Chapter 1

Silvia's POV:

I stood beside the beach,

admiring its feels and coolness..

How the moon noble pure and tender form hung from above with its refulgence ...

The sight looked so pretty as it sits alone in its cradle like a mighty scepter.

The breeze in turn was so soft and cozy, nothing felt as good as it blew along the freshening dews

of the water which stood so endless and dark.....

I couldn't help but open my arms to adore it.

Cozee bay is one of my beautiful

dream come true.

I can't believe am really here, really here for real ...

I closed my eyes and tilt my head back as I breath in the fresh air from the moist sea,

airs that flows freely into eternity ...

Although it was dark but who could tell the difference between night and day ..

its new year eve and

The sight around was just tropical rock and roll,

The glow of lights from the near by bars ...

people were clustering around as they exclaimed happily into the sea and out .., lovers exchanges

intimates and lingering looks that spoke of fulfilled love...

Cozee bay is such a wonderful place for couples...

the sight is just so perfect, if I didn't get my thoughts wrong I would have loved to have my honey

moon here.

I signed happily sinking in all the elixir of pleasure flowing freely around me...

I couldn't help but laugh at the crazy thoughts going on in my head ...

How it would feel like to finally have Nathan dig in between my legs, how anxiously have been

waiting for that special night,

a night we've both been waiting for so long ...

Loosing my virginity once and for all so my friends especially Celine wouldn't start boasting about

how s*x feels so good ..

Just few more weeks to go ..

And that night would be the most happiest moment of my life,

The night am gonna finally be with the man I love, the man that kept me for a whole year without

touching me,, its so rare this days..

I would just have to hire someone to the kung fu school...at least I have no other choice than to

respect my dad last wish to keep it running ...

Woah Silvia believe it or not you gonna be Mrs Elliot in the next two weeks ...

"Am so so happy," I shouted to the sky whose serenity was like a dark dungeon ...its depth was the

most exotic sight have ever seen.

I glance sideways smiling broadly at Nathan as he walked towards me with two cups of chocolate

..

God how much I love this guy ..

The sand molded on his steps as he heavily took it step by step,

He is tall, straight, handsome with a broadening s*xy stretch chest crowned by classically molded

shoulders..,

His torso was sculpted to a manly perfection, he was exactly everything I needed in a man.

"Hey sunshine, checking me out" he smile as he reached out a cup of chocolate towards me

I smile back

"yeah, I think so, cause my man is such a fine figure to watch"

More wider smile played on his lips as he sank down on the sand ..I sank down beside him and

sipped a little from my chocolate ..

"So what took you so long Nate,"

"Nothing, just a little delay in the bar"

My eye once more lifted in excitement at Nate who was smiling towards the sea .

"You know, I just can't stop thinking about our honey moon Nate, how its gonna feel like when we

made love"

He took my hands and looked straight into my eyes ...

"Sunshine, you know I was thinking we can go have that honey moon in California, what do you

think "

"What...."

I was shocked and entranced by the sound of California, did he just say California,

"But Nate, the, the ....the passport the ...."

"Shhh, it was suppose to be a surprise, but since you know, ....."

He took out two passport from his shorts

I gently took it and stared at it as if I was just given an invitation to go see how God looks like

"Wao Nathan, are you ....are you for real now, I can't believe this...I....I .....omg "

I stood up excitedly as I covered my mouth in surprise just like the day i'd reacted when he

proposed...

This guy is so full of surprises I can't believe this ..

"California you mean California"

Nathan was laughing out loud at me ..

I could feel some eager stares on us, but I didn't care, no one is as happy as I am right now

Deliriously...i started shaking my bums at Nathan who laughed before grabbing my hips...i felt my

bum landed on the sand as he drew me closer to his body ...

his laugh was blowing sensual airs to my ear,

I swear it arose me,

"Come on girl, it just California, what if I said Paris"

At the sound of Paris , a bell rang twice in my head,

Gba gaun Gba gaun

i was actually drowning to space now as i pictured us making love in a balcony that shows the

whole of Paris skyscraper.

"We are going to Paris instead Silvia.." His voice was soft ..he actually said the word s*ductively

At the sound of that I think I almost fainted, the inner me was about to explode,

My no was like a slow motion at first ...

now its growing thick and shaky

Noo oo oo oo..

no noo nooo nooo

you could have imagine how odd it sound,

Nathan was watching me with all wider smile as I played madness ...I was engrossed heavily stuck

with love filled eye, I can't believe he is again talking about Paris when am yet to get over the

excitement of going to California ..Paris that heaven on earth country ..

"Paris all the way Nate"

I jumped on him splitting both of our chocolate all on his body and mine, he laughed out loud once

more as he wrapped his bigger arms around me ...

"God look at you Silvia, you split all the chocolate,"

"Am so excited Nate" I shouted

"Some times you are a clown silvia and at times I see you in that kungfu out}t of yours I get scared

I barely know you.."

I laughed some more as I dig my head into his Neck ...

"I love you Nate, I love you, love you, love, love love "

"I love you too sunshine "

I glanced up excitedly at his face which was now stained all over with chocolates, his teeth was as

white as snow as he opened them broadly towards me, the love I saw in his deep black eye told

me how much he truly love me,

God sometimes I try remembering where it was I met him, I must have wore a lucky charm that

day ...

Of course it was a day I beat up some bad guys who stole his phone..

He roll me over and smile down at me, I was panting as my eyes searched his miserably

"Silvia can I" he was staring at my lips..

Without excitation, I grabbed his head and placed my lips to his hungrily ...i kissed him to the extent

he was the one gasping for airs ..

I released him and widened my eye

"We've been together for a year now and you are here still asking for a permission to kiss me,

you know what Nate, you are such a wield guy, sometimes I always thought you are gay"

He laughed...

"Gay ...mmmm...you think so"

My face suddenly went wide and unsmiling as he bent his mouth to lick the split of chocolate in

between my breast ..

His touches were amazingly arousing me as I twisted my body recklessly mutely demanding the

appeasement ...

His mouth travelled without haste down my body as he explore every curves and crevice ..his

tongue was like ~ickering fire across my hard nipples that struck out of my thin top..

He pushed his head down my navel as he once more lick the chocolate on them ...

Nate was licking and worshipping me as if I were a lolly pop ..damn

I tried speaking but he once more silenced me with his lips .

His lips teased me with a contact that was hardly more than a breath ..his tongue ~ickering along

my lower lips ..I gasped in pleasure as my head fall back helplessly on the sand

My senses seems to have separate existence as he raved his tongue to clear all the chocolate in

my neck ..

I heard a voice i hardly recognised as mine, more like a sob ..

"Nate please, "

he hesitated for a moment..one last kiss, he finally stop

"So any comment, do you still picture me as a gay"

I shook my head lost fully

"Fine, I love you so much Silvia , that's why I kept you for me , me only ,,, okay "

He stare into my eyes this time before he continued

"So Should we, I mean should we do it tonight, as a new year eve sent oz, we can actually screw

each other till next year"

I laughed while he adjusted my cloth...

"Its just two more weeks to go okay , I'll wait "

He nodded

"If that's what you want ...anything for my sunshine ..so how about we go in and get out of our

messy cloths "

"Okay" he stood and supported me up, holding hands together, we made our way into our lounge

..

As a karate, I knew with my kungfu sense there was someone following us although no one was

behind us,

I glanced around eagerly ..whom ever it was, how was I to know, I clung closer to Nate, who

pushed the door of our room as he led me in .

Suddenly the rapid steps of legs reverberated through my head

"Nate move aside, someone is following us" I pushed Nathan behind me .

Quickly I stretched my hands and leg forward I ease them to a blade scale ...bending my kneels

forward I concentrated on the door that opened slowly ...gosh I was fully prepared to fight kung

fu, whomever it was is gonna here from me ... I frown as I clenched my teeth harder against my

jaw

Suddenly My heart heated when a form cloth in white suddenly covered my nose from behind..I

was immobile, stunned and shocked ...

The only person am in the room with me was Nate, why would he wanna hurt me, what have i

done ....

an unvoiced screamed echoed through my head as I struggled and clenched my fist hard

Speedily before the drug would take effect I rolled and gave him a kung fu dim mak ..

"Gbaooooo"

I watch him ~y as he swing violently he landed his heavy body on the stool placed beside the

bed... instantly he went blank out ...

I was crying now as I faced my intruder ,

it hurts to focus as I valiantly fight the effect of the drugs,,

The drug was in full control now,

this time when the door opened slowly,,

I couldn't see much anymore ,

My hand and head wouldn't move no matter how hard I concentrate ..

they wouldn't move damn it ...

But why Nate, I refuse to accept what he did to me a while ago...

My eyes were going blurry, have never felt so weak, the paralysis terrified me, it was like being

sealed in a stiz cocoon..

I was crying so hard now as the persons presence materialized me ...

it was nerve racking not being able to see him clearly .....

I focused, the figure I saw made me realise he was a man ..

I was raising my hands shakily, slowly he took them and brutally shove me against the wall ..

Almost immediately i groaned so hard as my visions instantly gave out on me ..

******

I woke up as a low moan escaped my sore chest ...I sat straight in great deal of discomfort .

Lord

a pain painfully pierced in between my privates.

For a minute there was confusion in my gaze

I cast at myself, then understanding, as i recalled where i was and what had happened..

My heart beat escalated dramatically at the light coming into the room i realise it was new year

already...

"Oh lord"

I widened my eye at the blood stained on my cloth..

I was blinking furiously now at the understanding ...

"No it can't be"

my brains couldn't comprehend anymore ..I clenched my teeth hard not to call to attention with my

tears ..

The room was empty and i immediately realise Nate was gone

A small sound of terror escape in me as I helplessly call to him...

"It hurt so much, it hurt "

I beat my hands on my chest and cry some more ...

'it hurt God'

"What have I done to Nate, what have i done, all I ever did is love him,

all I ever did is love him for Christ sake .."

memory of last night came with a pang ..

And all over again I reduced myself to tears . ..

the world of fantasies I live in had frantically cascade itself and I knew right at the moment

everything is over...

The beautiful resonance in the name of love all left me during the most disastrous moment of my

life ...

What about those sweet dreams of making love with the man I thought I would spend the rest of

my life with..

The dream of making love in Paris ...

perhaps a memory of tragedy had come crawling its way into my life.

All in no other day but the very beginning of a new year .

I wasn't sure I wanted to imagine how many of them must have brutally r*ped me ..

Nate was a monster in disguise ...all men are ..

I bit my lips hard to hold my scream ..this grogginess and pains was my own now , ...mine only ..

Who else's but mine, not those men, but mine ...

"Oh lord"

I squeezed my eyes closed in an attempt to starve oz the ongoing mounting panic ..

But I couldn't even hear myself think, the world had played a cruel joke on me, love had played a

joke on me ...

My life was now a disaster, a ruined one ...

Nate left me, he betrayed my love and trust ..

Why God, I hold on to the rapid bang in my chest and squeezed my skin so hard..

what have I done, thought you loved me Nathan, thought you love me ...

I couldn't help but cry out this time ..

Heaven bind me the power to hold on to this ruin, I wasn't sure I wanted to continue living with this

...

It hurt so much,

With more sni{ng cry, I realize I was drinking my tears like wine,

But does it matter,

My privates hurts like hell...

With slow motion I made my way into the bath room and ran some warm water adding a cupful of

Savlon into it

"Nate brought me here to destroy me,"

I pull off my messed up cloth and lowered myself into the tub..

inspite of the warmth I found myself shivering so hard...

I spent another hour crying and screaming at the world ..

I was in fact blaming God

Men shouldn't be part of Human race, how heartless they could be,

I hurt so much,

Two weeks to my wedding and they did this to me, including the man I thought I love, what kind of

ill luck is this ...

What have I done to God for him to write me such bad fate ...

Am just an innocent girl who }ghts kung fu ever since I was a kid,

All i ever do is kung fu damn it ,

Having Nathan in my life was a whole kinda new feeling I cherished ..

A feeling I hold on to, a feeling I intended to carry on ..

But what did I get ...

Absolutely nothing ...

My dad was in fact really right ..

An illustrious warrior is one who stands fearless to fight to the last breath ...

This shouldn't take me down, they rapped me , but it shouldn't take me down ..I reached for the

towel as I sni|ed more tears ...

My heart hurt so much ...

I made my way into the room as my sight catches a paper on the floor ...

With tears falling straplessly all over again, I picked it up and glanced through it ...

It was Nathan's hand writing ...

Hi Silvia ,

I know you must have really hate me

by now,

You must have pictured me as a monster...God

Yes I am indeed a monster...

A monster who left you and I really hate myself for it..

but believe me,

what happened wasn't intentional ...it wasn't intentionally done at all.

I had issues with these rich guys..

I never knew how they found out my girl friend was a virgin ...I swear I never told anyone ....

They threatened to free me if I allow them take your virginity...

All they wanted is you Silvia ...just you

I was going crazy and helpless ,

they threatened me with so many

stuff still I refuse ...

But when they offered me fifty Million dollars... I find myself accepting the offer,

I knew it believe me, i knew you were gonna beat them all if I let you know ...

but still I let some damn cash come }rst before you ...and I regretted it, I regretted everything when

I realised how happy you were last night..

but there was no turning back ...

I already accepted the cash, If only I could rewind time..

Am so sorry you lost your virginity ...

I would have love to be the guy to take that, I wanted you as my wife believe me .....if not why

would I have kept you ...

But just know it was only one person who raped you, just one okay...

Am sorry..

I already transfered five million to your account ,,

Please take care of your self ...

I will always love you no matter what ...

Nate ...

I was shocked as I shakingly dropped the letter, I staggered towards the bed, my heart was

pounding as different kind of horror flashed around me ..

"No no it can't be"...

Tears were falling, falling miserably like snow..

My teeth was indeed hammering against each other ...

With blurry vision I slid on the ~oor ...

I cry out my heart, this pain was too much,

It was too much for me to take ...

I coughed so hard, have never felt this scared in my life,

I gasped as I slowly called for help, I realise I couldn't breath anymore ,

Was I dieing...

Is this how it feels if someone Is about to die ...

"Help" I called out slowly

"Help me please",

Somebody help...

in the next second ..

I fell on the floor and I knew at the moment the world is nothing but a mere dark smoke ...