Confused

When seeing Mitsuki leave I felt my heart hurt, and all the pain of losing my friends and the fear of dying came back, I do not want this and I almost chase after him, but Kirito appears next to me, I hug him, but I do not feel calm nor peace.

After that day, I never felt peace again, I was afraid all the time, nightmares every night, I cried without stopping, Kirito tried to stay by my side, but I was not going to leave that feeling was suffocating me and increasingly I missed Mitsuki, I was short on his side, but he did me good.

A month after the incident I was still in the same inn, Kirito would fight in the front line against the heads of the floors, but I hardly even left the city, because of the fear, that day was remarkable for me.

Keita came to visit me at times, but Kirito took longer to come, and sometimes I hoped he would not come, I feel I'm holding him.

After another month he did not even come back, the feeling of fear subsided a bit, but it's still there just asleep, I walk down the street and I see Mitsuki sitting in a square.

[Mitsuki]

{Hi}

[Long time no see, how are you? Can I sit down?]

{I'm fine and you? Clear}

[I'm getting better]

Good, I am happy to know

[Mitsuki are you hurt me?]

{I do not know if I would use this word}

[Mitsuki do you think I chose Kirito instead of you?]

{There is me you did not choose}

[Idiot, you ran out of there]

{Do not lie to me or even to you Sachi, I saw that you liked him and I moved away}

[Not...]

{Forget, I do not want to talk about it, I'm going even more}

He gets up and leaves, I'm confused, seeing him go away made me sad, I want to be with him, I want to be with him, I start to cry and I do not know what to do, I want that peace back, I want never more remember that day.

Kirito comes back a few days later and I say that I feel like I'm holding him, he seems to think so too, they've arrived on the 36th floor, and he can not keep coming back here forever.

(Sachi, when we get rid of this world, I'll look for you, I promise)

[Kirito, you do not have to worry about me]

I feel a little sadness with him leaving, but I know he's the best now, after a few days I search for Mitsuki, but I can not find him and I go to that inn we stayed and ask to stay in that room, and I lie in that bed remembering when I sleep here holding your hand, since leaving this room I never slept well again, nightmares troubled me

.

While I lie there thinking about whether I should sleep or not, I feel my hand being held and when I look to the side it is there, just as months ago holding my hand while looking at me.

[I was looking for you]

{Found}

[Mitsuki I still do not know what I feel for you, but let me stay by your side please]

{Silly girl, your place is by my side}

[That's nice]

I feel that calm and peace again and I fall asleep,