Chapter 9

Later when Tsunade realize that she lost Shizune and Orochimaru doesn't find Anko in her bed, they find them in Kakashi's.

'' I can't be the only one having a bad feeling about this..right?'' Jiraiya says looking at the three kids squashed between the eight ninkens.

Kakashi never imaged he would sleep with a baby-Anko and a pre-teen Shizune in the same bed. But he also didn't except to wake up beside his father corpse again, in a too small body, without his trusty book. He is still thankful for his ninken, if those guys didn't remember him he wasn't sure what he could do.

Back to the two in his bed. He wasn't really sure why Anko was here, from what he remembers Orochimaru didn't take her in until she was a genin and begin to stalk him and Shizune shouldn't even be in Konoha..okay, he wasn't really sure about Shizune but still.

Seeing the Three Sanin bickering between each other was actually heartwarming, he still didn't like Jiraiya though. At the same time seeing the three of them make him think about the future.

What should he do to stop the Forth War? Does he needs to be in team 7 again...does he wants to?

He thinks of hateful stares and gentle reprimanding, standing in the middle of those two, he thinks of the smell of earth and blood and the constant burning of his eye, of his hand crushing her chest, her heart under his fingers. He thinks of stares, of eyes following him everywhere, of a ghost that's not even there, of endless days in ANBU, of grief, so much grief. The days when he feel like a corpse, when he eat three pills per day and nothing more, when he throwed himself in suicide missions. When his eyes were constantly sore from crying and his throat hurt from endless screaming.

'' I don't want that...'' he says to himself quietly. Anko twitch by his side, snorting

He thinks of better days too. Of Gai and Asuma and Kurenai and Genma and Rindou and Yamato, of his three adorable students. He wants them back but he doesn't at the same time. He doesn't want for Sakura to grow up almost starving herself, for Sasuke to grow up in a ghost Compound or for Naruto to grow up hated by an entire village. He doesn't want for Yamato to be raised like a machine either. Or for Asuma to run away at the Damyo side from his father. For Genma and Rindou to be scared of being together. Or for Kurenai to become laughing stock for being in love with Asuma.

He thinks of this present and Orochimaru calming presence and gentle petting. Of Gai running around, on his legs, no wheelchair or phantom pains with him. He doesn't want to give them away either.

''I become selfish..?''

'' You didn't.'' Pakkun says suddenly '' It's not to not want to go through the same hardships again. And it's also normal to not want have your dear ones hurt again. The thing you should ask yourself is what you want to do. Not what you need to do.''

'' I ...want to get closer to Gai and maybe Anko. I want the Uchihas to be alive. I don't want to see Obito and Rin face... I want to..see my students again. To be their teacher, properly. Even though Minato-sensei hates me now..I want him to live so Naruto could be happy. ''Kakashi stops for a bit making sure the two girls are still asleep '' What do you want Pakkun? ''

The little pug comes closer to him and smashing his face in his shoulder '' I just want you to be happy, Pup. I don't really care about your human business if you are happy.''

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'' Alright, Kakashi-kun. Our mission is to hunt the male bears in the forest and to find all Woodblock bird nest. '' Minato-sensei said sitting beside Kakashi

It was already a month since Anko appeared and he become friends/rivals with Gai once more. It was also a month since Tsunade-sama begin to make regular check-ups to him and scolded Oro regularly for his intake of raw meat. Did she though he would wait for Oro to hunt with him? He can hunt his own food, especially now when he found out it wasn't doing anything bad to him body. So every time when he goes to meet to Gai for their daily challenge he always snatch a small mice or a little bird on the way. Mice were easier though, the feathers scratched his throat.

'' Why kill all the male bears?'' Kakashi asked cocked his head to the side '' Can't you just move them to another forest?'' here were enough empty ones, not like the other nations that didn't have the right climate

'' Well... we can do that.'' Minato-sensei said scratched his head '' But we won't because our mission is to kill those male bears. Understand?'' he stated not really understanding why the young Hatake was so against it. Didn't he have animal blood on his mouth when they meat? Wasn't there a hanged rabbit? Minato still shivers at that memory. Despite the fact he was a shinobi, a Jounin at that he never saw such image. Not even at the full blooded Inuzuka on the battlefield.

'' The noble that hired us wants their skin hanged on all his walls. He also stated that he wants the males because they are bigger. Now you should go pack lightly for a three days, let's meet here in two hours.'' Minato said but before Kakashi could leave he stopped him '' And Kakashi-kun. We don't question our mission like this, any mission.''

The gentle sound of the door happened when Anko was two days into the house and both Oro and Kakashi discovered that her sense of sound was still dull. They wouldn't risk teaching her chakra manipulation at this age. She was smart, but not Kakashi smart.

'' Kashi-nii!!'' a blur of purple later and Kakashi was trying to not stumble '' Kashi-nii! I just heard from Amy who heard it from Lumi who heard it from...well I forget that all those bastards in the orphanage fall in some nightmare coma!''

Mitarashi Anko at three years old was almost more terrifying than when she was an adult. The fact that she has barely any restrain on her thoughts and action means a lot. Beside the fact she was a revenge seeking little shit, she was a sticky one as well, always climbing on his back and trying to climb in Oro lap.