chapter 8: sensation

i could tell by the look on this face, he didnt now what to do with himself.

''Rose... I'll show you that place like i promied...and i need a nice walk''.

Blake said in a firm voice. As i stood up to follow him Anika grabbed my arm ''he... likes you... you know that right?'' she said in a whisper.

my heart was pounding out of my chest.

Before responding i hesatited while doing a little chuckle ''no...he...doesnt...pss'' i spoke in a sarcastic tone.

''have you had sex?... kissed?'' she questioned but already knew the awnser.

obviously it's a no... but in my mind it's a big fat yes.

''You know... i've known him for a long time and if he really likes a girl... then he will save it.

As i walked yup to Blake he quickly turned around to face me and sai in a firm voice ''and no questions!'' he shouted jokily while pointing his finger at my face while i put my hands up in surrender ''okay!...okay!...''.

As we both were walking side by side i decided to mention Anika ''hey... Anika was acting really weird earlier'' i said while standing in front of him to get his attention, he looked at laugh right at my face ''Anika is always weird'' as he said that he started to walk away but i didn't let him ''no...she didn't mention that there was another fire on the same feild'' after i spoke he looked puzzled at me with his head slightly tilted it's so cute when he does that.

''thats really...strange even for Anika...she should have at least told on of us right?'' ''maybe...she told Tj and he forgot'' he said while pointng at me trying really hard to convinse me...but he's thinking the same thing as me.

''look... I've had enough drama already..please can we chill?'' he questioned with his head between his hands.

I realise this place looks so farmiliar.... but I'm not on the field were high up on this small looking cliff watching down on the field a rush of deja vu hit me like a ton of bricks it's like the day i woke up on the field i was watching my own body Blake was here watching me what does this mean?....

All of a sudden my whole body started to vibrate but this time my body on the outside started to shake like a seizure...

All i could see was darkness but then i woke up but it was the day i woke up on the field i knew this was another flashback i knew it wasnt real i tried to take in any little detail but everything was a blur i finally shock myself out of it after i heard the same girl call my name ''Rose!''... ''Rose!''.

Again i was right the same girl as before but someone else was there but i couldn't quite make them out.

''Rose!''... ''Rose!'' Blake was shaking my body that's what woke me up ''are you alright?'' i nodded my head ''the same flashback as before but someone else was there this time... i dont know if there were there or is my mind playing tricks on me''.

Blake started to comfort me he hugged me tighly i could feel his heart beat, beat so fast and so loudly.

Usally it's busy this hour with kids hanging on the field, but not tonight maybe because of the fire.

The field is completely empty.

Except... ''have i ever told you how beautiful you are?'' Blake questioned me while lifting up my head with his index finger and thumb ''Even more than when i met you ''.

He said while looking deep into my eyes ''thank you'' i spoke ''thank you for walking with me''.

While he spoke he approches and gives me a warm hug.

''so... what do you think?'' he quesioned me ''we are in a random field''' ''yes'' He winks at me before grabbing my hands and running towards the edge of the cliff.

''we should use the time we have here'' we sat so close i could feel his heart beat.

His eyes widen in shock and a devilish smirk shows up at the corner of his face.

Seeing his face sends chills down my spine.

The night started to get dark so dark you can't see anything i stand getting ready to leave.

It's scary at this time you feel someone touching you.

''Blake is that you?'' ''stop playing around!'' ''i have to tell you something'' he whisperd in my ear.

''Now!'' ''there's nothing scary about this field...especailly when I'm here'' ''i owe you some things and i wouldn't want to keep you waiting longer''.

''What?'' i feel someone press against my back pulling my hips close.

''That better be you Blake!'' ''haha it is'' ''i want you...Rose''.

''i want you now!'' ''here!'' ''yes!''.

He presses his hand aginst my mouth while lowing his other hand down my trousers ''oh god...'' ''i know you want me Rose''.

He starts touching me as the fear turns into excitement ''you like that?'' he questions me.

I start pressing my back more and more against him wanting to feel him while i start to take off his pants i turn around and start unbuttoning his t-shirt.

I rub my hand against him feeling his firmness making me want him more.

He forces himself in my mouth wanting to go deeper and deeper, moaning with plasure.

With one hand he pulls my pands down. and started to moan with plasure.

This is plasure i've never felt before.

I start moving hard and fast and i'm so overwhelmed with emotions.

I start shaking and pulsing making him come too.

This is what love feels like right?.

Or is he just using me?.

I will never know is life this awful in the end... again I will never know?...

Or...maybe not...will he tell me?.