Regret comes at the end

My heart was happy, I ran while picking up some coins that had fallen on the stairs. I keep it in my pants and jacket pockets. But, it wasn't enough to take it all in. So, I kept running towards the top.

Huff... Huff

It's like a running race, it makes me a little short of breath. It's like running away from the reality that always burdens me. I didn't care about that and continued to move forward. This can definitely make me rich... I can buy anything, I don't care if I actually die... I just want to enjoy this wealth!

Woohuuuuu... Yeahhh.!

Running with a happy feeling is fun. Shortness of breath.

".... Just a little more... This is what I was hoping for... I Need... Money!" Leaping towards the glimmer of heaven with a face of deep confidence.

I did it. An ending that made me happy because I managed to get through it only to go to an unnamed place.

But ....

It all didn't live up to my expectations. My steps slowly started to get smaller after seeing something that looked strange in front of me. It was like a big round field, trees with big black leaves were there towering high and a small light was illuminating the place from above the sky. I just saw it for the first time. A tree with black leaves?

Hmmmm... am I in a place that no one should be allowed to enter? I can't stop thinking about strange things, I think it's scary. Gold coins, jewels and other treasures were strewn everywhere. But, it's not about that that makes me worry about false hope.

I saw it, a 3-headed dragon on top of a pile of gold. It was very scary, black scales covered its body. He was fast asleep. Everything looks quiet and calm. But, for me it would be death if I woke him up. Hahhhhh... It turns out that hope hurts.

"I think I'm going to die again. Maybe I should go back home and sleep forever underground."

He's in the grave, right? Well, it's better to die without being revived and being able to rest peacefully in another world. That's better... But, if I had one thing that would make me live again. I will definitely change the entire storyline that has been written in my life.

I walked around to go back down the stairs. Fear made me think about going back, I felt death was right in front of me. I can't believe my eyes, this looks stupid. My first steps stopped when someone spoke.

"Where are you going ...?". Beautiful and soft female voice.

"Huh...? Who? Are you the one who led me to this place?" I turned around and opened the hood of my sweater.

Maybe there is a woman who can see me without showing herself. I think this is really a dream. Is it the other way around?

"Of course... Because you're someone I need to be able to defeat him"

"Ha...?!. Beat you say?. I just died and suddenly went to this strange place. You think I would believe all your nonsense!"

What kind of request for help is that?

I didn't understand what he was talking about, I just thought it was just a story he made up. This may seem like a joke, but I don't know for sure what the truth is. I kept bragging and wondering.

"Why did you bring me here?. I'm just an ordinary and weak human who doesn't have anything. Why?"

"That's true, basically all humans are weak! But, you are a little different... You won't understand how long it was to wait 100 million years for your uncertain arrival into this world." The answer was a little harsh.

He makes me even more distrustful.

"What did you say?!. 100 million years?. Did I hear that correctly? You must be joking, right?"

It really confused me, I wanted to ask him a lot of things. Yes, maybe. But, it's no use if one day I will definitely know the whole truth.

"Why don't you just choose someone who already exists? That would make things easier, right?" I answered speaking lightly like an innocent child who didn't understand about this other world.

"Hmmmm... That's true. But... you think it's easy?. This is a prediction that will definitely come true if he says it. What if now it's my turn to ask you?."

Frowning. " .... What?"

What does it mean?. Why did he turn to ask me?. It seems like I'm talking to someone worth watching out for.

"Didn't you feel lonely and bored when you were there?. Was it really fun there and were you patient enough to face your very sad life story?. Trash!" The answer mocked me. I listened to his words, he annoyed me.

"Huh...?. Your mouth is rough, isn't it?"

"How does it feel to live alone for 15 years in the world you came from?. Was it really fun? Did you expect someone to come along to accompany you through all the ups and downs of your life?. How sad!" He really mocked me.

"Are you that coward because you're afraid to talk to me directly?"

"Ohhh, you can't wait to see my beauty, huh?"

"No, I don't need that."

"So evil... But, you don't deserve to see it."

Sigh....

He really makes me want to get angry. A question that makes me remember the bitterness of the world. Lowering my head in anger at his words. She's a goddess that I hate like in a story I once read.

Hahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

"Why do you know about that?" I answered looking at him seriously.

"Hahhh? Who do you think I am."

"Tch... Looks like he's no ordinary God."

"I saw it, abandoned on your 5th birthday. Everything was just emptiness when fate had determined their death."

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Ahh, I remember it…. A picture of my past when I was 4 years old, that is the day I remember most when I was at the playground with my parents. 2 hands that give warmth and affection that always make me cheerful, laugh and happy when I'm around him.

But, that all changed on my 5th birthday. The day they promised to buy a special gift for me after they returned home. I'm happy, trying to be patient to wait for him. That's the moment I always look forward to after they say goodbye to work.

But, angels have taken them to heaven... Losing them makes me want to die like dry leaves that have never been watered. Weak... Useless... Dry... Alone... Everything is fake. I .... Everything changed when the news was broadcast on TV. I saw him, stared at him blankly... It brought a hole of emptiness to my life. It was the day my father and mother returned to another world.

Sigh....

"SHUT UP...."

He really made me angry because I remembered everything again.

"Everything is silent... Like a hole of emptiness that always surrounds... There is no one who can heal the wound... Even though it is a game that always accompanies your daily life... Poor thing..."

Poetry, huh? How ugly. Rubbish!

Yahhhh, that's absolutely true. Games are everything for someone like me, even though life is temporary.

"SHUT UP!" Clench both hands into fists.

20 years have passed, I have gone through everything. Bullying when I was still in junior high school, vocational school, insulting my parents who were no longer there, being cheated on, and many other countless human abominations were like a special album that had been prepared for the continuation of my life in that bastard world.

Everything!

"Everything–—"

"That's enough. I admit it, I admit it... I am the weakest and most pitiful person. Yes, someone like me deserves to die sooner rather than live in such a cruel world... I don't care if I die, I just want a natural peace of mind and another world that I want to live in..."

Gives the impression of a sharp gaze of hatred towards something that makes me suffer.

"But..." I looked up at the sky. "If I gain great power and a chance to be reborn... I will destroy all storylines that stand in my way, even if it means risking everything! Including fighting you." I answered a little mockingly.

A little offended. "Ohh..." He answered again casually. "But, now you've got that chance."

Eh...? What?

He didn't pay attention to my words, he considered them as meaningless pieces of paper.

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