Chapter 1

Everyone was dancing cheerfully. The cold breeze just made my body feel sleepy and my drowsiness increased even more. In my state, I can't obviously dance. Even if I can actually dance, I won't. I've been joining JS Prom since third year because it's fun but unfortunately this year, my excitement just faded and I can't seem to like this anymore. There's no fun at all or maybe it's just not my type in the first place and was just forcing myself in order to go with the flow.

It's funny to think that I'm always getting tired. It's like I'm a ninety-nine year old grandpa who's always feeling pain from their body.

I watched my schoolmates as they dance again. How could they dance like that? Do they even feel pain from their body? Well, I don't have the right to say that since it's clear to me that they are enjoying every minute of this event. But seriously, I don't have the time for that shit, really.

The dazzling lights that covered the whole reception goes off replacing it with darkness when they turned on the disco lights and casted different colors of lights upon us. I stretched my formal attire when I noticed it getting crinckled. Right. I'm so fucking lonely that all I could do was to notice small details and do unnecessary gestures.

"Riech!" Someone shouted. The voice felt familiar to me that's why I decided to turn around, confirming who it is. So it's just him? I darted my eyes back tiredly to my table, not paying my attention to the coming figure.

"What the prick dude, did you just ignored me?!" He acted frustrated and sat in front on me. "Why are you here being alone? Why can't you just enjoy the night. We'll be senior next year and if that time comes we will be more busier than before." He explained eagerly.

I looked at him with half-eyes open. "Flint, I'm tired. I don't give a shit about that" I insisted. He crossed his brows, looking at me for seconds then sighed in defeat.

"Okay, I got you Riech but where's your date anyway?" He questioned.

"You mean Coreen? He just went off and danced with someone earlier" I answered, sighing. He suddenly laughed crackly in front of me. He's my bestfriend but I don't really know why he became my bestfriend, seriously. My eyes narrowed and glared at him.

"What's funny?" I asked, still glaring at him. He let out a sigh, calming himself, obviously afraid of what I might do but is still trying to halt his cracky laugh.

"No..it was just I feel you dude. The same goes for me. My date just leaved me earlier" He laughed hysterically, failing to stop it.

I turned around and looked at my surroundings. Some were sitting, some were dancing individually and some were dancing with their partners, obviously.

How I wish I could go home now. I really want to lay my damn body to the bed and just sleep peacefully. Maybe, I'll let my life become boring as it is.

I positioned my arms on the table and placed my head on it. I slowly closed my eyes. A thought came into me that I'm in the JS Prom. It would be embarrassing if I will sleep here. I slowly opened my eyes, still staying on my position, looking at my surroundings.

My gaze stops at someone who's sitting on the corner with his friends. He's obviously tall even he's just sitting. His black messy hair suited his face. When his friends said something, he chuckled and plastered a small smile giving shivers to my spine. A girl went to him and asked something but he refused.

I scanned him unconsciously and noticed his eyes. He's only three meters away from me. I swallowed hard as I stared at him. That blue on his eyes grew faster and swirled faster that it gave me chills, a feeling that I've never felt before. It was damn mesmerizing.

I froze when he suddenly looked at me, exchanging glances and for a second, it was like we have our own dimension. I noticed my heart racing as we continued to stare at each other that It made me choke in fury. I immediately looked away and decided to pay my attention on Flint who's smiling while looking at someone.

What the hell was that? Why is he looking at me?

I slapped my forehead when I realised that I don't have the right to say that since I was also looking at him—but it's not my fault, he just, caught my damn attention, obviously. Anyone would notice him since he's really standing out.

"Flint...can I ask you something?" I hesitantly asked. Acting normal as if I'm not feeling my heart drumming.

He laughed hysterically. Apparently, I'm the only one who could hear him since the loud music echoed in the whole reception. "Are you okay dude? Did I just hear you asked permission?" He uttered, still surprise and continued letting out his cracky laugh.

This fucking crazy bastard. "Okay, nevermind. Just leave me alone then."

"Okay, chill! So what's your question?" He interrupted immediately.

"Don't look at him right away if you hear my question. That would be too obvious that we're talking about him" I warned.

He acted like he didn't get it that's why I glared at him immediately. "Okay, I got it, I got it." He surrendered, forcing his self to smile.

"Who's that man in our left. It's three meters away. Third table from us. He's the tallest person in there." I uttered. I held my head frustratingly when he immediately looked at him.

"This bastard" I murmured but is enough for him to hear it.

"Ohh it's Canov Lisanes! You didn't heard about him? He's actually famous in girls" He replied casually.

Well, I can say that. It's pretty obvious. Talking about his looks, I turned around to look at him but only regretted it when our eyes met again. My heart started to race that I immediately tried to calm myself. Why is he looking at me again?

"B-but why the hell I didn't noticed him for the past five years?" I asked, stammering. Not minding the person who's still looking at me from a distance.

"He's a transferee. He just transfered this year" Flint answered. "But here's a trivia" He added again.

I raised my eyebrows. "Trivia?" I chuckled, looked away and didn't paid my attention to him since I don't need such trivia. I'm just asking his name anyway since he caught my damn attention for some unknown reason.

"He's gay" He stated.

I was stunned when I heard him. I looked at Flint while still being flustered. "W-what did you just fucking say?" I asked again. Flint laughed at my reaction.

"See? That's also my reaction. It's really hard to believe but yes, it's true dude. Everyone knows that, how the hell you didn't know about it?" He asked.

"How the hell would I know" I uttered confusingly, still not believing it.

"The funny thing is even girls fully know that, they are still chasing after him, saying that they will change him." Flint informed then smiled again.

I was still flustered when Flint suddenly asked me. "Why? are you interested in him?" He asked, plastering a devilish smile on his face.

I almost choke because of my own saliva when I heard him say that. "What the hell are you talking about?" I asked him irritatingly.

"Okay, Riech chill. It was just a joke!" He answered with a forced smile on his face, faking his laugh.

"Jokes are supposed to be funny. It ain't a joke for me. " I scowled, immediately stood and walked out.

I walked aimlessly, still sighing. I don't really know how to control this temper of mine. I need to calm myself like seriously—i'm being too work up. Though what I'm saying to him is actually the whole damn truth. I'm just defending myself. What I did and what I said is just right.

I went to the dark corner where no one will notice me, at least that's the theory. I leaned my back against the wall, watching everyone enjoying the night. I really want this to just finish so that I can finally rest at home.

A figure passing by caught my attention. I can't clearly see his face because it's dark but when the rays of disco lights went on to his face, I immediately recognized who it was.

That's Canov right? Is he really gay? I can't really picture him kissing a man or maybe it's just new to me, no. What am I thinking? I just said to Flint earlier that I don't really care about him. He's just always standing out that I keep on noticing him.

I glanced at him again but was surprised when he's already looking at me. The waves of an unknown feeling embraced me the moment we exchanged our glances. Everything suddenly went blank. The noises earlier from the crowd suddenly vanished like an air and all I could hear is the loud thumping of my heart.

The side of his lips rose up and showed me his small smile. He did it in a short period of time and walked away but it left a big impact on me.

I heard the noises and everything went normal but my heart didn't stop racing ruffled with strong thumps. Did my heart just raced just because of a guy's smile?

This doesn't make any fucking sense at all! Should I get my self a private doctor to check myself– like seriously?!