CHAPTER TWENTY ONE

FIONA'S P.O.V

Loud, boisterous laughter booms around me again and I shake my head at the scene playing out in front of me.

We are all having a celebratory dinner to celebrate me and Mikhail being mates and everything is going well.

Mikhail had informed the cooks to make us a scrumptious feast and they really outdid themselves.

My mouth was open in shock when several delicacies that I didn't even know the names of were lined up in front of us and even Alice almost purred at how delicious they smelled.

We all dug into the food and I had already lost count of the number of times I moaned at the taste of the food.

Even though we were all enjoying the food, it was obvious that Jeremy fancied the food more than the rest of us.

He gobbled everything down while making several comments about how he would have visited the human realm more if he knew that their food was this good.

My father made a toast to Mikhail and me and another smile stood proudly on my face at his actions. I was so glad that he finally accepted Mikhail.

After the dinner was over my parents and friends had all been shown to the rooms prepared for them and they had all retired to bed.

My friends had also retired to bed even though Daphne was really reluctant to leave.

She was extremely quiet this night and I noticed that she was still staring at Jeremy during dinner.

Okay I definitely need to talk to her about that. Does she have a crush on Jeremy or something?

Mikhail and I were still awake though, he had gone back to his office after dinner and I chose to go meet him.

I should have gone to bed since it was already late but I just felt the serious urge to be in his sight so I followed him to his office and sat on the chair as I watched him take care of the remaining paperwork from earlier.

He was a bit shocked that I didn't go to bed and had asked if something was wrong but I waved it off and told him I wanted to stay with him.

It seems that I'm not yet over my obsessive stage and it's just getting worse. At this point even Mikhail must have noticed that I'm being clingy but I just can't help it.

I wonder if it's a dragon thing though, maybe dragons grow the extreme urge to always be with their mate after meeting them.

This felt different though, it wasn't just about wanting to be in Mikhail's sight but It was about me wanting him to look at me always, to touch me, to– I quickly cut off my train of thoughts.

I can't believe I've been thinking about things like that. What is wrong with me?

'Alice do you have any idea what's going on?' I ask her while fiddling with one of the pillows on the couch but she just shakes her head in return.

'I don't know but I feel it too, I just want to go over there and kiss him' she says dreamily and I can't help but roll my eyes. 'you're not helping, alice' I tell her but she just scoffs at me.

'And what exactly do you want me to do? I can barely concentrate on anything apart from the thoughts of having him do things to us, it is so distracting ' she says with a little bit of annoyance.

I can't help but agree with her though, I haven't been able to focus on anything throughout the night because thoughts of marking and mating with Mikhail have kept me occupied.

I look up at him as he writes something down and wonder if he feels the same urge to mate with me.

He must feel it too right? I can't be the only one feeling like this, I just can't.

'Well maybe you should ask him' Alice suggests and my eyes widen.

'Ask him, are you crazy? What am I supposed to say? Hey Mikhail do you want to sleep with me cause I'm certainly down for it?" I say with sarcasm and Alice laughs at this before shaking her head and laying down.

'Actually that is one interesting way of telling him' she says with a cheeky smile.

'Although I was expecting you to just seduce him. It can't be hard since we're mates, just go over to his table and kiss him' she suggests and I almost facepalm.

'I can't do that Alice, it's embarrassing ' I admit with a frown.

'Well you have to do something because I don't know how long I can go without having him ram–' I quickly shut her out before she can complete her statement.

I know she's right though, I feel like I will absolutely die if Mikhail doesn't mate with me soon. Gosh talk about being a hoe, I never expected this from myself.

Alice breaks the mental block I placed between us and before I know it she's flooding my mind with images of Mikhail and I in very... Compromising situations.

I finally manage to block her out but the mental pictures have already affected me and I feel my breathing get heavier, maybe her suggestion wasn't so bad after all.

I close my eyes as I try to steady my breathing and get the stupid throbbing under control when I hear a slight shuffle and the sound of something dropping on the table.

My eyes snap open to Mikhail's direction and I see that he has dropped his pen and was already out of his seat heading towards me.

He gets closer to me and I finally notice his eyes flicking from his normal blue eyes to a shade of black. I wonder what's wrong with him.

I'm just about to ask what happened when he beats me to it.

"Fiona are you... Okay?" He asks but his voice sounds edgy and rougher than usual. His fists are also clenched and he seems to be holding back from getting too close to me.

"Yes I'm fine, why do you ask? And what's wrong with you? You look tense" I say with a frown as he takes in a deep breath and closes his eyes.

When he opens them again they're already back to their normal shade of blue but he still looks bothered.

"Fiona... What were you thinking about?" He asks with seriousness and I raise my eyebrows.

"Thinking about? Well nothing much, just normal stuff" I tell him.

Why did he ask that? It's weird of him to ask that right after I thought about him inappropriately.

It would be the biggest embarrassment to even tell him the truth of what I was thinking about.

"Hmmm really? Then why were you–" he suddenly pauses as if expecting me to understand but I just stare back in confusion.

"Why was I what?" I ask again, what's going on here? I think to myself.

Mikhail rubs the back of his head nervously and I see him hesitate before finally talking.

"I don't know... What you were thinking about but... I could smell it, you know? I could smell your–" he pauses again but my frown just gets deeper.

What the heck is he talking about? I was about to voice out my confusion when all of a sudden it clicked in my head and I finally understood what he meant. My eyes widen in shock at this.

He could smell my arousal, how could I have forgotten that he was a werewolf and could smell something like that.

I was sitting here seeping of arousal and it was just wafting up his nose? My cheeks turned a deep shade of red as I struggled to breathe.

I wished the ground could just open up and swallow me whole right there and then, how could I have been so foolish? I hear Alice laughing and I scowl at her, this is all her fault.

Mikhail is still staring awkwardly at me, he knows from my expression that I understood now.

"I- I actually-I wasn't trying to uh... I'm sorry about that, I don't know what came over me" I say stumbling over my words.

Mikhail gives a curt nod at this "sorry to bring it up, I was going to ignore it at first but it got too strong and I couldn't concentrate, my wolf was begging to be released" he admits and I freeze again.

The smell was so strong that he couldn't concentrate? Sprit of my dragon ancestors kill me now, I cry in my head.

"I should go now so that... You can concentrate" I tell him trying to salvage whatever is left of my dignity.

He nods at this and I scramble off the couch, muttering a quick goodnight I basically run out of his office and i don't stop running until I get to my room and lock the door.

I slide down the locked door with my face in my hands. Why did I have to embarrass myself like that? I cry now pulling at my hair.

Alice shakes her head at me 'you're right about that, you should have taken the initiative to kiss him, touch him, make him want us' she says with disappointment.

How can she seriously be thinking about that now? I just completely embarrassed myself and that's all she can say?

'I'm just saying what you're afraid to say, you know you also wanted that, admit it' she says accusingly and I know she's right.

'Yeah I wanted that but it doesn't mean I would have done it, it would have made me seem desperate ' I whine to her.

'Well you better find a solution if you don't want me to take control and do what you're too scared to do because I don't know how long I can hold the urge' she tells me before shutting off our link.

I know she's right and that scares me, I have absolutely no doubt that Alice will take over and try something with Mikhail but I have to stop that.

I can't let her embarrass us like that. I also need to find out what's wrong with me because something definitely is.

I hope I find out soon because I don't know how long I can keep Alice from her mate.