Ashes of roses

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"Am tired" She tells her reflection.

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"He taught me how to love, but not how to stop, then I think again, maybe am designed to be alone....

Maybe in five years, our paths will cross again, I'll finally tell you how desperately in love I was with you and you'll tell me your mind...

Then we'll laugh about how we broke each other hearts...

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"CHARLIE'S P.O.V"....

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I'd get you back" My voice whispering out, I stare at their distant shadow, hands still intertwined, my heart bleeds, but I dare not give up now...

"I'll destroy him...

"You'd be mine again, I swear".....

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"IVY'S P.O.V"...

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"Satisfied?" My voice speaks out, it yells out from my lungs, as I immediately disengaged our hands before locking the door shut...

My heart's bleeding, I've broken him into pieces...My heart cries out, it tells me, as guilt flushes through me, as hatred came knocking right on the damn door...

Tears gathering up my swollen eyes, I was a mess.....

My hands shaking, creeping up to my hair, I was running mad, losing my mind completely, I was losing everything, it was all him...

He caused it all.

"Stop the tears" He creeped into my soul, he yelled, bringing me closer to him, my shaky eyes staring into his raging ones, my vision becomes blurry...

"He doesn't deserve it" His voice whispered, but it creeped into my ears, it echoes out, as I tried looking away from the horrible beast, but no, he won't let me...

His eyes glued to mine, I could not escape the unstable mad man's grip, his eyes tells of his madness, his eyes cause me shivers, it makes me fear, it makes me weak..

He traps me with them....

Death was better than him, my soul tells me, as it kept on piercing into his mad eyes, wishing I could run away from him, that was all I could do..."Wish", nothing more...

He was much more stronger and I?, I was useless, weak and pathetic...

My mind mocks me, it makes me run mad over and over again....

"He don't deserve you" His hazel eyes creeps me out, piercing into mine, his voice ranged into my head, it ranged into my soul, my fearful heart watch him, my blood boil, but I could do nothing...

His filthy fingers creeping up to my face, I tried pulling away again, but no, the more I tried, the more he pulls me closer to him...

His fingers creeped up, my swollen eyes, he stares at them, lowering down to my cheeks, his fingers dare touched my face, he dared take advantage of me...

His fingers lowering down to my cheeks, he wipes the tears away, my heart shivering, but still I refuse to be weak in front of this mad man...

My shaky eyes watch him, his lips, it curved into that awful grin of his, it is disgusting, my eyes tears up again, at my weakness...

My eyes rain tears, but still that demon stares with nothing but lust in his eyes, it cause me shivers, I tried pulling away again, but no, he brought me much more closer than the last time...

He tightens his grip around my waist, he forces me to stare into his eyes...

"Fuck you" I yell, my shaky hateful eyes staring into his, but still, he didn't for once stop, he didn't for once let go, I was useless...

He tightens his grip around my waist again, teardrop falling off my eyes, I yell, he didn't stop...

His eyes lowering down to my lips, it was filled with lust, I tried yet again, pushing him away from me, he held me tighter, he crashes his lips right on mine, tears flew out of my eyelids...

His arrogant hands holding my waist tighter, he was violent, his kisses were that of a mad man, he's suffocating me again.

"Get out" I yelled out, pushing him away with all the burning hatred I despise for him, he finally let me go...

He staggers backwards, but I wasn't going to act slow now.

My legs, I could feel it quickly moving back, my shaky eyes glance at the closet... It grabs the tiny scissors my shaky hands could reach, tear drops falling, my eyes catches his, back again....

"St... stay away from me, stay the fucking back" My voice, it yells, but still he wasn't affected at all, he wasn't scared, nor intimated in the slightest, my heart bled...

My shaky eyes watch him, as all he did was wipe his lips, as I watch the grin form again, the grin on the mad man's lips, it was back again...

"There's really no need for that, darling" He whispers out, but all his words sounded like hell to my ears, my soul would forever despise him so much.

"I'll do nothing to you, so fucking quit wavering that useless scissors in the air like a fool" He lashes out, his voice echoed, he makes me act like a lunatic, like a fool, I'll never forget this...

My bugling eyes, it watches him, as he slowly moved back, farther away from me, towards the door side, as my heart kept on beating, kept on trying not to fail...

My shaky eyes, it caught up with his again, as I watch the disgusting grin, it grew, it spread like a virus, his happiness kills me completely..

He stares into my eyes, it didn't for once let it leave his wicked ones, it was an eye lock, with the devil himself...

I watch his lips, it slowly parted to speak....

"You did a great job today, I would compliments you for this. Keep hurting him, don't you dare stop and he would finally run mad"...

He spits out, his burning eyes, he stares deep into mine, it stares with hate, it gives me shivers, he makes my heart fail...

"Keep killing him, so he'd run and leave you, so you'd be mine for good, for life" His eyes staring straight into mine, his face curved out a grin, as he turned around to the door...

Turning around, like magic, he was gone,. faded away into pure nothing, he takes advantage and leave me to die, to my nightmares, he leaves me to my end...

My eyes soaked with hateful tears, I could feel my legs, it fails me, it falls down, it makes me weak, yet again, hurtful tears streams down my eyes...

Curse you Ryan... My heart swears, it curses him, but no matter how much it curses, it was all vain, he would still have his way, he would still break him..

My head spins, it hurts me and I run mad...

My shaky eyes, it wanders, it drifted, it looks to It right, it sees him, my blonde hair lover, he was there yet again, with the smile that always make my heart skip, the smile that always make my heart melt...

He was sitting there, on the floor, right there, on my right, I was running mad and I knew it, but still i don't care, if it is all illusion, if it was only my imagination, I cared less...

I cared nothing less, all I wanted was him and him alone, but still, I would never get him, still I have broken his heart, I decided nothing.

Slowly I could feel my legs, it moved closer to the illusion, to the imagination, to him, my lover, as I watch his lips, it curves into a little smile, my heart melts again.

He held my hand, he brought me closer, closer to him, into his embrace, I felt peace, sanity, I felt loved again...

His arms wrapped around me, I could feel his warmth, as I moved closer to him, hugged him, my illusion, with every last life in me.

I tried stopping it, but the teardrop, it fell off my eyes yet again....

"Am sorry" I mumbled in his chest, as I could feel my eyes, it slowly close shut, to leave this worthless life, for now....