I only wish to study!

(You could be my muse)

11 years~

School was boring.

One hundred percent boring!

What is the point of studying things I already know?

well to be blunt I am eleven years old right now, come to think of it; having the memory of my past life is becoming more of a burden.

I can not forget my husband, best friends and children. I keep lamenting the fact that I am spoiled by 'children' and bothered by...students.

it's like I am some little treasure to be guarded or worst... a pet to be carefully raised.

I really could not deal with those type of classmates anymore, I wanted at least some older students who might at least find me an eyesore or even better ignore me!

So with that in mind; I skipped two grades, but if I had known!

If I had scraped my brain just to remember that this class had someone I had been trying to avoid.

I would have stayed humble and remained where I was previously.

ah! how this small one regrets, ah how this small one laments!

It's such a sad thing!

Sad!

Sad!

I want to howl and cry. The injustice here is too much ah!

Here I am sitting in my window seat minding my own business when this girl approached.

Sigh.

here we go...

A pretty voice entered my ears, I kept still without reacting.

inwardly though, I am bothered, truly--seriously I am, this girl always does this before trapping me!

what did I ever do but be a cold student ignore them until they wish to puke blood in anger or frustration!?

"Little Jah, do you want to come with this sister and eat?" I ignored her, no matter how pretty this girl is, she is still annoying!

Like a gum on a shoe, trying to stick to me! Why? Is my arresting b*tch face failing?

Wah! I'm so mad, I just want to eat in peace, "little Jah, I have learned a new recipe recently and made these steam bun-" forget it I will indulge her; snatching the square wooden container I opened it biting my lower lip at the smell that wafted up my nose.

I have tried! Ah...I have tried! Sadly I have failed once again.

wuwuwu, she trapped me again!

wuwuwu, I can't resist.

wuwuwu, just one this time!

one!

Sinking my teeth into the white bun my eyes fluttered closed relishing the taste, one bun after the other the size of my Palm was eaten until the container was empty, finished a wet cloth was handed to me, then a cup of tea.

I sat back closing my eyes feeling utterly satisfied.

When that squeal entered my ears I wanted to smack her face into the ground but I felt too satisfied, I will give her and that 'follow me' behind her a chance.

just this one.

"She ate all of my buns,"

"She took my wet cloth!"

The two girls whispered together, while I relaxed as the food slowly digested. I will leave them this time simply because their voices are not irritating.

it is just while I wished to relax and listen to their small banter, 'hades' appeared.

By the grand matriarch!

why?

how did I not see this boy?

"I had personally grown those tea leaves in my back garden, since you have continually taken my tea; should you not become my wife?"

"..."

'Runaway!!!!' my mind screamed but how can I?

the last time I tried to he trapped my poor self and hugged me until my bones creaked, his words also made me freeze like a statue.

'little blue, I just want to commit your scent to memory, It's almost unbearable waiting for you to grow up,'

creepy! he was a creeper!

I was only ten back then and now he purposed, not even fancy but after giving me a cup of tea!

I wish I could so it out but I had long swallowed.

wah!

why me?

My eyes shot open to reveal a face that would cause angels to fall, devils to become good and the gods to gift him a halo and his own godhead.

Simply, this boy in the space of a year and few months he became a boy I secretly worshipped, even if he is a creeper under all that devastating beauty.

I couldn't help myself but to silently worship beautiful things.

He was my muse; my future husband had to be him but will I accept such a foolish proposal at the age of eleven because of tea.

"That's right the Nia family are known for courting their women using tea before proposing marriage,"

"Really?! I had forgotten but has it not been five years since he had been doing this?"

"But she is our little Jah, this Nia is a bit too much, his family are strangely possessive with their women,"

There was a pause and the two girls turned to me anxiously, "little Jah don't accept!"

Heh?

Why would I?

Still, his family is powerful, I can not afford to shame him, looking down I thought for a moment before replying, "young master Nia, I'm still young once I have matured some more I will inform you then of my decision. For now, I only wish to study!"

Saying those words not too loud or soft but in a firm tone, I returned to looking out the window.

*ignore, ignore, ignore*

"I will hold these words close to heart,"

'Wah! big brothers save me!!!!'