I've made that decision and it's in my heart that there's a lot of grief. But I know the grief I feel right now can't make my world better. I'm sad, but my world doesn't change. Nothing changes. In those last few days, I've been able to move on to a lot of things that I never knew I could overcome. Or I never imagined one day it would happen. But nothing can stop those things from happening. Any idiot who can believe that life can change at any moment of the moment is nothing. Nothing's changing. If I could have changed that for myself, I would have done a lot of things.
I went through so much that no one could go through without hurting my heart, that my heart was broken not because of Aaron, but because of other people for whom I thought I was important. These are the people who are supposed to be the most important people in my life. It's my mom and dad.
I can't believe I was part of those disputes.