Confuse

Twelve:

Dream World

What exactly am I doing now?

I think of it but a face just pops out into my head that cause me to take very deep, deep breath.

"You let out a very deep breath, Jeanne." It was Red, she's my second best friend here in my Dream World and I like her because she is more of a good listener and a good advisor although she really loves to read book which is why you will always find her holding a book through her face rather than talking to people, that I quite sometimes getting annoyed but in the end I loving it too. Also, she never ever called me to my nickname, 'Anne', because she prepares to call me to my full name, 'Jeanne' which I think I like too.

"Red!" I quickly grab her both hands and like I am praying I hold it so tight and pleaded. "Will you please help me?"

"Of what?"

"I…" I don't know how I can explain it.

"You couldn't explain it, right?"

"Oh!" my spirits quickly overjoyed because of what I heard from her. "You were right! It's really hard to explain what's happening to me."

"Then, first, will you please calm down and please stop taking out a very deep breath because it reduces happiness."

"Alright, I'll do as you told. But…"

Red smiles at me before she answered. "We have things we can't explain or simply understand."

"Exactly!"

"So, why don't you just let it?"

"Let it? What do you mean?"

"It's just like a river, just let it flow freely and even if there are roads that are difficult to cross, it will also pass and you will know what caused your suffering. At first you will be confused and it will be difficult for you to understand why you have to go through there but if you are accepted and your mind is open you will find all the answers in the end."

I agree with her, I am confused so much it gives me a headache and I really hate this kind of feeling plus, the mysterious man was added to my confusions which makes me want to kick him out to my world. Yet, the question is how?

"What if you find out that the end isn't that good enough to end all your confusions?" I seriously asked as I finally released her hands.

"End never meant to end, it only means, end will always meets its beginning." She answered that added to my confusion. "Make it simply, Jeanne." She quickly added as she sees the confusion drawn into my face.

"How?"

"Try to accept yourself. Of whom you are, of what you are capable of and of what you can do that you already knew from the beginning."

I don't know but I feel like she knows something that is really going on with me but whenever I think I dream this whole place, I'm so sure everything I see, touch, go to and talk to is fabrication of my broad mind.

…

"You were still here." suddenly 'Mr. Mysterious' came.

"¿Y que estás haciendo aquí?"

"Waiting for you." He simply answered which thrilled my heart.

"Will you stop it?!" I scolded him.

"Stop what?"

'F@ck it!' What does he want from me?! "Alright, let us say that you are here to protect me but then, will you please stop it. Just stop! And just focus to your girlfriend." I said as I passed through to him.

"Yes she's my 'girl-friend' but not as my 'girlfriend'." He replied that halt my steps. "And she understands why I need to be with you." He added that made me to turn my head back at him.

"What?!"

Almos walks closer and leaned forward that made me so step back a little and he said. "I know you understand what I said. Now," he stands up straight. "You'll wake up."

"Wha…"

…

My eyes automatically opened and when I look around I found myself lying in my bed.

'Ahhh!' I screamed to myself as I slam my both hands at the both sides of my bed. 'I hate you, Almos!' I screamed to my mind and because I couldn't scream out loud, all I can do is screamed in silence.

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Park

"How long are you going to stay like that?"

I barely looked back at Chadd and I just continued to swing the swing and since it's Saturday now, we don't have class so I have a lot of time to waste. First on the list is to spend my time riding rides in our subdivision park. Second was to be alone all day long but then I cannot control what will happen next, because by accident Chadd saw me in the park and now he was just there while looking at me.

"Jeanne!" he called out but this time he went at my front and stop me from swinging.

"What?" I lazily asked while looking at him with so much boredom.

"You're bored."

"Yes."

"Why?"

"I don't know." Or maybe it is all because of 'him'.

"You--"

"I have to go!" I suddenly announced and pushed him aside so that I can walk away.

"Where are you going?" he asked as he follows me.

"Uhm, I think I already knew where."

"Huh?"

"Stop!" I said and I also stop and without turning I said. "Don't follow."

…

What was on my mind and here I went?

I was in front of the church where I met Almos, not in a dream but in my waking hours. Now, I am hoping I can see him here even though I know it will be impossible.

Well, I'm already here so why not I pray before I go home.

I decided and go inside to pray but before I could go in, the wind suddenly becomes cold and the sky suddenly shades dark and before I knew it. Creatures with a dark cape and hood emerge out of the dark.

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