Elle didn't think she wanted to do her worst like she had told Francis. She didn't think she wanted to hurt anybody either, and definitely not her sister, but all she desired was to fill the void in her heart.
There was a huge hole in her chest, that made her feel empty and alone no matter how much she tried to fill it. She didn't know why, but it overwhelmed her daily. It clouded her mind and soul, so much she feels drained by it. She could feel it stir up a darkness inside of her with each passing day – a darkness, she couldn't describe, but she desperately wanted to get rid of it. She wanted to fill the blankness and feel whole. Feel complete like every other person out there.