Chapter 4: ~Strange attitude~

For a day they kept me in bed and observation to avoid another attack on me. I was very boring and I could only see towards the window that was on the side of my bed, all my view was the same as always, children playing while their mothers spoke and the occasional bird or cat on the fence of my house.

I was about to fall asleep in boredom but my mother arrived in my rescue when she entered my room with a spent book that was under her arm and was not the only thing she brought, she also carried a plate of cut fruit in her hands and a glass of water. With great care he placed the fruit and the glass on the night table that was next to my bed and then handed me the book.

I was a little confused when reading the title of the book, but still only returned my gaze to my mother who only looked at me with some discomfort, something that was weird in her if my aunt was not or any more relative by the Castelia .

— Nathaniel, I know that you are confused but ... you need this book. Please read it.— she talked me to then turn my back on me.—Maybe that helps you.

—Mother, but ... this is ...— Without thinking I bit my fear lip, but I still tried to listen to me quiet so as not to hurt my mother who wanted me to help me.— I appreciate it but ... I do not need to use The dark arts if that is prohibited in our family, tradition is only carried out with how little we know about white magic.

I was about to leave the book on the table to focus on eating something, but unexpectedly my mother turned to see me. Her face was scared, those emerald eyes lost in nothingness while her curly and reddish hair somewhat fallen by herself who had achieved with her own hands, it was strange to see her frustrated or even irritated but there is always a first time.

He believed that he would only stay like this but his lips began to babble something that he didn't even understand, well, that was until I extended my hand towards her to try to get her out of the trance.

—Mother, I will not read but ... — I paused to make sure to analyze what I would say, and even more since maybe I would bother her, but I still wanted to tell him.— I must first ask my grandparents about this.

If a beautiful tan to a pale color on her skin, she made me worry about her, but her action scared me. Without giving me time to react, he took my shoulders and even keeping his lost gaze approached my face while I only hugged the book and took it to my chest of the impression that I had caused me.

—Ma ... m-a .. mm ..—It was the only thing I could babble.

— Nathaniel, I have never asked you anything but today I want you to take care of crushing your cousin during the ritual. I just need both you and you to pay ...

—A-all?— I asked about his offer that sounded tempting and unreal to come from my mother.

— Everything, you just have to learn what is coming here.— She replied while he freed me and moved away from me to recover his position.— You are very talented to waste your spiritual strength in just white magic, expand your horizons and that will lead you to be successful.

— But if my desire is to leave this?

— Nothing is easy, even if we talk about protection in your life. Do you think that for you to prepare since you have memory ... it would be something so insignificant? Let's go Nathaniel, stop underestimating your family's tradition and believes that all this will lead you to a sweet reverie without end ... The eternal rest, in a nutshell.

Honestly, my heart jumped and my throat was knotted. Seeing what was facing me made me doubt whether I was my mother or not, if what I was seeing and listening was real. I wanted to get up to go down to the first floor of my house to make sure if everything was the mere reality, but she stopped me and then take a little fork of the dish with red fruits to take it to me.

—Oh, no thanks Mother.— I rejected the fruit by removing it with my hand.—I'm full— I said.

— Full?. Nathaniel, you haven't even eaten.

— And you just give red fruits at breakfast ... or did you forget it, "mother"?

It seemed annoying but still hid his expression with a forced smile to try to answer myself in the best way.

My mother only put aside the fork with the fruit and then passed her hand on my cheek, but when she felt the touch of her, I noticed that she was not warm and was cold. I knew it could be something reckless on my part if I wanted to face it in my current state, since if it ended up being my true mother I could be punished in the most ruthless way with its peaceful methods. Well, he wouldn't know if he didn't confront her.

—Mother?

Hearing my question backed away, it seemed that I was really upset but little importance I gave him to try to discover what was happening around me.

— It seems that you have loss of memory or something.

— I don't know that you're talking NATH, I think you're crazy for having despised the fruit. the book I gave you.

— To meditate?. Mother, another mistake and I will start doubting.

— Ahg, then just eat and read.— she talked me something desperate.

— I can't read something about magic if it is not accepted by my father or my grandparents Castelia. I know my mother.

— Ja, Nath, why are you saying this, doubts about me?

— I would lie if I said No.— I replied.

— Don't be silly and just eat.— The fork approached my mouth.— I need you to be healthy and stop asking me questions.

— What if I don't want to eat that?— I asked him challenging.

— If you eat I will tell you everything about the Fray family, about my brothers and ancestors, even the tradition we had.

I had it between the sword and the wall, everything I said made no sense and more with my uncles, I was sure of something and that was that this woman or something in front of me was not my mother.

— But my uncles died almost 25 years or maybe more. My mother has no brothers today— I mentioned.

— Oh, but I never specified.

— But still ... you failed in everything! — I shouted at the same time that I launched the book.