Ch 5- New Year

It was three months since sushant had died and kabir was depressed. He did not come out of his room, only when he went to school , he was out and there also he was all quiet and mum, did not talk to anyone. His friends tried alot to cheer him up but at last kabir used to miss sushant. It was the first day of the new year and Kabir was in his room. He had taken a shower , wore new clothes but did not come out of his room. He heard the sound of veneration. Every year Jiya on the first day of new year used to pray to hindu gods and venerate them . Kabir wanted peace and for him only god can give him the peace he wants. He went downstairs and saw Daniel venerating. He was wearing a blue kurta and Jiya arrived there.

"Daniel?"Jiya was shocked to see his american husband venerating shiv shakti and chanting mantras.

"Dad?"Meera came down.

"Why are you venerating this year?'Kabir asked in a low tone.

"We should change with time",Daniel said, giving a sign to Kabir to move on, "I thought you would love it".

"I do",Kabir said and sat beside his father. Jiya and Meera also sat . Then Shree arrived there from her room.

"You may join us if you want",Jiya said. Shree sat behind her. They all venerated the god and prayed to have a prosperous year ahead. After the veneration everyone sat on the couch and talked.

"Look son,'' Daniel said, keeping his hand on Kabir's head, " I know losing someone you love is too sad and heartbreaking but sushant seeing you up from there would also be sad".

"Do you want him to be sad?"Jiya asked.

"No," Kabir said.

"So, I think this new year , you will be back to normal",Daniel said, "i know it will take a lot of time for you to but try to take baby steps".

You both are really nice",Kabir said and hugged his parents.

"Hey, can I join?"Meera asked. Daniel opened his other arm . Shree was standing there and Jiya called her and she also got inside that warm family hug.

"So from tomorrow you have your schools",jiya said.

"Yeah and i'm a bit scared to face everyone ",kabir said,

"Why?"Jiya asked

"I will tell everyone in school about me and sushant",he said.

"Ok my brave son, you can do this",Jiya motivated her son.

"Yeah I will ". Then there came Emily and David.

"Happy new year!"they said hugging their best friend.

"You look good," David said.

'But I'm not wearing anything nice?'Kabir asked.

"You look good, not your attire",David said.

'Are you flirting with me?'Kabir asked as they three moved out of the house.

"No not at all",David and they both got mum.

This is because David was the first guy whom Kabir kissed and that one caused a drift between them.

"Ok let's leave the past in the past",Emily said cheering them up, "so, where are we going?'

"Um dance studio",David said.

"No please, I don't want to go," Kabir said.

"Kabir , I know that dance studio has many memories of you and sushant. As that studio was not just a studio but a dating site too",Emily said, trying to make Kabir laugh. Kabir smiled slightly.

"Ok let's go but i will not dance",kabir said. The friends went to the dance studio which was beside a cafe. The studio was beautiful.

Kabir and sushant had designed the whole studio on their own. The statue of lord Nataraja , the white wall on which blue light was falling and an inscription was of gold. The inscription said, "subir". Kabir sat in a corner and Emily and David started dancing. Kabir and sushant liked every Indian dance form. They used to practice different forms, make videos. They both had an account on social media where they uploaded all these.

Emily and David were dancing but the steps they were doing were not right.

"What are you doing?"Kabir arrived there and showed them how to do the step.

"I don't think you can do these steps properly", Emily challenged kabir.

Kabir played the music and danced. He did every step every move with tune and his dance showed his frustration and sadness .

After the dance was over he stopped.

"Plan succeeded",Emily said.

"You did this so that I could dance right?"Kabir asked.

"Yes",David said, "we can't see you like this , sad and depressed".

"Hey! Did you tell everyone who follows your social media?'Emily asked.

"No , but I don't know what to say?How will I face them?"Kabir asked in a sad tone.

"You just talk to them once",David said, keeping his hand on Kabir's hand, "i know whatever you will say people will not judge you". Kabir hugged him.

They all went back to their home. When he reached home in the afternoon , Jiya had prepared lunch.

"Come dear, let's have lunch",she said . Everyone else was sitting on the table.

Kabir looked at the food and said, "dal Makhni , sushant's favorite!".

"I intentionally made it",jiya said, "so that we can remember sushant and pray for peace of his soul. Your dad and I went to the church and prayed to Jesus also".

"Thank you mom",Kabir said and had his lunch.

In the evening Kabir went live on social media. Everyone in the comments was asking what happened? Where is sushant? Long time no videos?

"Hey guys it's been three months since we….. Sorry i came live , i don't know how to say this but",kabir was crying, "sushant is no more , three months ago he died in an accident".

People in the comments were not believing him.

"I know it's hard to believe this",kabir said, "but this is the truth . my love, our sushant , is no more. You all were his family and he loved each other and every follower of his. He was really grateful to you . no one can fill his space in my, our hearts but we need to gulp this poisonous truth that sushant is no more. This is the last live post I'm doing and after that I will delete this account soon". Saying this kabir stopped the live chat and laid on the bed.

"I miss you sushant!",he said, looking at sushant's photo.