Chapter 6 – Drunken Confessions

Ellie

I can’t explain what I’m feeling right now. I’m happy, really happy as to how Austin treated me yesterday, he was completely different, we might have a lot of memories that happened in the past that were really unpleasant but remembering how he treated me yesterday just made me really happy and to think that I felt special when he shared me his secret paradise. I’m also a bit irritated and mad at myself for being so happy like this because I shouldn’t be just acting like this way because I look like I’m madly in love with Austin when I literally know that I hate him, well let’s just say that I started considering him calling my friend than my number one enemy.

“Uhm—El,” Casey disrupts the bubble that’s forming inside my head, I was recalling the memory that had happened yesterday, it was really memorable, it makes me happy. Maybe because I see a little side of Austin that I didn’t expect to see and it was making me more curious because I want to know more about him and happy because he was really different than his usual jerk attitude. “You know that you were really zoning out since this morning and you didn’t even give us any information of what happened with you yesterday. The way you look right now explains to me that you were thinking about what happened yesterday and I think it involves a boy—“ She smiles, “And I think it’s Austin because he wasn’t at school yesterday.”

I bit my bottom lip and directed my attention to Ms. Fischer, she’s our chemistry class teacher. I’m glad that we get to choose our lab partners and I happen to be lucky because Casey is pretty good at chemistry, while I, on the other hand, is clumsy. So I shouldn’t be really holding any chemicals because last thing I remember, I almost spill acetic acid on my lab partner last year, good thing she saw that the chemical was about to spill on her, making her way as far as possible from me and the chemical. “Hmm—you might get the wrong idea though—“ I said in a low voice, “But don’t get any wrong idea okay? I think that I started to like Austin—“ Casey eyes widen in shock after hearing my explanation which was a bit different from what I was thinking.

“Are you out of your fucking—“ I cut her off, shutting her mouth before Ms. Fischer looks at us, glad that we’re seated at the back.

“I don’t like ‘like’ him in a way that I want to be with him,” I rolled my eyes, “I started to like him in a friendly way, like I don’t consider him to be my number one enemy anymore.”

She breathes after I let go off her mouth, “And I thought you like him which is a major suicide, after all the bitchy thing he has done to you—“ She leans her elbow on the desk and rested her chin on her palm, “But it’s kind of odd to hear this from you, like what exactly happened that made you think that Austin the douche bag is actually your friend now? I mean yes, we’re friends with them but I don’t actually think that you would say that for the past years that you spend on hating him.”

“Well he showed me a side of him that I haven’t seen before, I was really happy. He was really different. Elliot was right, there is more to him.” I smiled widely, “I just want to know more about him because I know there is something more to him that I haven’t seen before because like you said—I was busy hating on him, he only told me before that he didn’t really consider me his enemy, so all this time, I was the only one hating him when he doesn’t even feel the same to me.” I sigh, “I must have been just blind that I was busy thinking he just wants to annoy me when he really just do that in a way to communicate—because we won’t really be talking about any else unless we start to fight.” That’s how I think about it why he insisted to fight me because we weren’t really close and we could only speak to each other when we’re going to get to each other’s nerve. I know, I must be really insane to make excuses and think about the brighter side just because of one event that I shared with Austin. But I really want to know more about him because there’s something within me that is willing to find out.

“Communicate?” She started laughing, “You’re insane. Just because you spend one time with him alone, doesn’t mean he wouldn’t treat you the same before. He must just shown that side of him but I tell you—Austin isn’t really the kind of guy to change and even if you want to know more about him—I don’t really know but good luck because you might fall for him and we know Austin, he doesn’t really stay on one girl after a week.”

“I don’t like him Casey, I just want to know more about him and started to change our relationship as friends.” I clarify.

“Whatever you say El, I’m just warning you, don’t get your hopes up too much.” She may be right or she may be wrong. But one thing is for sure, there is more to Austin than that bad boy attitude, good look and ladies man of a character.

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The bell rang, signaling for the last period. Thank the heavens, I can’t wait to go home. I’m a bit relieved that we don’t have any homework for tomorrow, meaning—I could slack all I want and watch my favorite series on my laptop.

The only time that I had spent with Austin was on lunch because he got to school at lunch time because he woke up later than he expected to be because her mother and father was out at 3 o’ clock am because they have to go at his aunt’s place because of some emergency and they left Austin because he has school and they don’t think he’s any help when he’s going with them. So they left and he just used his alarm clock to wake up at the right time but he was so sleepy when his parents went out that he didn’t noticed that the alarm clock he used has no battery.

He’s a boy, no one can blame him. He didn’t really act any awkward around me during that time which I was glad because we spend the half hour of lunch bickering, which was our typical routine. But the different thing is, I wasn’t really annoyed at him and just shrug it off, like as if we’re just messing around. But after that, Alexandra, queen bee of our school, started joining our table and started shooting herself to Austin which Austin was really playing with because what can I say? He’s a chic magnet and a big flirt. But what’s strange is, I really was irritated when I saw them doing that in front of me, which made me walk out. It was really weird for me to do that and weird for me to feel that way but I didn’t really let it bother me after lunch ended.

“I can’t believe that Alexandra is now after Austin, after she broke up with Max.” Max is one of the football players in our school, he’s attractive and also popular in the school, mainly popular because he’s filthy rich and throws the best parties. Alexandra clings to him like a koala bear since last year but we didn’t really know what happened that made them break up which was just last week.

Alexandra is the queen bee and a mean bitch in our school because she always treats others who are not really known to this school as trash and make their lives miserable because she said that it’s a hobby that she finds amusing. She’s not on a cheerleading squad because she’s not really good at anything. She’s just good at flirting, showing her sexy figure and make guys love her because she has good looks—that made her popular and the queen bee. The only time that I and Alexandra spoke to each other when she asks me during sophomore year if my brother was single and glad that my brother was on a fling with some girl at that time because if he happens to be single, I don’t think I could digest the fact that Elliot and Alexandra being together.

“Well—she’s a slut.” I deadpan. Just seeing Alexandra being all flirty with Austin makes me irritated. Maybe because I find Alexandra annoying, like how she treats guys like her minions.

“Ooooo—“ Casey gushes, “Is someone jelly?” She wiggles her eyebrows, irritating me. “Where’s the happy mood that you displayed this morning? Why did it suddenly vanish?”

I glance at Austin’s locker which was just a few steps away from us, he was busy laughing with Alexandra, and she’s just touching Austin in different angles, which made my head boil. But why am I exactly feeling this? Right. I’m irritated at Alexandra for being a major slut.

“Shut up Cass.” I look at her in an irritated look. And it just made Lila and Casey laugh, earning the attention of the students who walks pass by at our space.

I turn around to put my books at the locker, Casey and Lila is no help at all. “Oh my gosh, I find it really disgusting that they were making out on the corridor,” Lila said, glancing at my direction, avoiding eye contact to the scene where Austin and the queen bee making out.

Can they get a room?! “Ellie.”

I don’t want to talk to anyone right now.

“Ellie—“ I said I don’t want to talk to anyone right now.

“Ellie, can we talk?” I rolled my eyes and turn around, “I don’t want to talk, what the fuck do you wan—“ My eyes widen when I finally register in my mind that the one who is talking to me wasn’t Lila or Casey, it was Matt.

“I’m sorry, I’ll just go.” He smiled weakly, he was about to turn around but I quickly grab him by the wrist, “I’m sorry! I was just in the bad mood and I thought that it was Casey and Lila, I wasn’t expecting it was you.” I explain.

Matt smile grew, “And I thought you were still mad.” He breathes.

Oh my gosh guys, did Matt just smile at me? It’s making my heart melt and the sight of Austin making out is disappearing inside my head.

“Mad? Why would I be mad when you didn’t do anything.” I state.

He scratches the back of his neck, “Well during the party—the drug incident which I really believe Jesse didn’t do it, I know him for a long time and I really think it wasn’t his fault and—“ I cut him off.

“I’m not mad, I don’t hold any grudge. And I believe you.” I smiled. I look like a love struck teenager who wants to kiss the guy in front of her. I should really stop imagining things.

He smiles at me, making my heart jump out of my chest, “Thank you, and I thought you were mad at us, but we’re really sorry about—“ I cut him off again.

“Let’s just not talk about it anymore and forget about the past.” I said simply.

He nods, still, with a smile on his face, I couldn’t really help but feel butterflies lurking on my stomach, I feel like I’m going to vomit rainbows. What did I just said? “To make it up to you, we have a bonfire party at the beach this coming weekend and I would like you to come—“ He looks at Casey and Lila, “And your friends.”

Did Matt Cross just ask me to go to the party where he will also be there because he wanted to make it up to me when I said that it doesn’t really bother me on what happened last time? Oh my gosh! I WANTED TO SCREAM LIKE A MAD WOMAN RIGHT NOW.

“We love to!” Casey screeches, “Can I bring my boyfriend along though?” She looks at Matt and he nods, making Casey jump with joy.

“Thank you for the invite but I have to pass, I have to go somewhere else in the weekend, but I hope you guys have fun.” Lila said, assuring us that she’s okay with it.

“So, I’ll see you and Casey this weekend? I’ll just text you the location.” He said with a smile plastered on his lips.

I nodded excitedly, “Yes—“ I look like a hopeless teenager, “But—you don’t have my number?”

“Don’t worry. I already have it, I have a lot of connections.” He chuckles, “See you.” He winks at me playfully before he left us and disappears from the crowd.

Oh my freaking gosh, did he just invited me to a party and told me that he has my number when I’m just so happy right now and he suddenly winks at me! Oh my gosh.

“I know you wanted to scream right now but not here.” Lila gushes, teasing me like I’m some sort of kid.

I can’t help it, I can’t hide the fact that I’m happy right now, especially with the look of my face. I’m smiling like a complete idiot, all of my teeth were shown because of the wide smile I have and it’s making me look like a complete maniac.

“Though have you seen what happened a while ago?” Lila adjusts her glasses on her eyes, “The moment you were too busy adoring Matt’s features, Austin suddenly stops the make out session and walk away but Alexandra was still following him.”

“I’m not busy adoring Matt’s features.” I rolled my eyes, okay maybe I am. “Maybe Austin finally realizes that he needs to do the make out session on a more private place.” I said bitterly.

“Or he was just jealous.” Lila points out.

I scrunch my nose and avoided the topic. Austin getting jealous? If he really likes me, then he shouldn’t be throwing himself at that pathetic queen bee.

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Elliot is out with the guys, he said that they are going to have a boy’s night out, which literally means, they’ll probably stay at Ivan’s house and drink til’ their hearts content. And Elliot would probably be home by midnight, if and only if, the guys would give him the lift and if not, he’ll probably be staying at Ivan’s house. My parents doesn’t really say to no to party or anything, they mostly let us do what we want, not because they don’t care. But because they want us to share what we’re up to and tell them where we’re probably going or going to do, rather than some teenagers who would run off secretly because their parents does not allow them to go which my parents doesn’t like. They rather want us to party than hide it from them without their knowledge. Let’s just say they want us to be more open to them than being secretive. Which I would say—I have a cool parents. But in order for us to avoid the grounded thing, we must always stay in track of our grades and pretty much stay out of trouble.

My parents as of now won’t be home til’ ten o’ clock in the evening because they are at the dinner party of my dad’s friend. So, I’m stuck in my room, reading a book, seating on my window frame. My window is pretty large for me too fit though, that’s why this is my favorite spot on my room, and I’ll only stay here when I know that the brat isn’t at his room. Austin isn’t at his room because the lights are out, and I assume that he must have been at Alexandra’s place, making out or with the guys, the night out.

I glance at the stars above me and it’s the prettiest thing to see at night, I love star gazing. I and Elliot usually star gaze when we’re kids. When we’re young, we usually share one room and when our parents tuck us in to sleep, we’ll pretend that we fall asleep and when they are out of our room, we’ll climb up the window and watch the stars in the sky. I and Elliot have a lot in common, there’s no doubt about that. But now that we’re older, and have our own separate rooms, I don’t know if Elliot is still into stars. Maybe not, because he’s a guy and he’ll probably say that it’s too girly when it’s not.

“Oooo—look what we have here, if it isn’t the manface who loves to look at starts at night—“ He hiccups, I breathe heavily and stare at the room across me, he never fails to ruin the moment.

He was leaning on his window, his face is as red as tomato and his hair was messy, sticking out in different angles, it looks like he was drunk but maybe he was just really trying to do the ugly look which he fails miserably because he still looks hot—I mean not.

“Have you been drinking?” I eyed him suspiciously, I throw my book on my bed and stare back at him.

He closes his eyes, “Maybe,” He giggles, it was really funny how he acts like a little kid, “Or maybe not.” He sticks his tongue out.

He’s definitely drunk. “Aren’t you supposed to be with the guys or at Alexandra’s?”

“Alexandra’s?” He snorts, “You mean the bitch who started throwing herself at me a while ago?” He laughs, making me think that I should fist pump because I appreciate the fact that he thinks that he was a bitch. What the hell is happening to me? “She asks me to come at her place a while ago, and I did because what can I say? Ladies love me.” He laughs and suddenly scrunches his nose, “But I was too struck with something, that I wasn’t able to do it with her, I was just not in the mood but she insisted throwing herself at me.” He started pulling his hair like a little kid who is throwing tantrums, it just made me smile looking at his drunkard expressions, “And the bitch practically raped me.”

“Rape you?” I gasp, and then started laughing. Austin being rape by the mean bitch is really funny and by just looking at Austin’s face right now is making me laugh hard. I can feel tears crashing from my eyes because of laughter, he literally just made my day.

“But you know—I feel good that she instantly lets go off me because whatever she does, my friend doesn’t want to go hard.” OH MY GOSH! THIS IS LITERALLY FUNNY AS IT IS.

“Your friend doesn’t go hard?!” I started laughing again, “Oh my gosh, Alexandra’s face must have been really embarrassed because the hot guy like you wasn’t turned on by just looking at her.” Poor Alexandra.

“Yeah—it didn’t. Which was weird because they said that she’s good in bed but thinking about how she’ll give me STD, made the trick, maybe that’s the reason why it won’t go hard.” He explains in a child like manner. Just having these drunken confessions is making me laugh and to think that it was from Austin.

“I’m sure you started regretting making out with her?” I look at his expression but he just shrugs it off, “Maybe.”

I smiled at his expression, he was too cute, I prefer drunk Austin, what am I saying? “But how did you end up being drunk anyway?”

“Ah-“ He snorts, “Good question!” He screech, making me laugh, “I went at Ivan’s place and drink five bottles of beer, I just wanted to remove the little scenario happened a while ago. And I ask Ace to drive me home and he probably just shoves me in our door and leaves me because he said that he was going back at Ivan’s place.” Poor Austin, being shove like a doll. Though he kind of deserve it for being such a loser by flirting with Alexandra. Anyway, I’m not jealous. I just don’t like her that much for him.

“You mean the little scenario where Alexandra takes place?” I ask with a smug look.

He shakes his head, “Some girl was just asked by a boy she likes and seeing her so happy like that irritates me.” He said bitterly.

And who would that girl be that he finds it irritating to see? I’m starting to get curious. Is Austin falling in love to a girl? I mean if yes, that would be a shocker and I would want to know who that girl was.

“And who is this girl I presume?” I raise an eyebrow, waiting for his answer.

He stands up properly, laughing like a complete idiot, “You know her but I don’t want to tell you.” He chuckles, “ELLLLLA—come here, let’s get naked and go cuddle. I could really use your warmth right now.” And with that—he just made my heart skip a beat.

I can feel the blood rushing on my cheeks, even the drunk Austin never fails to make me feel different emotions that I couldn’t explain, “Shut up Austin, you’re drunk.”

“I’m not drunk.” He disappears from the window and seconds later, he came back with a rope at hand, “Catch!” I was startled that I immediately got the rope.

“I’ll just go in there instead, if you don’t want to.” He said like a child. He’s really cute.

“I don’t want to! You’re being ridiculous right now Austin!” I immediately get inside my room, watching him as he attempt to jump in my room.

“Ellaaa—catch me—“ He said in a drunk state, “Catch me because I’m falling for you.” Wait, what?! What did he just said? Did he just say that he’s falling for me? Or does he just mean that in a way that I should catch him because he is going to my room?

I was so zoned out that I was surprise that Austin bumps into me after he had jumped from his room to mine, he made me fell on the floor which he was now lying on top of me which was heart jumping and so awkward because this position is inappropriate.

“Get up Austin, you’re heavy!” I retorted, I tried to push him away from me but it failed. He leans his head on my neck, seriously, Austin is really a kid when he’s drunk.

“I don’t want to!” He protests, “You smell like honey—“ He gushes, “I love it.”

I can feel my heart pounding like crazy and this guy is seriously not helping.

“Can I kiss you again?” He whispers in my ear, making my heart drop from my chest. It sends shivers against my spine and electricity all over my body.

“Austin, seriously!” I snapped, he’s really drunk and he’s making me go insane.

He rolls away and now he’s lying beside me. “Ella—I just wanted to ask you something.”

“What is it?!” I rolled my eyes. Maybe I’m really annoyed how he’s acting and making me feel weird.

“Did you even consider liking a guy like me or have you liked me or do you like me now?”

His questions made my heart beat fast, it was making me nervous. Why is he acting like this? “I—uhh—Austin!” I stammered.

His eyes were looking at me, he may be drunk but his eyes feels like everything that he just said were coming from his heart which made me a bit bothered and ask the question that he ask me to myself, did I even like or consider Austin?

“Ella—“ He disturbs the bubble in my head and I turn to look at him. This time he was smiling, it made me feel something. Which I never knew I will feel from him. Butterflies! I can feel butterflies erupting from my stomach and my heart beating like it was going to explode from my chest. Why am I even feeling this way?!

“Do you think that I like you?” I can hear my heart beat and it was really insane. Austin had really given a big effect on me.

“Ha-“ I snorted, “Austin, you’re drunk. Stop it!” I snapped.

He chuckles at my expression, “Can you smile?”

“Why?” I retorted, glaring at him like I’m some kind of kid. Which was really childish of me by the way.

“Because I love your smile, it suits you.”

WHAT?! DID AUSTIN PRINCE JUST TOLD ME HE LOVES MY SMILE! OH MY GOSH WHAT THE FHUDGE IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW! I CAN’T SEEM TO CALM DOWN. I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO JUMP OUT OF THE WINDOW JUST TO CALM DOWN MY HEART.

PLEASE HEART, CALM DOWN.

“Austin, stop joking around.” I said with a serious tone.

He slowly closes his eyes, like he was about to fall asleep, “I’m not joking Ella, I love your smile.” He started to yawn and then he said, “Good night.”

And after that, I can’t really stop the heart pounding, butterfly lurking and the electricity that is happening inside of me. Austin Prince is driving me crazy and I need help because if this won’t stop, I think I’ll be falling down on a trap.