Problem In Immortal Domain And Dark-Colored Gas

Sigh... why can't I just become a Supreme Being in peace?

I lament to myself while thinking about my current predicament.

I am the embodiment of chaos so whether I like it or not, I would never achieve peace or it will ridicule my identity as the embodiment of chaos.

The embodiment of chaos experiencing peace? That is the stupidest thing I ever heard today!

I would even believe if a male gets pregnant rather than an embodiment of chaos like myself experiencing chaos!

Anyway, the point is that I wouldn't experience any peace in my life unless I can overpower my origin and identity as the embodiment of chaos.

Of course, I can also try to become the embodiment of order to counter the effects of the embodiment of chaos but I would rather die than do that! That is just like giving up my identity just to cope with my weakness!

Eyveria fell in love with my true self, my chaotic self. If I became different from what she knew of me, wouldn't her feelings for me would become awkward?