What to focus on

Xiu Mei fell into confusion. 

Was that really the weight she's been hiding all these years?

But how? 

When she decided to move out from home and started to live independently, wasn't that her determination?

When she chose the path of business instead of following the footsteps of military and politics, wasn't it her resolve to get away from the path already laid before her?

When she chose to continue to live, pushing herself hard day by day instead of succumbing to the pain and whispers that haunted her for years, wasn't it because of her persistence?

What she thought she had… it was that kept her going every day to wake up and continue her life as normal as she possibly could. It was the only thing that she felt proud of herself because no matter what her past was, she was able to keep going despite the sin she carried alone.