behind my back

so today is sunny day as usual but who care i have to ready for classroom i wake up late today also and mom gonna be give me good lecture today also it no good it happend all days it like cycle of my life late for the school is my hobby i have to accept my faith from now on i have to promise myself to wake up early as i plead . mom once again call me in loud voice yao huh its not good i have to change to my school unform as soon as possible as i checked my bag all right i have to get going .then i went down grom stair then i went to kitchen room i pick up breed and i escape as fast as possible mom i s doing some work so mom not gona lecture me today i am saved . and i think i looked my watch it 8;20 men i locked the door i think my younger brother went already leave it i have to pick a pace i running from my home to school it take around. 10 minute if you run fast like me then you can reach in blink of eye like supermen .. hah as i laugh in my mind so my name is kurikisa yao i am in high school second year my date of birth 24 july now i am around like may be 17

so basically i am so skinny men if wind blow fast i will no were to see it people think about me. when i am young around 4-5 i look so cubby but like when i grow i think my immune sysyem not working properly my body not provide sufficient nutrition to my body i think i have some problem with my body i eat enough but i dont get any results so i give up . i dont care about anymore i am used to if you become fat then people start tease you if you gona skinny people definitely tease you more in my case i have some friend for protection so it good.but in the world you have to compromise life like a equilibrium that all sort type of problem happend with all people so i am not extraordinary if you have beautiful face girl attract toward you more if you no not good looking they dont want to proper bond with it like for killing time they talk to you i learn in life good look and better personality not give you succeed in life it happend in some cases but not in my case if you have good heart then.you are good enough to called as good .. it my opinion anyway who care.

some have voilent nature and bad attitude you will meet one day definitely like in bus,train or in school world like a big men i am small portion no small i am like tiny particle i know who i am were i am came from i dont wana be rich i just happy with my middle class family i hate rich people men they have different type of vibe and they show thier money everywere i saw this type of think frequently i am talking not about every rich some you got it ? .. as i thinking about many think i reach my destination it my yuuma high school it to big it definitely big from inside from outside it not that good dont judge by it cover it have 3 floor my classroom in second floor anyway it have big ground swimming pool and many more i tell you later it pain in ash to explain i am not good in explain things anyway i am in soccer club dont be shocked i am decent in sports i am anyway play striker position if you decent in football you know what i mean . ? am i wrong if you dont know please Google it as fast as possible it help to gain some knowledge .

as many thoughts runs in my mind i come to my sense it school bell ** men first period already start i saved i am not late at all .. i have to ignore today conversation with other because i have to go fast as possible to home and i have to complete some. series it pretty interesting it have news all over the world i am talking about *game of thrones * i dont anything let see if interested i will complete series's as fast as possible . because i dont like waiting so i wait for this moment to come . any series i am not watch ongoing because it pain in ash i dont like to wait i never wait for anybody in my life so if series complete then it take around 2 or maximi 1 week to complete whole series i am type of guy who know how to kill time if anyone dont know please contact me i will tell you different type of methode lol dont take it seriously i am joking so nevermind so i have to go fast as possible .. to home

school like magnetic field it attracts you more but it not leave you that easily . i give you some my life experiences when i was at home not doing anything or i take break from school in home you thing about all time about school what happend today what going on bla bla we are curious about what happend at school so many matter running on mind like someone propose my crush anyway i dont have any crush or is some one talk about me behind my back. many thoughts runs in brain .. then next day if you go in clasroom. they talk discuss matter of fact about yesterday incident men .. it hurt men if you also pain i know you also went through this like situation .. and if you present school not single good activity will occur . so i am coming school all day to hope something gona happend eventually not a single thing happend till now i just waiting for that moment .

so i enter the classroom i saw some familiar faces i am good relationship with everyone except girl so they greet me smile it like you see so much light in once men my eye burning i greet then i went to my seat .my seat is near the window . i am not talk much with girl i dont have that much guts as i am younger once i play with many girl i know in your childhood you dont realise the opposite sex . then as i think now men girls are scary in good intention mark my word

so i just spaced out i looked outside the window i saw some student with hair band with head they working with NGO like clean city program it good men they are real hero it better to teach younger generation about other activities also it also improve your moral and one girl lead them she is like politician but she is in second year in my age i think i dont want to compare with her i dont like to stand out i am better in behind screen anyway back to the topic she in B or C sections something like that who care in our school in second year their are 3 section divided like A B C it not based on how intelligent you are it based on luck which section you provide by school i am in section A anyway i dont have any idea how i got this but i want section C because they have some decent girl in our class i dont maximum are boy some are girl like 2:3 ratio i want equality men i know what you think . you think i am frustrated because i dont have girlfriend hah please i dont want any girlfriend anyway i am good in single life i just want to single forever that my goal .. in my heart i want girlfriend but nowday relationship like plastic use and throw it my view point anyway dont judge me all have their opinion .you know i saw some decent relationship they spend around around 6 month after that they break up and what are their reasons i tell you girl say

" he talk with girl i heard from my friends"

and boy told

"she talk with boy i heard from my best friend "

they dont have understood between and they dont have truet between then humane psychology i study in some article that say no relation hold candal till end it will burn if you hold more it better to throw away and start with better next time it good to learn from mistake .... as your grow little by little you see some molecule and particle attack your bond and your bond will break eventually so all the best who are in relationship in now .

i spacing out homeroom teacher telling something i am not listening anyway my eye on outside the window .. then the girl lead the group men they are going outside they take a walk around 500 meter men i want to go also as i space out homeroom teacher shout at me yao yao

" yes mam "

" please read next paragraph "

huh what how should i dont know what chapter going on as i look behind me he murmur the said in low voice from ' girl went to hospital ' as i search i textbook i found it then i read with confidence i am not that good in english anyway . like my english simple understand by kids as i read whole paragraph them teacher told

" sit down "

then i sit quietly then after that in front bench i his name is something like yamato yeah yamato i guess teacher told hime to start reading then .. he stand without saying anything he just stand i think he dont know how to read i guess or he dont want to read i dont know then teacher told him

" what is this yamato i dont have whole day "

after that he just murmur himself . then mam told another person to read and yamato still standing like that what his deal i dont know . then first period end like as usual then next period math's yeah i love maths anyway today have some test.

as we get math's sheet and men they have some decent questions like trigonometry 3 dimensional geometry as i look on paper .. as i evert my eye i saw yamato who dont even touch his paper may be he dont study or he confidence in himself he can good mark who care i dont wana be a stalker who digging other life problem .. they have to deal theirself only no one Gona help you until you try first it my philosophy ..

as 30 minute pass i complete my sheet and i handover to sir and went outside i have to wait till they complete their exam so i have to kill the time outside the classroom what to do time like this should i go ground ... let go it better from this atmosphere anyway i dont like exam because i dont want to compete with other if marks and exam is not their in the world it will be so peaceful i guess but it never gona be happend you have to do some competition if you want to succeed in life .. it is been like this for centuries .if i have some powe then i will change all things ... as i spaced out in looking at beautiful nature wind is so warm it feel like i come in heaven as i kill time not do anything staring butterfly and rose ..

then i heard lunch break bell so i stood from my seat and think about what should i do i should i go and buy from canteen i have to do fast if anyone saw me they will follow i want peace in my lunch break so i went to canteen men in lunch break it so much rush i buy some cream bread i took and went to school rooftop i open door men door is so heavy then i inhale some fresh air men it feeling amazing it like whole world silent so much peace in classroom i got to much headache like hearing those laugh and nonsense stuf i dont like noise pollution i need some fresh room for me alone i dont like to interact with people but they feel happy talking with me anyway .who care how they but i unwilling to talk with them .. thinking about i open my my cream bread quietly and then i realise lunch break will be over soon men .. if you have good time then time flies like light speed then i locked rooftop door and went to clasroom as i locked the door then girl suddenly told me

" student not allowed in rooftop you know "

who think you are miss you also student why are you here in this time lunch break gona be over soon she have some bad attitude i dont like those types of girld specialy she think herself superior i guess who care she have illusion you think world is move around you but you wrong miss thousand or million are better then you so dont give me you are so much intelligent i hate those people who think theirself far better them other . all are equal in their in my perspective but i cant say this to her i will get punch what should i tell i have to escape this situation as fast as possible if someone saw with girl then the rumours will spread i cannot face any body i dont like spread about me then i told

" i just dont know i will keep in mind "

as i told with good intention she dont have any word remaining . i know if you argued about this then it more complicated my word like apolize she also understand what i mean someone think they are better then told them you are right men then dont have any remaining word to say it my fast methode of innovation so i escape quietly without any further conversation i know their no way she talk after what i said.

i just went to my classroom and sit my bench then one my classroom buddy came and talk his name is like haymoto something like i guess but what business he have with me but he close buddy from childhood and he play games with me for he like tool for me to kill time i dont believe in true friendship anyway he then speak

" hey yao whatsup "

" hah nothing much just killing time. you say "

" boring men so today at night "

hey hey wait a second dont say stuff like this what is mean of today at a night looking like you are doing some night business and i am not your partner but anyway he talking about games what should we play today at night i am nightmen mean i am wake up all night like a batmen i have mission to.do something like kill time play games and some romantic novel but today i have different plain i have to watch some series but how should i just reject let se

" yeah night ok ok "

i told him with evert my eye in another direction then he not told any word and pat in my shoulder and then went his seat because next period gona start.

last period is over men my mood ruined today also boring i sighed i wait for all classroom to be empty i know me and one girl and two boy behind me are not left till now i think they have some business private or like they killing time i stood up and went to halway to main entrance gate .. i am not attend today practice because i am not in mood today also i also dont bring my outdoor shoe so it better i will be get going as i just pass by entrance gate a loud voice come from behind he running and approaching me what now what he need from me he from soccer club anyway so it like half buddy he greet me i think he need something from me i know humane nature i experienced quiet well beacause anyone dont approach you without having no reason they need some favour from. you i know this much from looking his face i am good at reading humane face his name is sora he has always gloomy face why he is smiling today any good thing happend to him is he get girlfriend or something like that i guess who care enjoy your life boy then he said .. he aproch me with heavy breath it look like he tired by running 90 meter he tired how he gona win tournament like this men he is unfit then he sigh then said

" were are going are you not coming for club " he said

" no i have something important thing to do in home so . i am not "

he looked liked he dont have any word to say i know i am not good terms with football guys i have to espace as fast as possible if he ask me anything i cannot ignore just so i have to escape so then i said

" i get going see you in practice tomorrow "

i told him then i pass by entrance gate i know he had gloomy face it look like he hates me who care i dont care about anyone so i am good in my way .

then i reach my heaven yah it my home so peace and quiet as i enter home i saw mom doing some work then i said

" i am home "

then mom from living room said with loud voice

" yao snack in kitchen table "

" yeah mom "

i dont have energy left in my voice then once more mom said

" and leave some snack for minato and hirato "

" yes mom "

then i went to my room it like my leg is so heavy i cant climb stair please someone pick me as i slowly climb i open my door change then i saw my room as usual so mess i have to clean some day but that never gona happend if mom gona scold me then it gona be fast ... i have to wait until then .. then unwilling i change my school uniform then i pick some casual cloth then went to down kitchen room and pick my snacks i saw strawberry cake it loking so delicious i just pick one cake and went to my room and eat in my table it ..