[84] SWEETNESS

I wanted to slap away his hand but I quitted the feeling and welcomed the one of keeping calm and hearing him out "Lara, I know the last thing you want to hear from me is sorry, which I've been saying but I... I shouldn't have let Thompson's words get to me but they did, and I was just being stupid to hold onto them and be against you. Honestly, I haven't been myself since then and I want to feel me Lara, and to feel me is by being with you... Forgive me even if you don't want me as your boyfriend but at least we can still cherish one another without including the word boyfriend or anything. Please, Lara... I know I'm not good with words but I hope you see how I truly feel about you ". I gasped and looked away from him to blink back the tears that were threatening to fall out....am I truly crying? What is making me cry? Oh, dear. I berated. I just couldn't believe I would ever feel soft to the knees because of any guy. New York, what have you done to me!.