SHŌKAI

"Have you been lying the whole time?" He looked at me in disbelief, "Listen to me first, Kerstein," he said, motioning with his hand, trying to explain himself.

"I am done with all of the deceptions and lies that I have perpetrated my entire life," I screamed at the top of my lungs, "I cannot let another man ruin all of the things that I have been building up," He began walking towards me.

"Kerstein!" he yelled, "I refuse to listen." He grabbed my hand and drew me closer to him.

"Let me go, Raiden!" I yelled, "No, I won't, after all the moments we've shared and cherish, Kerstein, I will not let you go so easily, so please listen!" With all the rage building up in my system. I yanked my hand back and slapped him with all my might.

All of the things I despise, lies and deception, are what I despise the most; I will never trust anyone again the way I did him. I had been relying on him for far too long, expecting that he would be my salvation, that he would be the one I should lean on for all I cared.

Looking at him, he was the epitome of a Knight in Shining Armor; I would not expect him to show up every time I needed him, but with all the front he keeps showing and masks he keeps wearing, I would not expect him to.

"Please leave, Raiden," I said with a stoic expression, trying to hide my true feelings for him; that is what he excels at, masking his feelings, "Kerstein, do not look at me with that face," his face fell.

"What face?" I asked blankly as I approached him, "Kerstein," I pushed him back.

"Leave, Raiden," I slapped his hand away without saying anything; he sighed and began walking away, "Leave!" I yelled.

I could feel the waters rising; tears began to fall off one by one, dripping off indefinitely; I am relieved that he is not here to see my pitiful side that I refuse to show anyone; he is not someone I should rely on indefinitely.

He is as pitiful as any other Noble, unable to put their egos aside because of their status and power; my feelings will not go away easily, but I will do my best to forget that I ever loved that man; what a fool I am to realize everything so late.

Raiden is not a fool who will pursue me until I die just for the sake of it; he learned something from this love that he keeps mentioning; he is a Knight respected by his peers and all Nobles who know the House of Jin.

He is not someone to be underestimated. Even I admire him for his bravery and compassion for others, but his personality says otherwise; his foul mouth comes first, followed by a spoonful of sweet lies that he continues to display, impressing me until I fall hard for him.