chapter 19: I'm dead

Blake's P.O.V I had to get away from Rose, I can't believe I thought that the whole time of knowing and loving Rose something inside me scratching to get out, maybe hurt her? I don't want to risk it, I don't know who I am anymore and what I'm capable of doing I'm losing my mind I've finally realised all my friends my family I don't know what's real and what's in my mind I don't know what to do,

is this realisation really me or something...someone else. Is Rose even real the description on the files matches Rose identically, is it really a good idea to go on walk nothing will clear my head nothing will make it all better it won't go away especially when I'm not on my own,

the manic, pyscho voice entered my head once again like always "really...walking doesn't solve our problems does it?" I know I sound crazy but maybe talking to the voice in my head I'll finally get an understanding of everything "what do you mean?" I replied to the voice "well what happened to poor Zarah?" "That was you...your insane" "NO!...I wanted to show you what I,

I mean we're capable of and don't lie to yourself anymore you know you really enjoy every second of it the way she screamed the way she fought us to get away, don't lie".

I had to take a quick minute to think maybe this is really who I am it was only a matter of time before he became me anyway.

"Really are you that stupid...i'm you I can hear your thoughts i'm in your mind" "will I ever get a break from you?" "Nope...another thing you should know Zarah's alive...she knows your face...the police will probably be looking for you right now",

just as the manic voice spoke I turned round ever so quickly to the sound of many police cars and even helicopters and I knew they were looking for me, "listen to my directions I'll get us away and we can have some fun while we're at it" "I don't trust you" "I'm you I don't want to end up in prison too now RUN!".

Rose's P.O.V I know there's something wrong my mind is telling me no but my gut is telling me I have to I know there's something wrong with Blake but there's something else on my mind and I have to go and find out.

I found myself at the field where it all once started weirdly there's no police in sight so I know it's safe to check, I scrambled to my hands and knees to find the hatch, it's in such a hidden place that I can't find it until my hand hit against something hard but yet really hot like the metal from the handle was burning, I couldn't lift it as it was burning my hand I grasped together a bunch of leaves to wrap around the handle, it was still hot but I fought through the pain I needed to know,

the hatch made the same old creaking noise until it slammed on the grass I looked behind me to check my surroundings to make sure it was safe before stumbling down the old worn out stairs, I found myself in the hall way you can still smell the rotting flesh of dead bodies I hunched over trying my best not to throw up as the as the lingering smell was strong as ever,

I pinched my nose before heading into the room as I composed myself my hand trembled as i tried to open to door I managed to open it the room look the same as before files of missing people scattered all over the floor pools of dried blood in the corner or the room,

flies attack my face one by one they had got to be thousands even millions,

I tried to swallow my spit slowly to try and not throw up, I paused for a second when I found a bit of wall chiped away I walked over to it i got on my knees and started digging the mud and pieces of wall got stuck under my finger nails then I found this black box it wasn't small but yet not too big either my curiosity got the best of me and I opened it, it was full of random things ID'S or driving licences,

jewellery I picked up the first ID I found I noticed something about the girl on it, it was the missing girl from the posters the next the same missing girl we found in the files the next person which was a driving licence it was a guy that I've never seen before his name was Tj,

then I realised Blake went on and on about a guy named Tj, my mind went through random thoughts as to did Blake kill those people but Walter was responsible surely the next was a girl again I've never laid my eyes on a girl named Anika but no why was Blake blabbering on about being friends with two dead people, I eyes followed a shining light to which my eyes landed on a piece of jewellery it was a gorgeous necklace it was silver with a dangling letter R on the chain, a memory flashed my mind of Blake putting the necklace around my neck he got me the necklace the necklace is mine! My eyes widened the evidence is all there but I had to keep looking underneath all the random ID'S and jewellery there was a see through box I gipped to the sight of what I already know what's inside there was teeth that wasn't rotten in anyway there were black and badly damaged ones but one really stood out one that was Still fully white,

I knew it was a bad tooth it was bigger than the rest, out of curiosity my hand slid into my mouth to the bad of my right jaw my hand started to tremble tears ran down my face to reveal and missing tooth I jumped up I was on my hands and knees trying to calm myself down and repeatedly said in a breathy way "this isn't real" " this isn't real",

I noticed all the random things had slid around the room one ID in particular caught my attention I crawled towards it kneeled down slowly picked it up my hand still violently shaking as it revealed the ID was mine I slowly stood up but my legs couldn't handle my weight at the time of the shock my back collapsed in to the wall still holding my ID I covered my mouth as i slid down the wall hysterically crying my heart was going fifty to dozen,

everything was there I can't ignore it anymore my hand still covering my mouth trying not to let out a gasp as I whispered to myself with tremble each letter "I'm...dead".