Date 3

Grade 9 is almost over and grade 10 is supposed to be very important because it is from here that your career starts taking a shape. Whatever you have done till now doesn't matter if you can make up for it in the coming 3 years before stepping into College. But for me, nothing matters because the kind of qualification you need to enter into NIFT is all creative, imaginative and visual. A course and marks can't guarantee your entry but the creative abilities that you have will decide everything. But since I wanted to pursue Science in school I needed to get good grades only then getting science is possible though it is not in any way linked to the career path I have already decided I was only interested in Mathematics and Physics so at least for the sake of my interest and entertainment I have to start studying a little seriously.

Then, most of the girls in our class was interested in pop singers and everyone had a common favourite, Enrique Iglesias and we all had a huge crush on him. I already had a crush on him for a long period but since most of my classmates were getting to know him now he was at a high point of our Discussion most of the time and we use to go in awe over the sadness he portrayed using his eyes and the lyrics. Anupriya was sitting next to a girl named Riyanka and she became good friends with her who is a classical dancer and used to participate in a lot of events outside school and she was even a bit older than all of us. I was the one person in class whose seats changed every week sometimes I did it purposely and sometimes the class teacher did it but I was never fixed in one place and I liked the change because it provided an opportunity to know more people in the class and make me close friends. So I always had an extra friend assist from the people in my group and I vibed with all kinds of people instantaneously and currently, I purposely sat in front of Anupriya because only 4 people were sitting on that bench which typically had occupancy of 5. Anupriya, me and Riyanka use to talk every day about random stuff and one fine day Riyanka told us something I couldn't believe. It was like a dream come true but we didn't even dream about it till now because it was unimaginable. She told us that Enrique Iglesias is coming to India for a music tour and he will be visiting Kolkata as well for a one day show and Riyanka's friend is organising the show. We definitely couldn't keep calm and wanted to know more about it and how to get the passes to which Riyanka said why don't you guys directly approach him.

An evil plan started cooking inside mine and Anupriya's head, and we started making a plan on how to get things done so that everything turns to our advantage. Only one of us would approach him via Facebook and try to know him indirectly and see if we can work out a way to make him play our way. A very evil plan but we didn't care about it because it wasn't about some random guy but Enrique Iglesias. Finally, we concluded that I will be the one approaching him because I was more of an extrovert and social person whereas, on the other hand, Anupriya was more of an introvert so she might get awkward very easily. So that day I rushed back home and the first thing I did was searched for his Facebook profile. He didn't even have his profile picture on it and I called Shweta to confirm whether it was his profile or not. Shweta was partially a part of our plan but she wasn't completely into the evil part and we thought keeping her or of it would be the best thing as she was friends with him. He accepted my request in an hour or so and asked me "Whether I know him?!" and I said "No" and informed him that Shweta told me about you all and I just sent you a Request after that he like okay and we started talking. I made sure not to tell him anything about Enrique or the tickets and just try to know him a little. Though he didn't have any of his pictures in his profile I didn't care about how he looked. He asked me for my number and I gave him without any excuses and we started chatting over the phone but there was a catch that my mom was not letting me sleep with my phone as she was taking it every night with her so that I don't stay on phone so night and either sleep or study. I couldn't possibly tell him that and I had to find a way so that we can continue our conversation because the show was supposed to happen in a month and I had to know him before that. So I told about my plan to my sister Shreya and she was equally excited about it and promised to help me. Like every day Mom took my phone because my exams were approaching and closed her bedroom and now we had to open out a way to make her open the bedroom door so that I can sneak in and get the phone. We started with throwing one or two utensils and we used to hurt back to our room. And as soon as Mom came out of the room I used to follow Mom to see what has happened and my sister used to quietly sneak in and take the phone. My dad was already asleep by then so it didn't matter, but we can't keep doing the same thing every day so someday we made mom open the door because of something or the other and sometimes mom used to go to the washroom and we used to sneak in to get the phone. Some days it was an unsuccessful attempt and I had to tell him that in case I don't reply via text you can chat with me on Facebook. This continued for a week then he started getting more casual and a little flirtatious with me. The plan was working and I kept giving all the updates to Anupriya about it and she insisted that I ask him about the show but I felt it wasn't the right time and kind of waiting for him to ask first so that things don't get any more obvious or desperate. And finally, my patience paid off after one and a half weeks of a continuous conversation he told me about the show and asked me whether I like Enrique Iglesias or not. I couldn't keep my calm and without any hesitation, I took it to him that he is my favourite singer and I simply adored him. He told me that he will take me to the show and I can also ask my friends. I told him yes my sister and my best friend is equally in love with Enrique Iglesias and they would love it. The next day I reported this conversation to Anupriya and she was literally dancing and we even told Shweta and she was happy for us. She told us that she is already a part of the show and she would meet us backstage. Backstage we wondered seriously, are we seriously going backstage to meet him, all this seemed too good to be true and getting back into the reality that right now we have a whole day class ahead felt too torturous to continue with. Most of the time I was simply dreaming about what would be like to meet him and tried keeping a low profile that day so that no teacher would disturb me from the dream that I am weaving in my mind. Even dreaming about it felt so pressure so what would reality feel like. I wanted to enjoy every moment before I met and I was liking the wait as it will make the final moment even more pleasurable. I and Anupriya planned on gaining some weight and drink a lot of water so that we can glow before we meet the man of our dreams and what if in case he falls in love with one of us. Anupriya was a good singer and she planned on singing one of his songs which she will decide by today and start with the rehearsal. I couldn't decide on what should I do to impress him and planned on carrying a portrait of him as a Gift. This week was all about discussing him at school with Anupriya and at home with Monal, my sister. My sister was a little practical than us and she was completely not floating with us but right now but nothing mattered at the moment as I was too occupied with the fantasy. Meanwhile, that guy Aryan told me that he is going to the USA for a week as he had a meeting with Enrique regarding the show and other important aspects relating to his visit to India. I requested him to get me an autograph and he said okay and asked him whether I want anything will else to which I said no. He said the be less conversation between us since he will be gone for a week and I didn't care honestly. He also told me that once he comes back he will make a plan to meet me and I didn't mind. He left the next day and like he said we didn't talk so much because he got busy and I thought the time zone must be different so it reduces the consistency of the conversation but honestly I was not even thinking about him and only about the fact that he will get me the Autograph I have been waiting for with maybe my and Enrique''s name it. It was a week already but he was still not texting so I and Anupriya asked Riyanka and she told her must not be back yet. After 10 days he texted me again and he told me he couldn't get the Autograph but last time he told the Autograph for his friend so he has a digital copy of it and he can give it to me but it is like taking the Autograph from Google and I can even get it in a higher resolution so I told him it is fine and he doesn't have to give me. I was not even a little bothered about it because I am going to see him anyway so I might as well try my luck and maybe get a picture with him. The next day Riyanka told something to Anupriya and she wrote a note and passed it to me. I couldn't believe my eyes when I read and wanted to thank God for such a blessing. Riyanka told Anupriya that Aryan is planning to arrange VIP seats for me and my friends for the show and he will also make sure that we meet Enrique Iglesias. I took a jump in happiness and it was so obvious that even the teacher asked me "What is the matter"?! I answered nothing but I was smiling with my mouth wide open but then she didn't insist on it and I went back to my land of fantasy thinking about all how I can meet him and what it would sound like when he calls me by my name. It was a sin to be fantasizing about him so deeply but what can I do when my heart is fluttering so loud. Meanwhile, I was in a dilemma whether I should thank him or pretend that I am unaware of whatever is happening, so I decided to thank him because Shweta must have told him already, so I texted him thanking him for the special privilege and he said it is totally fine and he also can't wait for me to introduce to Enrique. I finally told my Mom about it but not the entire story on how I landed up with the VIP pass and she didn't seem too keen about it asking me all sorts of questions and I don't know whether I answered smartly or gave an idiotic excuse but she let it pass after some time. On the other hand, I and my sister even decided what we were going to wear and played a little dress up game with our treasured accessories and heels. The next day I told Anupriya what I am going to wear and she also told me that she had picked up an outfit for herself but again she wasn't sure so she insisted that we go for shipping the coming weekend. Shweta, on the other hand, was a part of the crew member but we didn't know what exactly she was doing and when we asked her she seemed clueless herself and she told that Aryan has asked her to help him but not yet disclosed her exact roles and responsibilities. By now Jasprit has already suspected something is cooking between me and Anupriya and since we weren't so good at keeping secrets and the deal is already done so we thought there is no harm in running her through the entire background story. She initially got furious at the fact that we didn't tell her earlier and on the outer hand annoyed because we didn't include her in our plan but the fact is that she didn't even know who Enrique Iglesias but that wasn't her concern, she wanted to be aware of what is happening with our lives. The next day Aryan told me that he got a friend request from a girl named Jasprit and I told her she is from my School so you don't have to respond. I didn't tell her that she was my friend because I was too embarrassed, otherwise, he would be asking me how my friends got to know about him. So I portrayed her as I know my classmate but he still accepted his request though he wasn't replying to her. When Anupriya got to know that Jasprit has sent him a Friend's Request, Anupriya too did the same so this time I had to tell him that she is the one who will be coming with me so that is the reason why she approached you earlier. The next day he told me that there is an issue and his dad is taking care of the finances. He still has to buy us tickets but he said that is not a problem because the money will come back to him only but for accounting purposes, he has to show that the tickets were bought. I didn't know where he was going with this so I simply said okay. Then he told me that the cost of each ticket is some 90 dollars and the total sum would be 270 dollars for two people, he has 200 dollars and running short of 70 dollars so he asked me whether I could loan him that amount. I didn't know what to do and even I give him 70 dollars I will have to ask my parents for it and right now I didn't want to inform them especially before I get the tickets. So I asked Anupriya what should we do and she said that she can shell out 30 dollars but I had to manage the rest. So final me and my sister told dad and he said that he needs some proof and authentication. I haven't even meet Aryan yet so he told me that why don't I give you the 2 tickets I have already bought and you can pay me by next week for the third one. The next day finally I was supposed to meet him but I didn't want to go somewhere and just collect the tickets from him and get them over with. I insisted that we meet in front of the school after school hours and the next day I attended school, came back home freshened up and changed into something casual and went to meet him. Meanwhile, I asked Anupriya to spy on us as we are meeting for the first time and even he tries anything funny then Anupriya will be there for my rescue. When I saw Anupriya I was laughing inside because she was wearing a black hideous hoodie and black jeans and hiding her face with her hair. She was standing on the opposite side of the road and I was supposed to meet him at a nearby Confectionery and collects the tickets. The Confectionery owner kind of one me so I felt safe and funny enough I have not even seen his face so I had no idea what it looked like. Honestly, I didn't realise it to now that I don't even know how he looks because every time I had a conversation with him back in my mind I'd be thinking about Enrique. He told me he'd be wearing a blue sweatshirt and I already told him the name of the Confectionery I'd be standing inside. Suddenly I could see a dark-skinned short and healthy man walking towards the Confectionery and I got scared that what if he is the one. I was scared to death and finally, he entered the Confectionery and was already sweating. I was advised but wasn't expect him to look like this but I had to keep up for the sake of my dreams. He said "Kritya" and I said yes, we chatted a little and then he pulled the zipper of his beige colour worn-out cloth bag down and took out the tickets. He had two tickets with me and my sister's name on them and handed them over to me. The tickets were coloured printed and I saw our seats being assigned and I was really happy about it. After that, we chatted for a little while and then he asked me whether I want to go somewhere or not. I said I had to go back home because I told mom that I'll be back in an hour, so we wanted goodbye and I left. I then called Anupriya but she said she had to leave because her tuition classes were about to start any minute. I took an autorickshaw and went back home, waiting for my dad to come back so that I can show him the tickets. The moment Dad came from work I showed him the tickets and at first glance he pointed out two spelling mistakes in it and then he told me the printing quality is also really shabby and he is sure that these are fake. I didn't want to believe him and insisted on my dad saying let us give him the money. Then I didn't care about 40 dollars because even if I had the slightest chance of meeting Enrique I didn't want to lose it. My dad on the other hand was not swayed away by the emotional rush that I underwent and he was being more rational and practical. But with my Persistent insistence be promised to look over the matter and go to the Stadium where the event is being conducted for more enquiries the next day. I was getting a little tense and depressed because of the confidence my father had about the tickets being fake. I didn't tell Aryan and Anupriya anything about the same matter because I wanted to be sure from my side first. The next day as promised my dad did visit the Stadium as promised with the tickets and I was eagerly waiting for him to come back and tell me the tickets were genuine and that he is working out 40 dollars for the streak of dreams I'd been collecting for the whole month. As soon as he came back I rushed towards him and asked him about the tickets. He told me that he asked the staff in the stadium and they told him that there was no such event happening in the next week and case if there is an event then the staff would already know about it at least 1 month before the event. I really couldn't believe that he was gaming it and asked my dad that is he sure that the tickets were fake and the staff might have not been informed about the event. To this, my dad explained to me how these tickets should be carefully printed and defiantly there shouldn't be any spelling mistakes and also they have unique holograms for authentication and this one looks like it was simply printed from so one random Xerox shop on a Glossy sheet. But still, I wanted to believe that this ticket might be true to which my dad told me he would like to talk to that friend of mine who is selling me those tickets. I told him that my dad wants to talk to him before he gives me the money and at first, he was resisting the idea but after some persuasion, he gave him and said okay. As soon as he said okay, I studied for his number and told him that my dad wants to talk to you. My dad you and phone and started asking him all sort of questions and he was unable to answer any at one point he got so nervous that he discontented the phone. I tried calling him but it was showing switched off and at this point, even I started worrying that what if the tickets are actually taken and we were simply being deceived these past months for nothing. I tried calling him again but it was stuff switched off so I simply dropped a message asking him to call me back when he reads my message. He texted me the next day in the morning that he met an accident and currently is in hospital. I didn't know how to react should I tell bad for him but I was losing patience because the show is happening then it is due next week and what will I do then. I asked him how he met an accident and told him to take care. He said he was riding his bike and got hit by an autorickshaw and told me that it will take some time to recover as his leg is fractured. Then I asked him what will happen to the show. After that, he stopped replying so I dropped two to three texts asking how good is doing but same no reply. Then I tried calling him after dinner and his number was invalid and I got flustered. I called Anupriya and even she didn't know what to do so we planned to discuss the same with Shweta the next day as she was the only point of contact we had. Shweta didn't show up for the next couple of days and his number was still showing invalid. By this point in time, we were completely convinced that we were fooled by then and was annoyed at Shweta as she was the one who dragged us into the trap. At the same time, we had to deal with the fact that we will not be able to meet Enrique Iglesias anymore and he still does live in our dreams. We were okay to do that before meeting Aryan but he was the one who got us high on our fantasy and now he stabbed us to the ground and that too for some petty amount of money. The amount was also not that huge and he was not getting anything great out of it so why would he do that. We were diligently waiting for Shweta after missing school for 3 consecutive days. We rushed to her and asked her what happens and where was he and did they fool us. She asked us to call dish and told me that even she got cheated, he even took the ticket money from her and know she is uncertain about his whereabouts. I asked her Whether she knew about his location to which she said no and she met him via a common friend who is not in Kolkata anymore. So all she had was his number which is not valid anymore and cribbing about how she lost 60 dollars. We went back to our place discussing who is really at fault and whether Shweta is lying or telling the truth. For us, it was really hard to figure and out and honestly we really couldn't do much about it so we left it as it is. I went to Anupriya's place so that we could cry a little about the heartbreak we were currently dealing but somehow that pain was a little less comparatively maybe because we both were dealing through it and it got shared. Then I went home where my mom was laughing at my sad face and after some time tried consoling me. I and my sister mourned a little by watching some of his downloaded video songs especially on his song "Hero" where he lost everything even his life and we were feeling equally miserable. But the madness had to stop and my mom got irritated so she tried being a little strict and we got to be early that day. The next day Jasprit got to everything obviously from us and she was smiling and taunting us on the fact that we didn't seek her advice and we were dying in Shane for whatever happened. Thankfully we didn't tell anyone else and at least we can live with a little pride. Schools can be tricky if you get out of order in any way because everyone is so interested in what others are doing. And you can feel humiliated even at the slightest of trouble because we have not yet received that emotional maturity consumed in the f thought of what others might be thinking of gossiping. it took us time to get over whatever happened but we did move on after a couple of days enjoying the normal mundane routine that life and school have to offer. I even explained my story to my Spanish friend and he couldn't stop laughing and since then I even started taking it as a story not to be disclosed up until now, so I hope you can keep it a secret. Everyone is familiar with the phrase that when life v gives you lemon you can make lemonade out of it but my lemonade either has too much salt or sugar and since I made it fast that you can just take a sip and are reluctant to throw it away even when you don't want to. That is the story of my preceding date.

One fine day between classes I had a thought that like how I have dated the most popular from my school so there are so many schools and I can find equally hot guys there and date then and Facebook can help me find people. I don't know how did I have such kind of self-confidence to believe that those guys will be interested in dating me but let me tell you I always overestimate my abilities. So I started searching for profiles and initially it wasn't an easy job but then there was a pattern to just see the Profile Picture and years and whoever was above average I started adding them. This time I was playing solo and not included anyone in the plan because even I was not sure about its success rate. At that time, since Facebook was kind of new to all of us, everyone had different ways of handling it. Some people didn't even put their profile picture on it and some did put too many of them. I was trying to maintain a balance and still figuring out different ways to use it to my good. Of the 8-10, I have sent requests to only 4 accepted and then it was my favourite part of stalking and filtering. I liked to profile and waited for them to text me first and the first person just asked me "Do we know each other?" to which I said we can and after which he didn't reply. God, I was so embarrassed and wanted to rewind a little and play a smart move but what is done is done. The next guy didn't text anything first which I can understand because he was really hot. So I thought I didn't have anything to lose, so I only texted him first. He replied almost immediately which got me excited and we started chatting. We were trying to know each other but mostly I was the one asking most questions and he simply answered them and then asking "you?". So to see whether he is interested in keeping the conversation I didn't ask him any question and simply replied to his answer. After that, he only said "Hmm" so I realised he was not taking any interest in me so I left as it was and went to sleep. There is one thing to keep the conversation alive and the other thing to keep hanging onto it and I didn't like the second part. I slept nicely on my failed plan but I don't give up so easily and knew it is a good workable plan but needed the right target audience. The next day I had a whole day to think about how to find a good date because it was Geography, Civics, Computers scheduled for today and I had no interest in it. Anupriya was still in a little pain about the whole episode but since now I had a plan I was distracted and not thinking enough about it. I went back and saw a text from one of the guys who I have rejected initially but when I kind of properly stalked he seemed good. He was not that good-looking with an average look but he was into football, a hobby I appreciate in a guy and also he had a great body and was a fitness freak. So I thought of giving it a shot and texted him almost immediately and we started talking about random stuff. He told me he is into sports and travelling and I told him I like art and dance. We didn't have much in common but appreciate each other's hobbies. We were hitting it well off and after 3 days of continuous chit-chatting, we exchanged numbers. Actually, we didn't do it the traditional way of how generally guys so for your number and then we give him and they text back. He simply gave me his number without asking anything and simply told me to text him. I kind of kind he was very blunt and practical but I liked that in a guy any which ways. It was already a week we have been texting each other he asked me to meet him. I was like okay but I wanted to delay it a bit because I wanted to look the best version of myself and needed a week to prepare. So I told him I had a lot of classes lines up and could only meet him either during the weekends or after this week. We then decided to meet on Friday and I had 3-4 days on my hand so I decided to drink a lot of water and wax my legs and hands. I wasn't that hairy but had noticeable brown hairs in my body so I didn't want to show up with my body hairs. I went to a nearby salon and got waxed and painted my nails in my favourite shade of pink. Since we were not going to any specific place and just meeting in a mall so I tried dressing up casually and took an Autorickshaw to the place. I reached earlier than him and was thinking should I ask him why you are late or not, and was facing the opposite direction because I knew where he will be coming from. As soon as he texted that he is at the location and I turned around looking at him and the first thing I told him was you are 10 minutes late. I didn't know why I did that and he said "so?" damn I shouldn't have done that but now I can't keep thinking about it and have to move on so that I don't make our first met awkward. We went to a nearby Coffee shop, he ordered Cappuccino and ordered Strawberry Milkshake. I offered to pay but he insisted and didn't let me. We wear talking about movies, art, our school his sport and my dance and made me comfortable. It was almost an hour of chat so we decided to call it a day and I took an auto back to my place and he took it to his. I didn't want to be the first person to text after our date so I waited for his and finally at around 11 he texted me saying it was nice meeting me. After that, we had few conversations and he told me that he wants to confess something. I was like what does he want to tell me and what if has to tell me something negative which made me very unsure of his confession. "I asked him what is it?" and he didn't reply for like 5 minutes which made the matter even worse. Then finally I received his text. He told me that he is in love with my lips and he was not able to forget about how perfect it was and he wanted to kiss them very badly. Honestly, I shouldn't have just made it easier for him and dragged things a little longer but I just have in and that point and told him that "you should kiss it the next time". It was such a bummer but honestly, then I didn't care. Then the next day he asked me when can we meet next and I told him maybe the next week. He seemed fine with it and honestly I am not the kind of person who can chat all day and meet every alternate. I must get my space in any kind of relationship or date and that is really how I function, so I kept a distance between my next date with him. I was excited about meeting him the second time but not so much as compared to the last time and didn't put that much effort into meeting him today. So I wore a dress paired up with heels but we weren't decided on a place and he couldn't think of one. I knew quite a few places but I didn't want to suggest so we finally decide to meet at a nearby Cafe which is kind of halfway for the both of us. I chucked my heels and went for the flats so that I can look more casual and applied my fancy lip balm because he might kiss me and I wouldn't be able to resist his charm. Like I already said he is a little short but fit and he had a way with his words and at the same time he was funny, spontaneous and was kind of hot. So after we left the Cafe and were walking as he told me about a game which he plays with his friend while walking on the road. Whoever is the first to spot a Yellow Car passing by while walking that person can spank the other person. I didn't know the intention or purpose behind the game but I played along and he spotted 3 Yellow cars whereas I could only spot 1. I am glad he didn't spank me on my ass and it was just my back and he seemed to be too into the game whereas I was more into the conversation. He told me that he has a small brother and I mentioned earlier that I had a small sister and they were about the same age so he suggested why don't we patch them up. I was thinking more about patching is up and I would want him to talk in that direction. It was already 8 by now so we waved each other a goodbye and I took a taxi home. He asked me to text him when I reach and I didn't do that for the sole purpose of seeing whether he is concerned about me or not. He did text me and I replied saying I reached already and we chatted a little thinking about how it was today. I told Rupal about him and funnily he lives in the same complex as her aunt so I assured her whether she could get me any information about him. She said she will ask her aunt's son because he might be knowing about him. It took Rupal about a week to get me any information as she could only do that when she was visiting her aunt so this at she can casually ask her cousin without raising any speculation as I have already told her nobody should know about it and I couldn't risk any word reaching Sidharth's ear because I know how gossip works and it never worked out in my favour. Meanwhile, as we were randomly chatting he asked me whether I am free now and can meet him, I was not doing anything else so I said okay and changed into jeans and top, told mom I am going over to Anupriya's place and left to meet him. We didn't plan to meet somewhere specific so instead, I told him to meet near VIP which is like 5 mins away from Rupal's place. We met there walked around for a little time and then when we couldn't figure out where to go next we entered Rupal's complex. We randomly went inside a building and climbed up the stairs to the Terrace and sat on the floor. It was very breezy and since I was wearing a dress I tried to not move a lot. Suddenly he held my hand and I was pretending to not know what is happening and without any change of expression I kept on blabbering about my day. He then came close to me and started kissing me and I didn't do him either. After some time we got up and left that building and went to the next one because we heard some footsteps but it was a fake alarm but yet we got a little scared. The footsteps we actually from the opposite building but we couldn't realise it until and unless we left the building. Now we really couldn't go back to the same one so instead went inside some other random building and went to the terrace. We were not sitting but leaning against the boundary of the terrace. I was facing the outside and he came close and put his arm around me and brought his face close to mine. I felt so good and it was romantic for him to do that and suddenly someone saw us from the opposite building and they started shouting at us so we hurriedly came running down the stairs and rushed towards the exit of the building. We were scared that someone might catch us and insist on calling our parents, which would be shameful for us so we were walking at a really fast pace. He was ahead of me and I didn't like that kind of behaviour, he was not even looking behind it I am okay or not until and unless we left the Complex. This is one quality that I don't appreciate in anyone. When we came out of the Complex he finally asked me whether I was okay it not and I said yes, then we decided to go back home and after that, I didn't feel like texting him. Sometimes I get over things and people instantaneously and it was one such moment. He also didn't text me and I was completely okay with that because I was not interested in him either now. I don't know what happened was it because of his careless behaviour or maybe I just caught a bad vibe or something from him that kind of turned this whole thing off. And it was easier for me to get over him and was amazed because it used to take me months before but now I felt like I was becoming a pro in it. It was a good thing honestly because life was too short to crib about things of the past and live only at the present because there was no point. But it is easier said than done so it takes time and honestly speaking I haven't told you for a long time now but I have been developing my liking for Aarav again and I was really afraid to fall for him because it was a trap for me. So the wise thing to do was find a different direction before I become too consumed in his thoughts and I will go back to being that obsessed person again.