Ready for trip 1

The next day when kakeru wake up. it almost 1 O clock of noon. He was shocked, how can he drunked? 𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙨𝙪𝙙𝙙𝙚𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙨𝙞𝙙𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 chishiya is lying just beside kakeru . Kakeru says in loud voice :: what the fuck, chisiya why you are here, I mean what are you doing on my bed .

Chisiya smiling and says, I am not in your bed, but you are on my bed, because this is my room, and this is my bed, and you should apologize to me for what you did last night .

Then kakeru says "ohh did I fuck you yesterday? And he started loughing

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Chisiya said angrily "You can't even fuck me."

Kakeru then puts on his shirt and shoes and says: Well, make all the preparations for the trip today, because tomorrow we have to go on a trip to Tokyo. Kakeru know very well, he is tired from his home, now he want fresh atmosphere. And after some time kakeru leave chisiya house.

Chishiya is lying on the bed now thinking about Kakeru, life has come so far but Chishiya still finds himself at the same place where he saw Kakeru for the first time, in school Chishiya was always jealous of those girls who Used to live with Kakeru, if Chishiya got any letter to give to Kakeru, Chishiya always used to burn that letter, didn't know what love was at that time but I just know that I love Kakeru only. ...

After coming back, Kakeru's only thought is that the upcoming trip should become the best trip for him... because he will have to leave for the trip tomorrow evening, so Kakeru also started his packing. Like a carefree boy, Kakeru packed his bag and texted Chishiya "Meet me at Shibuya Metro Station tomorrow night at 8 pm!"

Yes sure my love, Chishiya replied because Chishiya enjoyed teasing Kakeru a lot.

Fuck you bastred don't call me love

The next day when Kakeru woke up, it was 12 o'clock like every day. Kakeru turns on his mobile and says, "What a joke, what day will it be when I wake up early?" But just a minute, why do I need to get up early? Anyway, there is no one sitting here who cares about me. I don't think anyone in this house cares about me. Then he laughs and says, "Not only in this house, but even in this universe, there is no one who would care about me." Even God doesn't care about me , Why am I alive, why don't I die? If I have to feel lonely like this, it is better that I die.

When the maid came to call Kakeru for breakfast, she saw that Kakeru had already had a drink and was quite drunk at the moment. The maid loves Kakeru very much since childhood, she says to Kakeru while crying. Why have you created such a situation for yourself? You have to go on a school trip today, so why did you get so drunk?

Do you know aunty how taking drugs makes me feel? Kakeru further cries and says, "After taking drugs, I forget who I am, I forget that I am the child of a rich father." I forget that my parents are divorced now , I forget that my father remarried , I forget that there is no one to love me , i forget i'm alone ,He further says, "And when I forget all these things about myself, I am happy."

Kakeru's aunty replies """It's not that you are alone in this world, there are many people who love you,,,,,

Who are those people aunty? tell me who are the people who love me ,,,

Your parents love you, aunty replied ,,,

, Kakeru says angrily """ then why can't I see their love What kind of love is it that I don't feel? If they loved me, I would feel their love. ,,, but aunty I don't feel anything And I never felt their love..

Aunty knows very well the sadness hidden behind Kakeru's words. Because since childhood, Kakeru's mother never had time for him. ,, Reema aunty took care of Kakeru from the beginning till today. That's why Reema aunty is able to feel Kakeru's pain very well.

If you feel that no one loves you then why don't you get married?I can say with certainty that your wife will definitely love you. And you also have a girlfriend, she must be in love with you too. If you want So I can talk to your father about your marriage. ....

.. listening to aunty Kakeru smiles sadly and says """"If my girlfriends loved me, I would know the meaning of love.,, But the sad thing is that I don't even know what love is? what is love ?how does it feel to be in love ?, what does love look like , I don't know anything Because no one has ever loved me Yes, because I am the child of a rich father, everyone loves my money more than me.,, Even if my girlfriends spread their legs on the bed with me, it is only for my money and not for me.

Even aunty has no answer to Kakeru's words. Aunty said lovingly to Kakeru. """My son, you have to leave for a college trip this evening itself. You should not have drunk so much. Don't drink now so that you will feel better by evening. While leaving Kakeru's room, aunty turned and looked at him. He is lying unconscious on his bed and is looking at the fan above with sad eyes.,,,Kakeru's condition is not being seen by aunty.

She knows that Kakeru is a boy who had everything since childhood , his parents were one of the richest families in Japan But despite everything, there was a lack of love in Kakeru's life. Because Kakeru's parents never had time for Kakeru. , he had a desire to earn more money than his only son..... It didn't matter to him that his only son was in depression. It didn't matter to him how many times his only son tried to commit suicide. They don't care that KAKERU is addicted to drugs. Or it doesn't matter to them how bad a divorce will have on 25 year old KAKERU. After this aunty would say to herself with regret""" I sincerely wish that someone should come into KAKERU's life who will love him equally even after reaching the limit of love.