Don't reminisce [+18]
tw: explicit smut scenes, some feels
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They both know their time is limited, so Xi Zirui expects Han Yu to be on him instantly, instead he's pulled by the hand through the meadow and halfway across the viewing bridge, before he gets a single kiss.
He's looking out at the still lake when he feels Han Yu's arms come up around his waist, wrapping him up in a tight hug.
"Do you want to hear about our children?" he asks, nuzzling against the back of Xi Zirui's neck, up into the shell of his ear.
Xi Zirui's fingers tighten on the wooden railing in front of him. He wants, he wants so much that he sometimes thinks he's going to choke with it.
And yet, at the same time, it fills him with bitterness that this is the best he can get -- a second-hand account from Han Yu's perspective, about the the children he didn't get to watch grow up.