Feels Like We Only Go Backwards

Idris is standing outside of the classroom. He is invisible. He is looking at the students that are vibrant with young energy. He still cannot accept the fact that he is forgotten by Udin. He is only associated with his trauma memories.

Udin is talking to Hakimi. He is angry when he see that. His heart is full of jealousy. Idris is standing near the window that is closest to the door. Why Udin only with Hakimi? He is his friend too. He is closer to Udin than Hakimi. He always with him before. Never once he left him alone. He cheer him up when Udin is sad. He is the one who calm him down when he had a nightmare. He cuddle him until he fall asleep. He is his playmate. They never separated . How come he can’t remember him? Deep down in his heart he feel the sadness that he can’t be free from.