He’s a machine! Not sure why that’s the first thought in my head when there are so many others running around in there. I’m stupefied at the way this day has gone. I’d woken up, ready to put him on his ass for knocking me out, so how did we get here? I felt fear and doubt sneak under my defenses as I remembered how I’d acted in the last few hours.
What does he think of me? Does he think I’m easy because I let him have me so soon? The thought brought tears to my eyes. I’d never planned to share myself like this with anyone again, not willingly. I’m smart enough to know that not all sexual contact between the sexes is as ugly as what was done to me. But somehow, I’d convinced myself that no one worth anything would want to have that with me, not in a healthy way anyway.