My life

I want you to know, but I don't want to tell you. We were both supposed to be hanging out together at this peaceful bench. I'd be his if he'd asked. But we both went unnoticed. We avoided caring about ourselves. But I put my chin up, knowing that it has just a small impact on my life.

The morning sunshine shone through my window when Mason called me out. Mason was my boyfriend. Technically, he is, but I was not dating him for fun. It was all supposed to be fun, but I started feeling that he was not fun at all. I wish Felix was just here for me. Though it was a very long time ago, it seems that I still can't move on from him. We still meet each other at school because we attend the same school. Despite all those factors, he and I were still close friends. To be honest, we are close rivals. We've met each other for more than a decade, and we're both players. He is dating a girl named Amy. Well, he said that it's not with his true feelings, but I don't really care about that. "Alice, babe, we've got to go." Mason called. "I'm coming, wait a second." I said this as I quickly grabbed my bag and ran towards the car. We were all learning psychology, which is very interesting. It didn't take us very long to drive there. I was on my phone, texting Felix on the way, but then it hit me when Mason stared at my phone. "Babe, who're you texting to?" He asked. "Well, no one. We're going to get there soon, right. I am so hungry. You can go to the classes first; I'm going to catch up later. The main reason is because I am going to go get lunch and I also need to search for some books in the library," I replied. Well, actually, I was going to go meet Felix. He said he wanted to talk to me, and I had never rejected him before. Mason and Amy both get jealous of us. But they know that we were friends for a long time, and since we do not really care what they think about us, they slowly got over it. The car stopped as I slammed the door and rushed to the cafeteria. I saw Felix from a distance when he sat there and looked sad. "Hey, why do you look so sad?" I asked curiously. "Well, I've got bad news to tell you. I've got to move." He said. It broke my heart when he said that. I knew that if he left, we weren't going to meet again. I know that we still can, but it's different. His parents are rich, and they would be forcing his relationships and everything. "When? I don't want you to go." I asked. "Well, two months later, I guess. I don't want to leave you too." He replied. "Uhh, okay." I panicked as I went away. My hands were shaking, and my head was a scrambled piece of paper.

At class, I couldn't help but focus on the lesson. I never do, but this time I was lost in reverie. I know that everything has nothing to do with me, but now that he said he needs to leave, I am actually getting mixed feelings about him. It all started back then, when we were about 6. The time that we were innocently falling in love.