". He slowly caressed my face and quickly kissed my forehead. He brushed my hair and helped me stand before he brought me to Howard.

"What are you doing? Who are you? "I asked him. He came closer to me and whispered in my ears.

"Isaiah 60:22." That makes me freeze.

I don't know when he's around. I've felt something strange in me. It's like there's something I've never felt this way before, even with Howard. I couldn't explain how strange this feeling was.

Maybe we all we need

It's just a little faith

Cause baby I believe

The love will find the way

Hey yeah

Nagulat na lang ako ng bigla siyang kumanta sa tabi. Pareho sila ni Liniea na may ginintuang boses. They could both have a talent when it comes to music.

Baby you're my destiny

You and I we're meant to be

With all my heart and soul

I give my love to have and hold

And as far as I can see

From now until the eternity

You were always meant to be

My destiny

"If you can't bear it anymore, just run to my arms. I will take you somewhere; you will never feel the pain but only the tears of joy."

"Isaiah 60:22."

"If you can't bear it anymore, just run to my arms. I will take you somewhere; you will never feel the pain but only the tears of joy."

"Isaiah 60:22."

"If you can't bear it anymore, just run to my arms. I will take you somewhere; you will never feel the pain but only the tears of joy."

"Isaiah 60:22."

"If you can't bear it anymore, just run to my arms. I will take you somewhere; you will never feel the pain but only the tears of joy."

"Isaiah 60:22."

His voice echoed in my head, and his message was tattooed on my heart.

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