First Page 'Little one on my tummy.'

Kenshin's P.O.V.:

Lycoon woke up and I prepared lunch for the both of us. I bring the diary with me. "Hey, baby. You can play after eating okay? But just stay near me." I give him permission to play. He smiles so big and he nodded so happily. Let's go to my gaming room okay? I assembled your ball pit there. And I prepared your toys. Daddy will just read something important okay?" I told him. "Okay okay, daddy but aftew you read let's pway okay?" He invites me to play with him.

"Yes, baby we will play." I accept his invitation and he eats happily. I open the page again to read it.

Entry 1:

For the past weeks, I can't explain why I feel sick. Vomiting feeling sleepy and always starving. I came to see a doctor and the doctor said about you. I didn't know you are growing inside little one. Forgive mommy for not knowing it so early, I love you and we will get through this together. I will do to keep you safe and healthy while you are in there.

But how will I tell mom about you?

Kenshin:

That's the first entry. I look at Lycoon he's eating so happy. I watch him eat and eat, he looks so cute and adorable. "Are you done eating baby?" I asked him when he stopped. "No. I suddenwy mish mommy." He said and he was about to cry. "Hey, little one didn't we talk about this?" I asked him and he looks at me. "Can you call her?" He asked me. "Daddy will do everything in my power to call mommy if you promise daddy that you will not be sad about mommy," I said making a deal to him. "Okay." He said in a very low tone of voice.

"Come on son cheer up. Daddy will play with you okay?" I told him and he smiles. Lycoon is easy to talk with. As far as I can see he's understanding so it's easy to talk to him. I cleaned our table after eating, I bring him to the playroom. I assemble all the toys I bought for him last evening while he is asleep. He wonders around his eyebrows are frowned while looking around and he smiles at me.

"Wow." He said out in excitement and hugged my neck then kiss me on my cheeks. "Daddy's so cool." He compliments me and runs through the yard of toys. I laugh at how silly he gets playing around. Such an adorable baby. I sat on the sofa and open his diary again. I'm already in the third-month phase. She said that she craves a lot and wants to eat a lot. She said that this baby loves to eat and she has a hard time as she get so full. She hasn't told to her mom yet until the fourth month..

Entry 48: fourth month.

Mom found out I'm pregnant she grabs my hair and pull me up from my seat we are at the nearest convenience store at our house and drag me home not minding the people watching us. It hurts so much that I have bruises almost in every part of my thighs and arms because I am protecting my baby. She humiliates me while walking calling me where, bitch, slut, and many more that can insult my whole existence. She throws me at the sofa and cries questioning the world why she's given a demonic child like me. I feel so bad for my mother and I feel worthless as a daughter. I didn't blame her for telling me such hideous words to me. Like who am I to defend myself?

After all, I am really a careless woman who got pregnant by one night's stand. I didn't defend myself from all the hits she gave me but I make sure to protect you from her.

Kenshin:

That's entry 48 and it pains my eyes. How could you ever let this happen to you, Kitty? When you could just run to me and tell me everything? Why did you let yourself get humiliated alone? When we can be with this together.

I read and read until I reached the seventh month. And I felt that my eyes are already tired so I did take a rest. I went to my son and hugs him tight. "You've been through a lot with your mom," I murmured. "Gonna play with Lycoon now?" He asked. "Yes, but daddy just needs to read a few more pages okay? I'll prepare you milk." I told him and he just nodded and play again.

After preparing some drinks I continue with the chapter of the seventh month.

Entry 78: Seventh month

I saw your dad in the headline news today dear. He looks so stunning and his name is full of engraved gold and power at the headline. He is out of our league, he got everything that only the sky can have while mommy has nothing to show. I'm sorry dear that I can't give you your dad because mommy will never be accepted to that place where your dad resides. But someday when you read this diary I want you to know whose your dad is and I want you to show respect to him. Grow up almighty and fit to his world my dear so someday you can reach him. Even a hi will do. Don't forget the name that once in a few minutes your mom adored so much.

Kenshin Hide…

Kenshin:

That's the entry and I felt a sharp pain point in my heart. "Why do you ever think you can't fit here? When I can shrink the world for my son and fit it in his pocket." I asked myself as if I'm asking her.

I read for almost eternity again until I reach the part where my son was born and I felt a sudden excitement as if I was there seeing the scenario.

Entry 150: Welcome to the world Lycoon.

I felt a sharp pain in my back and I felt that my water is broken so I hurriedly asked for help from mom but she seems busy and didn't mind me. I can't handle the pain anymore and I can't even stand the door feels very heavy to open and my eyes are clouded with tears. A tear of excitement, sadness that no one wants to help, and the happiness that finally I can see you. I grab all the strength I can to ride the elevator and drive myself to the hospital. As soon as I get there the only thing I have is a prayer that you'll be safe.

The hardest parts are forgotten the moment I saw your face, healthy and moving…

Kenshin:

I feel so ashamed of myself that I wasn't even there with her during her hardship for Lycoon.

The next entry seems far dated from the last one.

Entry 151:

As soon as I gave birth to you the hardship never ends but I will get through this as long as I am with you. Mom never goes to the hospital to check on me and you. She never takes care of you so the moment I get out of the hospital I go to work and I bring you along with me secretly. I hide you in my office feeds you with the bottle of my milk and makes my very best not to make you cry. Until one day we have a business in a hotel and I can't bring you with me so I begged mom but she doesn't want to.

So I made the deal and almost kissed her feet. She asks me about your dad and I tell her. I also promised to give the 75% of my salary to her so she can buy anything she wants and I promised that I will get promoted fast so her profit will get high. It is not easy I'm always out for overtime and hurry up home because she won't take care of you at 9 pm. I will skip my lunch at the office so the 25% of my salary will fit to us. I got debts to debts just to survive you.

Thanks to my friends that they come in hand when I needed. I will get through this as long as you are with me.

Kenshin:

A tear left my eyes after reading the entry. This is the first time I cried again after Akali's death. I looked at my son and run to him just to give him a tight hug. My emotions rush through my veins. The anger, the fear, and the sadness that Amaya is feeling reflect on me. "Daddy? You sad?" He asked me worriedly so I shook my head.

"Lycoon? Listen to daddy. Daddy will never let anyone harm okay?" I said while hugging him tightly. I fixed myself and plays with him. Some of the memories of the diary come to my mind like I was there. I keep myself as positive as I can and spent my whole time with my son.