Death or life

As Alex grabbed at his throat I watched him for a second before my emotions hit me full force. Omg No no no. I grabbed him. What have I done. "Alex. Please. You can't die. I'm sorry." Tears were falling as I watched him take his last breath. What have I done. I instantly rewinded time to the moment before I cut him but he was still the same. I used a forbidden knife. What have I done. I tried healing him but nothing worked. I couldn't reset time otherwise he would be lost forever.

I, I. My emotions. My heart, why am I breaking? Why does it feel like I lost something. I laid on him and could feel the pain consuming me. I looked up to the door and knew what I had to do. I unlocked the door and multiple Gods came in. "What have you done?" Someone yelled before throwing me across the room. "I am sorry." I cried out as I stayed lying on the floor. "Omg ALEX." Chasity screamed. "I can fix this. I just need your help." I said the emptiness was eating away at me why did I feel like I lost a part of me.

"You want our help after everything you just did?" Todd The God of Unbreakable bonds asked through gritted teeth. "I can bring him back. I'll give you a forbidden spell that will combine mine and his soul together making him become truly Immortal." I said as I tried to reel in the shakes I was having. "Aren't forbidden spells dangerous or something?" Chasity asked with no trust in her voice.

"Why is it forbidden?" Todd asked sounding like he would give it a try. "Umm its forbidden because Im not suppose to ever use it because it combines our souls together and Its for emergencies. It can be used on dead Gods to bring them back to life. It's basically for resurrections. But it can only be used once ever." I said leaving out the important stuff and already grabbing what I needed to start it.

"Fine I'll do it but if he doesn't wake up, you will regret the day you were ever born" Todd said. This was really bad if I used this spell I could never love again. I shouldn't do this but he tried to help me. Noone can ever know what this truly is. I have to block my magic or what if I just let him die, would it really be that bad?

"Okay where is it?" Todd asked distracting me from my inside turmoil. I did a spell and gave him what he needed. I walked over to Alex and sat on the opposite side across from Chasity. "I'm going to need you to move." I said. she looked like she wanted to refuse but ended up reluctantly moving away before kissing his hand.

"You know what to do now right?" I asked Todd. "Yes lets hurry this up. Close and lock the door Chasity" he said standing in the spot that the spell required. After the door was closed I remembered something. "Wait I am going to have to give you full power. Since you are a royal it will basically be instant. I'll just take it back after the spell." I said as I started to have magic flow Into Todd so we could do the spell correctly.

Giving royals their full magic was dangerous so I would take away everyone's memories of this after I took back the power I let Todd borrow. "Okay you can start, your power is good. Don't make any mistakes." I said causing Todd to get angry. "I got this now be quiet." He said. As the spell started, I started to get a feeling in my gut but Looking at Alex squashed the feeling back down for a bit. Everything would be okay this was my mistake and it's my job to fix it.

As the spell started to twirl around Alex and me, I started to question this more. Yes I was the cause of The God of absolute powers death but that didn't mean I had to risk so much to make up for it. People died all the time in the mortal world. And he was only one God. Would I really risk so much just for one God. Yes he is a royal but it's not like it was the Goddess of Life and death. If the Goddess of life and death died what would the consequences be? Maybe I should reconsider this because I can only use this spell once.

As I made my decision to cancel the bond. I started to conjure up magic so that I could think this through with a clear head. I just calmed down from losing control so I was not in my right mind. If I thought about this for a few days it would be fine, As long as his body was still intact I could do the spell or I could change my mind. Plus that would give me time to prepare If I did decide to go through with it so I wouldn't be clueless of the bond because as soon as the bond finished I would lose my memories.

As I made my mind up and started to finish up the spell to cancel it, I notice something that I didn't even realize was there before. I reached to pick up a shiny ring. As I twirled it around I noticed it had names inscripted on it. When I looked closer it was my name. As I twirled it around I seen his name. When did he make this? That thought was cut off right when I felt the bond seal and pain shoot through me. My memories were being attacked by the bond.

As I rushed to do the spell to block everyone's magic before the bond erased my memories of the last 24hrs, something was put over my mouth. I started to panic and fight but whatever I inhaled started to make me relax and get sleepy. "Shhhhhh go to sleep." Someone that sounded alot like The God of the Future said. Before I could do anything to help myself I was closing my eyes and drifting off to sleep.