C 96. Develop An Aura

A knock came in from the door, after checking it was that girl from yesterday holding a breakfast in her hand.

"Thank you," I said.

I placed the dishes on the table this time, there are different things on a wide tray.

Hmm, that boy will come now! 

Knock!

Knock!

Yep, that's him I believe. But this time I did not open the door. Rather, I opened the dishes and started observing them with scrutiny.

Finding nothing out of the ordinary I tested each one of them, nothing too, then I started eating.

Knock!

Knock!

I ignore the pest.

I did not finish half of the food but I felt satiated. Then I kindly stand and open the door, he is still holding two bottles of water.

"It is not a good thing to offend me."

"Okay," I said.

I don't give a damn about it. But I'm eager to enter meditation to have a good analysis of what Madam 9 said to me.

He entered the room and looked at food. Seeing I have eaten half of the food he frowned.

"I don't eat leftovers." 

"Sorry," I said when I was sitting on my bed.

I closed my eyes and turned off my senses. 

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I became worried! 

I wanted to have something that I can use to help protect myself. Perhaps I shall ask Madam 9 about it.

I stood and walked out of the room, it was then I found myself in her office again.

Hmm, my intention to meet her is enough for her to know and bring me here.

"I was wondering if there is anything that will make me strong physically."

She smiled and asked, "Are you not content with what you have?"

"I am. But the craziness of the world makes me think having the means to protect myself is the most. 

Considering I have strategic ability. If I'm not careful I might end up becoming someone's slave without a power to protect myself."

"Hmm, you may need to develop something called Aura."

"Aura? How?"

"The recipe for it is kneading Spirit, Will, and Presence together. With that, you can fight on equal terms with most enhancers.

Or you can ask Dr khan to take you to Dr Sam to help you. He was the master of Aura."

"Thank you," I walked out and I'm back to my room. Then I dive into meditation

The internal view this time was so much more vivid than before. I saw the heart pumping, each pump a streak of light flashed making the place to experience brightness.

After looking for some time I concluded the Internal Sight View is unique. It shows me things in a streak of white light but also each white contains a different colour.

It's very beautiful even though the heart is the only organ I can see fully as the rest of the body is dim.

My mind came back to Aura. Madam 9 says I can get guidance from Director Sam. But for now, I know the recipe on how to develop one.

That is to knead Spirit, Presence and Will together. The question is how can I do that?

~Hoo~

I will take my time to study things. Since my power comes directly from Spirit Eyes but uses my vitality as a source of fuel, that means I have an abundance of Spirit.

Vitality refers to how active and healthy the cells are. Even though I did not know what Presence means, it must be related to vitality.

Then, Will, I don't think I have a problem with that. With all the shit I have been through, if I don't have a strong Will, I will have been damned.

~Sigh~

I have two out of three:

~Spirit

~Will

I need to know what presence is in actuality.

After all the thoughts I just kept observing my internal body hoping I will comprehend something.

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I walk out of the room after spending hours meditating. I follow the corridor till I reach an open place.

I saw a parlour, filled with couches and there was a screen on the wall. Four people discussing on the couch.

One of them is the girl who used to bring me food. As they did not notice me I walked outside.

It was now in a little garden before the gate. It was filled with flowers of different shapes but they were all white. Though it has different shades of light colours.

I stroll out looking around. It's a town and the building I came out from is the largest around.

Different buildings, houses and shops fill my view. People also are moving around. 

I walk from one road to another but the moment I meet with a subject I will recognise them.

Some will speak with me and some did not. But one thing is, in any shop I pass, the man or woman will call me and give me a gift from their shop.

Some are clothes, some it's just cosmetics, I even saw two female Subjects trying to buy things in the shop.

One shop sells chocolate and biscuits. All of them give me something. Well, I did not reject their kind gesture.

I walked down the last street. I saw a woman irrigating her powers at the front of her house. 

My instincts keep telling me that I know her but another tells me to leave her alone. In the end, I glanced my focus on her when everything blurred away.

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I wake with a deep headache in a small room. I was lying on a bed and Madam 9 was in front of me observing me.

"How do you feel?"

"Head pain," I said with difficulty.

"It will wane." As she said, the headache reduces until I feel my head light again. It was then that something rushed in my mind at once.

I felt my intestines squeeze and my stomach bubbles, a strong urge to vomit occupy my chest. I did not hold it but there was nothing in my stomach to vomit.

"Wow, you will really suffer in the outside world." She teased.

"What… do you mean?" I said trying to calm my vomit urges. Without waiting for her to answer I quickly entered meditation.

My internal view was dimmed but still, the streak of light coming from the heartbeat helped. My mind calmed and I no longer felt that urge to vomit.

Damn!

That was…. Filth.

"You activate your Internal Mind. Congratulations. Do you know being there doesn't consume your vitality? What it uses is the Spirit of your body?"

I heard her voice. But I couldn't answer.

I come out of my mind and try to take my thoughts away from that filth but I couldn't. In the end, I found that my stomach is just churned upside down but had no urges of vomiting.

"I used Spirit in meditation?"

"Yes, do you find yourself weak after you come out?"

"No, I always find my eyes more clear and also my thoughts straight without being jumbled up. As for my body weakness, I'll be energetic."

"Interesting. You have an overwhelming amount of Spirits in you. A boon and a bane at the same time my boy.

One thing I found out about power is that too much of it was never a blessing but a curse. Only through one's efforts will one change it to blessing.

As for you Balarabe, having this much spirituality is a massive bane if you can't use it well.