Lust

After everything settled Isla explained that she was trying to test us by sending the two most powerful people she knew at us, she explained that they agreed to hold back on us, and this wasn't even their strongest Karma then explained  what she thinks that we are lacking at, she tries to explain that Nina was the most vulnerable, Klaus is strong and experience, but his height was ultimately his weakness, Landon was to quick to fire and his speed lacked a curtain discipline in-between his steps, Caleb was two slow on his response time, Mike thought distance could give him an advantage when it came to fighting with a polearm, Bill is on leave for the holidays, but him thinking that he wouldn't get attacked at home was his downfall, but when it came to talking about me that augmented guy walked up still with the knives in his chest, karma then takes them out, he explains to me that the only thing that i'm lacking is nothing "what you have is something that you could never obtain (which is) purpose (what do you mean by that? Because I just want to go a in a ditch die so she can really cry because I'm a fucked up guy and you know you want me to die...I know it's sad to think but if you really think? this is the thing to do..) Ilsa what the fuck is wrong him 'oh it's a thing he does, he usually does it in his head' what do you mean, my hand is covering his mouth and he is still singing 'its some type of coping mechanism he created to calm himself, he usually does it in his head, you know him a tune' when does he do it you croan ? What activates it 'he usually does it when he's about to either do something stupid, or he's about to get himself killed, I've just learned to tone it out' how long has he been (you think you know me you, think you love me…) Ilsa I swear to 'babe calm down' no karma I'm not going to calm down he need to understand that he is going to be my successor you and I both know I don't have much time left in this world 'i know but we have to at least give him a choice' choice? You think I had a choice… it doesn't matter 'H please calm down' karma look at you, look at me we are not long for this world anymore (Cloe don't let me go, because I… am hooked on a feeling budda dutdu because your in love with me yeah... your lips as sweet as candy there taste is on my mind…) oh my fucking god can I please kill him 'no you will ruin everything I've planned over, I've waited eighteen years for my revenge on that basterd that tool my son away from me and I will no have that planned destroyed by the foolish arrogance of a child so consumed by his lust for blood, if you kill that boy I swear on you father's name the next time the death comes knocking at your doorstep I will not save is that clear' crystal, will he remember Al this 'h look at his eyes' he's pupils are dialeted, he seems to be uncouncious, karma examine him 'alright so let's see..m hmm his muscle structure is much like yours when you were seventeen, his scars are a dead give away to who he works for, based on Michael's report who couldn't even fight Cidny in all her augmentations' I don't trust that AI, anyways you! Nina is is you seem to hold aggression towards me, do you have feelings for the boy 'uh no sir, i---i we just work together' now listen close he is exactly like me in everyway, he's fast stronger and smarter than I ever was at his age, but what consumed me was loneliness, I was always alone in my battle against the greater evil which was myself, I know might not look it, but this boy is the key to a mother's revenge, I know I just threatens to kill him, but he carries the blood of a man I considered a brother 'what are you trying to tell me sir' you know I once fell in love, I was young dumb and blind, it caused me to lose sight of who I really am, and that I'm a wolf that walks amongst the herd, but one day a fox strayed into the herd to walk with me do you understand 'you want me to… be there for… him' yes I do 'but he already has someone her name is Cloe' she lacks something that you have 'what is that' compation, something that I've never had the will to show, will you do this for me, no listen this isn't an order, I'm just telling you to follow your heart" after H tried telling me my purpose I passed out, for some reason the only thing that cometo mind during that time was images of a wolf, a fox, talking to a bobcat who stood next to an uncouncious wolf pup as a deer stood over them, it was so strange it felt so real, my head is throbbing, looking around the room it seems that I've been place in the med bay, to my right is Nina, she seems to be fast alseep, my helmet was placed next to me for some reason, it has a note on it, it read {the wolf shall walk amongst the herd no more, as it does not belong in the herd of sheep, but instead the pup and bobcat shall play as the deer leads them to there next prey} whatever the message it was cryptic as Vincent van Gough painting,or papnlo pocaso during world war two, anyhow putting my helmet it alows me to get further in my research and closer to finding out who Theo's father is, because I believe he was one of the survivors of the pandoran collective bombings at the academy in Goliath,it's just a hunch, looking at the survivers there was only couple dozen, most of the survivors were found near so to the reports by police chief at the time, there was also shooting at the academy after the bombs went off, looking through are file there's seem to be live video feed from the helmet cam of one of the seat teams that moved in after the bombs were reported, this order to head to the school was made by and officer with the last name lambert, that's Theo's last name the order entails the phrase "find my daughter" the video is encryted, it needs Isla's password, which is a name, a long time ago when she first picked me up she told me about a man she admired and loved his name was Kotegawa Adams, after inputting that name it gave me access to the video feed, it quite loud, all that is shows me is the seat team watching a shootout, they seem to have spotted three student one is firing back at what seems to be the pandoran collective, it looks like that lady who was at Theo apartment the scanner from the swat teams helmat cam scan her to be Mikianea Lambert that has to be Theo's mother, she seems to be next to a Kelly Foster and an unknown individual, could that be the wolf, while looking at the video on the left I cross-reference her name with are records and they all seems to be black listed with a name "hello" that's very cryptic watching the video the unknown individual seems to be crying as the swat member zooms in him, it look like that Kelly Foster is dead, looking at her records she seemed to have been let in on some type of information on the leader of the pandoran collective who was known as Saya the Lier, but information is that of Saya dying from child birth, but to my knowledge she was strangled by the wolf the rest of the video shows the unknown individual walking towards the enemies with a pistol, he walks slowly towards them as every shot he makes hit every target in the head or chest killing them instantly, he is then rushed by some of them as he takes their heads and their bodies then uses it against them with only a couple of them left standing then run away as he leaps on top of them ripping their throats out with his own mouth the swat member then turns off his cam ending the feed, then suddenly there seems like a hand has been placed against mine, instantly  I take off my helmet as fast as my hands can move, so that the scene that played out in Theo's apartment doesn't occur again, to my surprise it's Ilsa "your finally awake" she says she then follows by asking "do you remember anything that our augmented agent said to you (no I just remember him trying to tell me what my purpose should be) well do you know what your purpose is (well of course, to follow everything you say) do really believe that (yeah… why not?) Nevermind you get your rest, your still on suspension (ahh c'mon I've been on suspension for almost three days, this is killing me) no you said your purpose is to follow my orders right ? (But?) No buts, just get some rest, Nina has been worried sick for your health, after you feel a little bit better go and see her ( what about my friends, do they know where I've been) just go see Nina (wait where are you going) I'm going to go with agent and his wife to the states (what are you going to take down the government)" after saying that she smiles then takes my helmet and leaves without even numbering a goodbye. Suddenly moments later as I'm gathering my thoughts Cloe enters through the window, running up to me instantly, she might be wearing a balaclava but her hair is a dead give away, Theo also come in after, he gives himself away by making his abnouciouse wave, they don't say anything, they just scan the room and make sure know one else is there, then someone opens my door, it Nina with some food "hi hi" her signature phrase whenever she sees me she says Moshi Moshi which is a type a slang in the Japanese language, she say that believing that part of me is Japanese on my mother's side , she walks to my bed as Cloe stands behind the door, Theo under the bed (hi…How's it going) she then stops at my words knowing that when I say something along those lines my follow up is going to be either a compliment or an aggressive movement, she pulls up a chair giving me my favorite meal which is beef wellington, it's extremely hard dish to make also it take along time, it became my favorite meal after one of my missions two years back, it was a protection detail of the the young heiress to the throne Eukoslovia her name was Ayanna she was kind enough to make me this one night it was a thank you for protecting her for the four months that I was tasked there she told me that she was lonely in this world that she lived in as she surrounded by lier's cheaters and people who grew jealous her influence towards her own people, and that during some of the political parties, which she called "the snakes den" but through all that all she saw was me, she then pressed her lips against my asking me to be her guardian angel to fight against the devil's of the politics, she give me enough time to reply as she kept pressing her lips against mine, my words were going to be know as my duties needed me elsewhere she taught me sign language, then she gave me my first kiss, but then Klaus came in grabbed me slapped me as she tried telling him to stop but all he could say is "this is the way we punish runts" he then put a cigar out on my right arm, that was the last time that we spent together, we would leave the next week, on the plane leaving back Amsterdam, I could've sworn that she was there at the airport watching me leave as she put her hand up again the glass "Gabriel are you okay" Nina's words bring me back to the present, moment like these happen to me all the time relieving the memories that constantly torture me, for me it feel like forever but for other it's just a split second of me spacing out, after everyone that happens a tune' begins to whistle it's way out of my mouth, this is my greatest secret, while smiling at Nina she begins to hold my hand as it reaches for the fork "ummm (ummm?) How long have we known each other (about seven years) in all that time have ever asked me a question about before meeting me (no not really, I like you as you are now who you were before doesn't really matter all that much) haha that really rude ( well it's not about who you were before that concerns me it's who you are now that matters, and what you do in the future) what's my favorite color (what?) What's my favorite color (maroon?) It's magenta (oh?) What's my favorite food (you like sushi, but whenever you prepare your own meal you always at a little bit of Himalayan salt on your rice when you cook it) whats my favorite food (I don't know!? What are you trying to get) I don't know, I'm just trying to get you to understand my standing in this crazy relationship we have (crazy relationship?) Yeah I tell you who to kill how to kill them, you ask you received, you smile I laugh, we fight we train, you know all that stuff (umm Nina your getting kinda close) what's stopping it from having feeling get involved (uhh Nina your hand is my ch…)" she then kisses me, her whole body is on my medical bed now, her eyes are closed, conceding, I lock my lips with hers as she becomes enveloped with emotion, while wrapping her arms around my head, cloe and Theo leave through the window again, as cloe leaves later after Theo because she just watched me for a split second before leaving.

Crisis

  Im my mind as a young adolescent teen having sex is like a grand spectacle that beget my own arrogance, but in the moment of it there is nothing comes to mind, the grand pleasure believe it to be, for me its like a medical treatment that gives me a chance to be relaxed for only a short couple of hours, my thoughts are pretty self confliced as they create multiple types opinions that conflict against each other to come up with something that is against every other opinions concievex. Nina is someone that I care about deeply, but she sees this relationship as something that could bring her happiness, but it'll only bring her pain, as I can't always be there for her when she needs, my duty to Isla and that everything to me, giving that up could destroy her, she lost her son, her lover, and if she lost me she would lose herself completely. Though as my mind wanders, it wonders what could've been, and what should be. My friends want to find what they have lost my flasemorher want me to be better, and a girl who considers me as person she holds dear wants me to both understand her and be with her. These thoughts concieved in my mind as I'm looking in the mirror, before shattering my hand earlier that night before sleeping with Nina, her body Wellington reminded me of  Ayanna, later after we left her country she was killed by her own brother for power, while remembering that night, the only thing that comes to mind was the day after when arrived back and killed is wife and newborn and watched him cry at the sight of their bodies, Isla whipped me thirty time after returning back, because his suffering was not ended, but his suffering carries on with mine. What would happen if Nina died, what would I do, she then approaches me from behind (hey you) she wraps her arms around me before noticing my hand, then immediately grabbing it straight after seeing the blood saying "you broke my mirror… what the hell" for some reason a feeling of deja Vu overwhelmed me instantly, so to detect myself from the further insanity of repeating scene, my hand reach her waist picking her up instantly, the words that are needed to be said to explain what is happening at the moment nothing leaves my mouth, but instead I put Nina in the shower with her clothes on and leave her in the bathroom, she then screams my name in anger, doing such she sends shivers down my spine, informing her I walk to the conference room believing that my presence is needed, Bill is there tinkering on his automation he calls Kelly she is more or less an Android that we found on an operation in England, she was found amongst the bodies of many other Android's created to destroy the tyranny that ruled over England for centuries Bill was always very hesitant when destroying curtain technologies, as he was a lead designer in the model one hospice Aid android, until the Americans took his research and monopolized on it, when he joined our ranks he did so because Isla found him hopeless, and full of hate, she though maybe he could control and vent it out through doing a type of greater good, how she convinced him is beyond me, but he became our main armorer he made my helmet for example, but for the past year he has been working on that android, he's already worked on an artificial intelligence chip for it that he called apex, but then he soon realized that apex hated the fact that the Android was male so apex wanted him to change it to female due to them being overly Superior to males in everywhere, I was actually there to hear it say that, my reaction was very simple, it was walking away and not arguing with a computer. Bill is tinkering as next is a new model of our combat helmets next to him, he doesn't know tice me but in examining the helmet it seem to actually be a collar that you put on then after moving the slider to the left it turns into a helmet when you move it to the left it turns back into a coller , it light very light, nanotechnology is illegal in all countries , because of it being able to enhance the human body, also medical companies would lose trillions if they figured out that the nanites can eat cancer cells. It took a long while but bill finally recognized my presence by smiling at me asking me to help him out by checking out the transfer of apex into Kelly so far by the looks of it, almost ninety percent of the data has been transferred while, bill is on another laptop checking for the rejection rate, the rejection rate is the body not accepting some data, it wouldn't be aparent until there is a full transfer, it would happen if apex would try to access some type of file within her memory then her mind wouldn't be able to find it because the data is being rejected and would cause the body to seize. Bill really want this to work by the look in his eyes, it's his way of having his child back from what I think, he lost his daughter and wife in childbirth, that when he dedicated his life to building the Android for hospice, none of our members in the squad ask him about it, because opening old wounds is not in our guidelines. Bill smiles back at me thanking me then asks "so you finally get with Nina" to my surprise he believes that we should've been together way before yesterday "so did you ? (Yes, but why do say it like that) wasn't it obvious, your both young, she's very pretty, also she would never stop talking about you when you were gone (really I didn't know that? That umm that makes me feel bad I guess) … alright let me get this straight Gaberial, she had a crush on you for long time, and it took you this long to notice (maybe?) …(Don't look at me that way) you have to be the most sense kid I've ever met, you remember out time at space station Shakespeare (yeah, how could I forget that, first time I ever went off planet) you remember that girl named Leya, you remember how she always next to you (yeah wasn't she the chief scientist niece) whatever do you remember when she asked you if you were single (yeah) remember your response (I'm the single youngest person here) … see she liked you (really, but we killed her uncle) I'm talking about before that, and her aunt.. and cousin, also the science team… and what were those things they created (you know we promised to never talk about what we saw) c'mon it's just the two of us… alright we won't talk about it, man but mutants and mutagens how much did we get paid for that just (six million) that was really crazy though (need anything else done) no I can handle it from here, what I'm hoping is that we can have her go to school with (no...just no) well you have (please) come on pup she'll be useful to you (I already have enough on my plate…. Fine!) See I knew you'd be fine with it (if she kills me though it's your fault!) My baby would never do that right apex 'you don't know that pop' see she'd never hurt you ' I actually might' (see she just said… nevermind, it's not like when Nina was sick and apex sent me information instead, and it was about enemies number, but all the information entailed was {your fine}) hey that was an accident right apex 'no' see there you go, you'll be in good hands pup" looking at the data transfer, the cancel transfer button looks really tempting, but instead of getting irritated at an artificial intelligence that despises me for accidentally calling her an it when we first collected her. My attention is put back on Nina, and that I treated her sub human like when handling her  and put her in the shower like a dish, with my embarrassment my hand for through a wall as when my embarrassment reaches a curtain level my mind dopeamene tend to increase to an almost euphoric level in where my face starts to grin, but in whistling a tune I keep my composure, when leaving the building my first instinct is to call Theo and ask him what has been going on, but instead my hands go in my pockets and reach for my pack of smokes and pull one out, while lighting it, my gaze is put upon the sun as it rises, it's quite beautiful. Soon my view is distorted by the body of a female, that female being Karma, she lays her body on the wall of the building while looking at me, paying her no mind, my gaze continue to watch the sun rise, while looking at the sun it would remind me of my rigorous training that involved me disciplining my body as well as my mind, it was unorthodox, I was told to slash at a tree with a wood katana shirtless while counting down for three hundred by seven, while being whipped for every strike, this teaching was to exemplify as the mind and body as one sword, one blade, one being, the only plus about my trading was that isla would put on Frank Sinatra, she told me also to listen to music while conducting operations, it is something that her son use to before he died, maybe he was also in that academy with the wolf, Theo's mom, and her husband kotegawa, it's just a hunch. (Hey karma weren't you supposed to be with you husband and Isla on a mission in the states "oh Isla wanted me to stay behind to make sure you kids were okay" well thank you, but can I ask you a personal question "it depends on the question" did you ever meet the wolf "oh that's right, your supposed to be the next wolf in line to hunt your prey and all that weird jazz right" that's what people say I mean I would read about him in newspapers and in the files we've collected on him, he always seems to be better than anyone he comes across, being able to topple governments to destroy terrorist cells that embedded themselves in society for decades, he even fought the whole world at one point "I wouldn't say that exactly I mean my husband wasn't really good at anything else other than…" wait your husband ("yes my husband James is the wolf") suddenly my legs go limp and I fainted.