chapter 1

what am about to write is not just a story or some fictional movie but an actual thing that happened in my life. It all started when I finish my advance level in a government high school in my region, I was really happy as I was stepping out of uniform, it's was the most exciting day of my life because I knew if I didn't make it that would have been the end of my Education.

More to that my father who was an old tailor managing his little tailoring workshop barely have the strength to sew and thus have little or no more money to spend on me, was really expecting great results from me, so imagine my excitement to tell him I make it.

First of all, let me give you a little detail about my family and our financial status, we were all 8 in number in our little house though my parents lost some children along the way, we were very very poor, a mean we were poor until poor people call us poor, infact it was as if we eat poverty every morning. our house was the poorest in the quarter we live in, our roof was even liking all the time hahahahahahaha, ohhh God what am I laughing.

Even though, we were poor but we still find happiness in our own little way, we have neighbors who were kind and loving though sometimes in disagreement with the way my father raised us, because I was the only child that has reached Advance level in our house, most of my elder sisters and brother were school dropout due to financial difficulty. Despite us managing to survive, we had uncle's who were rich and financial stable but choose not look our way, we were looking for tuition fee while my uncle was a top donor in church, in fact I had no money to pay for my exam but could remember how much my uncle donated in last church service after he told me he had no money to give me for my fees.

That's why I always make this statement, Life is not hard but people makes it look hard, whatever you are looking to make your life easy is in the hands of someone who does not even have use for it. For example your looking for a house but there is someone who has houses he does not even live in them, likewise for a car, someone has many cars parked in his compound, looking for money earn a living while there are rich people and government officials who stores and Park money in their houses until some of the money is getting bad. "Ohhh what a life."

coming back to my story, after giving my father my results, he was happy then again became sad, and he said am proud of you but what next?, and I said dad I don't understand, he said you have made it; what is your next move? This question made me to realized that I don't even know who I am or what I really want to be in life; come to think of it, the educational system of my country is not helpful to the citizens; there is no school nor carrier orientation thought in school; so how was I to know what to be in life after my advance level.

so making a life choice that moment in front of my father was so hard knowing that he earlier told me" before I finish advance level that he does not have money to send me to the university and that even if he manages to find some money, I need to decide very careful". Giving these circumstance, it was very hard for me to decide, so I settled for public Exams to be intergrated into the government . thus I wrote the E.N.E.S.T which was a government teaching entrance but did not made it, then I wrote FORESTRY which is still a government entrance but still to no avail.