Running Away but Together

' Aera , Marry me' Azriel said , reaching out for my hand.

' I want to marry someone with same fears as me'

My grip on the pen loosened and my hands started to shake.

A bond , an attachment , a relation , traps and dangers , a fire in your heart , dragons representing inner self screaming , looking for escape in some years , being dependent on someone and then learning to defend your own self.

Waiting for things to happen and if I get sick , silently thinking about my death . When I die , you would stop thinking of me as it'll be like watering dead tulips.

Showing Etiquettes to your in-laws while both of you are deeply judging and observing the atmosphere.

Not being able to speak your mind as you get scares of thought wars affecting your the title your share.

Being a part of kingdoms traveling accompanied to Capitalist events , Into Law firms . The palace staff knowing what's the truth behind your love , hiding maps of the palace , fighting for supremacy , The jealousy somewhere turning to the fight for the throne.

A million thoughts attack me as my eyes tears up.

Maybe my mother would be alive if I wasn't born.

Azriel runs up to me as he gives me a place to hide in his arms where my appearance won't matter , my dress won't matter , I won't be told A Princess doesn't cry , where I won't be fed with Toxic positivity and dominance .

A place Where I can feel safe, it'll make sense , logic and fact to me. Where I won't have to be a mystery , where I won't be pressurized to perform the best and to not come undone. Where I won't be blamed out of assumptions .

Maybe I should say yes , maybe my mind is messed and is assertive of him as he stayed and he kept his promise to return.

Azriel strokes my hairs calmly , telling me he's there , he'll protect me even if he had to die , he'll make sure I'm happy .

He bends down to cup my cheeks in him palms as he looks into my eyes and staring deep into my broken pieces , his eyes go teary . He comes closer to my face and gives me a soft sensation of his lips on my forehead I look up to meet his eyes and I start to tear up .

He wraps me in himself absorbing my figure.

Oh Aera , you're so pure for this fabricated world , Azriel thinks in himself as he can analyse sense her habits.

You deserve the most love , Tulip , I hope you'll receive it '

I wish to lead a perfect story with you , one aside from all this Palace Politics and blood relations .

You don't know much about me yet , but I want you to let me fall in love with you , to let me feed you chocolate while you read. To let me Love you before I can show you my parts which are not so lovable.

'Will you read the Play with me together' he said , exactly the words I needed to hear.