I think i need a rehab

"Aam! aw! i was too far, sorry!"

He said while shaking his head like a person awakening from the deep thoughts.

"Aam"

"Today, i came with nothing but my heart"

"So, i tried atleast to quote them somewhere but even in this wasn't enough" He said so affectionately as he was taking out his letter.

"I decided to do this because i believe you can hear me. I mean am not quite sure b-but just listen"

Yo' ready?

Let's go! He said and opened an envelope with an affectionately smile that she really loved the most.

"Dear Xandra" He sighed and took a deep breath before continuing

They say stars do shine even at the day,

but because of the sun, they become unsighted.

It has been a long day, long year, and i have been trying to search for them on the sky, but failed.

"Infact am still searching" he hesitated and glanced at the outside sky which was now turning dark

I miss every little moment that we had

it's kind hard to forget.

Infact am ready to do anything to make sure that you are back, am getting sick of waiting

but i know, one day the stars will shine upon us.

"But when, I don't know, And still don't know!"

This is Naomi's question, and i have been lying to them so many times.

"By the way if you promised them any Christmas gifts? Hah!

You're in for it, better come back earlier, i know you know what they capable of. Message sent and delivered! Hahh" a little smile beeped his face before going further,

His expression was becoming deeper and deeper as more he could read.

"I didn't have a chance to say these words before, but i just want to let you know that you truly mean alot to me.. it hurts more and more to see you going through all this by yourself, i wish i could help, i wish i could know what you want,where, what's going on, b-but.. "He sighed

I have been listening to your voice notes over and over, going through your pictures, more than thousand times, i think i need a rehab.

So to whatsoever world you are right now, just know that someone is really waiting for you. This world doesn't give me true meaning of life without you xandra.. i-i..

[He hesitated as a little tear from his face wet his letter he tried to recompose him but little did he know that, it was beyond human experience, he was so strongly moved.

"So I won't stop telling you to get well soon"

He said and glanced at her closed eyes and wish if they could atleast blink even once.

I believe you didn't fall asleep there.. Huh!

next time i will try to be short.

[ He smiled and wiped the teardrops that remained]

***

It was silent then!

he was contemplating all that he was reading to her and wish atleast to hear a word from her.

He gazed upon her for a while without altering any word. and suddenly the door was opened , It was Noreen, her nurse.

"Hey Nick" She said while returning the ward door

"Hi" He said and returned back his letter.

"You good?" She asked while checking Xandra's breathing machine.

"Yeah ,sure!" He said and stood

"Okay! Let us see how this beautiful lady here doing"

"Sure!" He said

"Aaw God!" She murmered and rapidly check her cardiac monitor machine"

"Is everything okay?" He asked in surprise.

"Noreen!" He insisted but before he was answered She had already picked the phone and called!

"Emergency"

"This is ICU department, Ro. No. 09 ,

call for the code blue team"

"Status?"

"Prolonged QT interval" She said non-stop while rapidly connecting the Thumper, ready for rescistation.

With in no seconds. Running footsteps were heard outside the collidor and this made Nick more anxious.

"What's wrong?" Nick thought of himself in surprise.

"I mean she was good right?" He kept on insisting in his mind

"Doctor Hancen!" She said

"Her vitals please"He asked

"Blood sugar 132mg/dL,

"Mg level 1.6mEq/L"

"last time Check?"

"Two hours ago"She said.

"Shit! It mighty have started a long time then"

He said while wearing the surgical gloves.

"Give her 5mg Lopressor" Change her Posture and lower the tidal volume tube.

"Ready?"

"Yes"

"Start"

"Wag, wag, wag "

"Wag, wag, wag"

The room was so busy and he observed every drop of their sweat trying to save her life. The tears started to come along, he was hitting his own chest in fear, and afraid of anything bad that could happen after.

It was so scaring, his thoughts made him think like he caused all of that.

But how! he didn't know.

Many questions kept on coming but none he managed to answer.

No body could answer his questions. And before he could go on with his thoughts, a nurse came rapidly telling him to leave the room.

"What's wrong with her?" he asked in fear

"Mr. Nick i insist to you leave the room and let us do our work" She insisted with her eyes, telling him that there were no time for conversations.

"He didn't get it all and at last he decided to leave" But little did he know that even outside it was hot as on the inside. He was confused, he tried to reach her mum but wasn't online.

"No!, No! No! No! No! this cant be"

"It can't really be" He was afraid of whatsoever bad that could come after.

He could blame himself for what he did for the rest of his life.

He was moving here and there murmering and calling the heavens to save her.

She was the one that his heart had been so much taken. What gave him endeless worries was not having her back. he was very sure that nobody else could fill that gap.

He loved her so bad, his arms were shaking,

his mouth kept on trying to alter words but failed. a little stream of sweat was coming from his face,

Anxiously thinking and waiting. But a little voice kept on telling him "everything will be fine"

"Yah everything will be fine"

"Sure! everything will be fine" He kept on saying this till he sat on the bench closer to her room.