179. I'm jealous, I'm jealous from the bottom of my heart. I'm afraid that one day he will snatch you away

Song Beibei fell silent.

Her heart was filled with bitterness again.

How was it that she ignored him?

It was that he was creating cold violence.

Perhaps both of them were responsible.

But in the past, it was always Gu Yanqing who lowered his head first.

This was the first time. It had been a month.

Song Beibei was becoming more and more uncertain.

Did Gu Yanqing really not care anymore.

She was building up her mind every day.

Perhaps this time, the two of them had really come to an end.

Perhaps this time, they were really at the end of their rope.

She had no idea what Gu Yanqing was thinking at all.

But as long as she closed her eyes, the image of him hugging Gu Wanjing would still appear in her mind.

And those cold words of his.

Song Beibei was no longer sure if Gu Yanqing still loved her now.

Perhaps, she had never been sure of love before.

The car drove to the song family's old residence.

The housekeeper and Zhong Junjie sent Gu Yanqing to his room together.

Aunt Feng sighed when she saw how drunk Gu Yanqing was. "Why are you drunk like this again? You've only been back from the hospital for a few days. "

Aunt Feng was so excited when she saw Song Beibei that tears were about to fall. "Miss, where have you been these past few days? Why haven't you come back after such a long time? If you don't come back, Mr. Gu will really destroy himself. "

Song Beibei didn't know what to say.

She just said, "Aunt Feng, make some sobering soup. "

Aunt Feng went to the kitchen to make soup. Song Beibei hesitated for a while before going to Gu Yanqing's room.

Standing at the door, Song Beibei had an illusion.

She kept feeling as if she had experienced this scene before.

After thinking for a while, she finally understood. It turned out that in the past, she was the one who got drunk. Gu Yanqing had someone make soup to sober her up, but today, the roles were reversed.

Song Beibei walked in.

Gu Yanqing fell asleep on the bed.

But he didn't sleep well. His brows were still furrowed, and he would mumble occasionally.

But he was curled up in the bed.

He was like a baby in its mother's womb.

Song Beibei had never seen Gu Yanqing like this before. He seemed especially vulnerable.

Song Beibei had read online that people who slept in this position didn't feel safe.

Why did Gu Yanqing not feel safe?

He already had everything.

Gu Yanqing was very quiet. Song Beibei walked closer to take a look. Even though she had drunk so much wine, the smell on her body wasn't mixed. The smell of orchids mixed with the aroma of wine. It was just as cold and didn't smell bad.

His body was still clean. He was so drunk that he was unconscious. However, there was not a single alcohol stain on his clothes.

It was not noisy or noisy. It was quiet and quiet. It was indeed Gu Yanqing's style.

Song Beibei just stood by the bed and watched for a while.

Until Aunt Feng came over with the hangover soup.

Song Beibei said, "let Mr. Gu drink it. "

She then turned around and went back to her room.

She had just sat down not long ago.

Aunt Feng came over and knocked on the door. She said that Mr. Gu refused to drink the hangover soup no matter what.

Song Beibei said, "since he's asleep, let him sleep. "

Aunt Feng said, "mister is already awake and he's drinking himself. He's been like this for the past few days. The next morning, he woke up as if nothing had happened. Then one day, he suddenly fell down. It's too scary. Miss, please go and take a look. I don't know what's gotten into Mister Gu these days."

Song Beibei still got up and went to Gu Yanqing's room.

Gu Yanqing was awake as expected.

He Sat on the Sofa and took a bottle of XO from the wine cabinet.

Pouring it into the bottle, he could swallow half a cup in one gulp.

He really didn't care about his life.

Song Beibei walked over and snatched the bottle away.

"Gu Yanqing, who are you showing your depravity to? "

It had been a month, and Song Beibei finally spoke to Gu Yanqing for the first time.

Song Beibei was really angry.

Her chest rose and fell slightly.

Only the wall lamp was turned on in the room.

The faint blue light was like the glow of a candle in the forest, giving off a hazy color.

Gu Yanqing finally raised his head slowly. When he saw Song Beibei, he was actually expressionless and didn't look the least bit shocked.

His gaze fell quietly on Song Beibei, and his gaze became gentler.

After a long while, a smile appeared on his lips. "Get me a glass of water, I'm very thirsty. "

Song Beibei frowned. Did Gu Yanqing take him for a master?

She had just returned, and he was already ordering her around?

However, Song Beibei still turned around to get him some water.

She had just finished pouring the water, and before she could turn around, Song Beibei was wrapped around her waist from behind.

The intense, alcohol-scented heat directly sprayed onto her neck.

Gu Yanqing felt her earlobe heat up. He actually bit down on her earlobe and sucked on it heavily.

Song Beibei felt as if she had been struck by lightning. Her blood flowed backward and her entire body stiffened instantly.

It only took her a second to react

She put down the Cup in her hand and turned around to push Gu Yanqing away.

However, when she turned around, she was instead pulled into Gu Yanqing's embrace.

Gu Yanqing was surprisingly strong today. His hands were like iron pincers that grabbed her hands and fixed them behind his back.

The scalding kisses landed densely on her.

It was more urgent and violent than ever before. It was like a person dying of thirst in the desert suddenly getting caught in a heavy rain. It was the kind of almost crazy absorption, the undisguised greed of plunder and possession.

Song Beibei could hardly breathe. The air in her lungs seemed to have been sucked clean in an instant.

Her brain was deprived of oxygen, and her entire body felt like it was being ironed by an iron net of roasted sweet potatoes. Every inch of her body was burning hot, and she felt extremely uncomfortable yet powerless to struggle.

In fact, her brain was still barely awake.

What was happening now?

Who did Gu Yanqing think she was?

Was she pretending to be crazy and doing whatever she wanted?

Song Beibei struggled with all her strength to break free from one of her hands. She picked up a glass of water that had just been poured from the tea table behind her and splashed it fiercely on Gu Yanqing's face.

The air seemed to freeze for a moment.

Gu Yanqing's lips finally let go of hers.

Gu Yanqing's face and clothes were already drenched, but there wasn't a hint of anger in his eyes when he looked at Song Beibei. Instead, there was a hint of bewilderment in his eyes.

Song Beibei took the opportunity to push him away. "Gu Yanqing, wake up. Look at who I am. I'm Song Beibei, not your good sister. "

When Song Beibei said these words...

She was actually very sad.

It was as if there was a thorn in her heart. It pierced deep into her flesh and blood lay on the ground, but she couldn't pull it out no matter how hard she tried.

So this was how Gu Yanqing would react when he was drunk.

So, these past few days, Gu Yanqing had been drunk every day.

And every day, it was Gu Wanjing who took care of her.

In that case, would the scene just now also happen between them?

At the thought of this, Song Beibei's heart could not help but feel a bone-piercing pain.

So she still cared so much.

When she thought of how Gu Yanqing might have kissed another woman's lips to kiss her, Song Beibei only felt a wave of nausea.

The anger in her heart surged like a mountain and a sea.

Song Beibei wished that the water splashed out of the Cup was boiling hot. Even so, Song Beibei still could not vent her anger.

Tears welled up in her eyes.

However, Song Beibei held it in and did not fall down.

If she were to cry in front of Gu Yanqing now, it would be too embarrassing.

She did not want to become an abandoned woman who was abandoned and only knew how to shed tears.

Even though she was indeed like this now.

Gu Yanqing took two steps back and looked at the furious Song Beibei. He looked like he was panicking.

He wanted to go forward, but Song Beibei almost shouted, "don't come over. Stay away from me. Gu Yanqing, stay away from me. "

Gu Yanqing hurriedly took two more steps back. His eyes were still in a daze, but there was also an indescribable pain in them. "I know I was wrong. Don't be angry. Don't leave. Just stay with me for another ten minutes. "

Song Beibei stood where she was and her fingers were almost clenched into fists.

She didn't understand what Gu Yanqing was trying to do?

Who was he putting on such a pretentious act for?

Perhaps he was drunk.

He didn't recognize her anymore. Could it be that Gu Yanqing still thought that the person standing in front of him was the same Gu Wanjing who "took care" of him every day?

Song Beibei broke down even more. She ran towards the door.

She didn't want to stay here. She didn't want to look at Gu Yanqing's deep and heartrending eyes. ...

Who was he deeply in love with? Why was his heart aching?

Because he couldn't be with the woman he loved properly?

Because she, Song Beibei, had become a stumbling block for them?

Song Beibei had only taken two steps when Gu Yanqing grabbed her arm. "Don't go. "

Song Beibei turned around and gave Gu Yanqing a fierce kick without thinking.

Gu Yanqing didn't defend himself. He was kicked so hard that he took a step back.

He looked very sad.

His whole body was on the verge of collapsing. Then, he sat down on the SOFA dejectedly There was a hint of self-deprecation in his tone. "Forget it. If you want to leave, then leave. I've finally seen you today. I'm sure you'll be waiting for me at the same place tomorrow. But today was really good. I actually didn't wake up, did you know that "There were a few times when I suddenly woke up and you suddenly disappeared. I couldn't even catch you. How cruel. Even in my dreams, you didn't want to stay for long. Every time, you got angry. "

Gu Yanqing smiled. "It's my fault. I've made you angry again today. Beibei, can you forgive me? I've been very scared these past few days. Because I couldn't even dream of seeing you, I had no choice but to drink. You can come back tomorrow. Then you can go, my girl. Goodnight. "

When Song Beibei heard Gu Yanqing's words, it was as if she had heard the most vicious curse in the world.

Did Gu Yanqing think that she was dreaming?

He actually thought that she was dreaming! ! !

He didn't recognize the wrong person!

He called her Beibei, and he affectionately called her "my girl"

Usually, it was only the two of them who were the most intimate. When their love was strong, Gu Yanqing would involuntarily kiss her passionately and then call her "my girl" over and over again

Song Beibei felt like she was going crazy.

She couldn't control her tears, and they flowed down desperately.

Gu Yanqing seemed to be shocked. He ran over again and wiped her tears. "Did I do something wrong again? Don't cry. What do you want me to do, Beibei? What do you want me to do? "

Song Beibei suddenly hugged Gu Yanqing's neck tightly She buried her head in his chest and started to cry. "Gu Yanqing, you're such a bad guy. You're the worst bad guy in the world. Why did you treat me like this? You ignored me for a month. You didn't say a word to me or send me a message. You don't care about me and you don't love me at all! "

Song Beibei cried until she almost fainted.

Gu Yanqing kissed her again. "Don't cry. How can I not love you? Beibei, why don't you know that the person I love the most is you? "

Song Beibei cried hysterically. "But you and Gu Wanjing are having an affair. You ignore me and spend all your time with her. Gu Yanqing, do you love her? Are you together with her? " "Why did you say those things to me? Gu Yanqing, do you not love me anymore? "

Gu Yanqing's heart ached as he hugged her tightly. "There's nothing going on between Wanjing and me. It's not what you think at all. She saved me before, and I only feel guilty towards her. If you take it too hard, I'll take you with me whenever I see her in the future. These days, I go home every day because I can only see you when I'm at home. Even if it's only for two minutes, you won't come home even after such a long time. Do you know how upset I was the last time I saw my second brother send you back? You said you regretted it. You said how good it would have been if he had come to be your husband. I ignored you because I was jealous of him. I'm jealous of him from the bottom of my heart. Bei Bei, I'll treat you very well. Don't regret it. Don't get so close to Su Liangxiao, okay? I won't have any confidence either. Ever since I was young, my second brother has always wanted to compete with me in everything. I pretended not to care, but I know that I can't compete with him either. I don't have his sense of humor, and he won't make you happy. When I see you with him, you're always smiling. My heart hurts. Besides, this position in the song family belongs to him. I'm afraid. I'm afraid that one day, he'll snatch you away from me. Do you know how afraid I am... ? ". "... "..."

Song Beibei finally hugged Gu Yanqing tightly and burst into tears like a child.

These few days of separation were like a knife cutting into her heart inch by inch. The feelings of despair and doubt tormented her until she was on the verge of becoming half a lunatic.

Song Beibei felt that she might really not be able to hold on in the next second.

But at this moment, she seemed to have received salvation.

Such real body temperature, such warm embrace, and such a hot kiss seemed to slowly piece together her fragmented soul bit by bit.

Song Beibei felt that she never wanted to be separated again, never, ever, ever again.

Song Beibei only felt that she had endured a lot of pain that night, but also had extremely happy memories.

Her bones seemed to have fallen apart countless times, but they had been disassembled and put back together countless times. Every collision seemed to knock her soul out, as if someone had thrown her into an endless sea. The waves were turbulent, and each wave was higher than the other. She was drifting in the sea She had no one to rely on, and could only quietly cling to Gu Yanqing, this piece of driftwood. This was the only thing that belonged to her.

When she woke up, she didn't know what time it was.

In any case, the room was pitch black.

The floor-to-ceiling windows were also covered by thick curtains.

Gu Yanqing's hand was still placed across her chest. Song Beibei opened her eyes and quietly looked at the ceiling.

They hadn't had any contact these past few days.

But now, when she opened her eyes, Gu Yanqing was sleeping beside her.

Song Beibei actually felt that it wasn't real.

She quietly took Gu Yanqing's hand away.

She wanted to get up. If she remembered correctly, she had two big classes this morning.

However, just as she moved Gu Yanqing's hand away, it came up unceremoniously the next second.

In his sleep, Gu Yanqing seemed to be rather dissatisfied. He mumbled something and didn't open his eyes.

Song Beibei didn't hear him clearly either. She tried again but to no avail.

So she gave up.

She couldn't see the clock on the wall clearly.

Maybe it was already past time.

She sighed and continued to stare at the ceiling.

Everything happened too quickly. She was even a little worried.

Since Gu Yanqing was so drunk last night, would he forget everything he said last night when he woke up this morning.

Gu Yanqing had always been a tsundere. He would never say those words a second time.

Song Beibei was a little regretful.

She should have recorded everything.

But she couldn't help but feel happy.

It was as if the haze had finally cleared up after a long time.

Song Beibei turned around and reached out a hand to touch gu Yanqing's eyebrows, nose, and Chin.

This was one of Song Beibei's hobbies.

It was as if this was the only way to feel real.

Gu Yanqing was finally woken up by her.

The moment he woke up, he saw song Beibei's face, which was right in front of him, and he was still a little stunned. "Beibei? I'm not dreaming, am I? "

Song Beibei Thought of the situation last night and felt sad, pained, and amused.

So she pouted and said seriously, "yes, Mr. Gu, you're dreaming now. Actually, I'm not Song Beibei. I'm her 21-carat soul. When the sun rises, it will disappear automatically. "

Gu Yanqing suddenly turned around and pressed Song Beibei under him. "then we'll sleep until the end of time. The Sun will never rise. "

Song Beibei quickly pushed him. "Get up. I don't have the strength. I still have to go to school later. "

Song Beibei was really scared.

She had never thought that this man's physical strength would be so amazing.

In the past, Song Beibei had always mocked Gu Yanqing for working in the office all day. If he didn't exercise, his physique definitely wouldn't work out.

It seemed that he had really been too lenient with her in the past.

Gu Yanqing didn't force her. He had gone too far yesterday.

He turned around and flipped Song Beibei over, letting her lie on top of him. Their chests were pressed against each other. Gu Yanqing wrapped his arms around her back and closed his eyes slightly. "Let's hug for a while. "

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