The Darkness In Your Eyes Against The Darkness In My Heart

I must keep my enemies close so that whatever I fear may become my home in time.

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Madison's scream was so shrill that I felt my ears hurt. It was dark everywhere, I couldn't see one's hand in front of one's face. I wanted to use my powers to illuminate the area we were in, but the beings I felt around my body would not allow me to raise my arms. I couldn't breathe, as if their heavy presence was filling my nose and my lungs with darkness I could never pierce.

I could feel hands all over my body, but these hands did not feel like normal human skin. Their hands were like smoke, but they still squeezed my skin like they wanted to pierce it. I didn't expect to hear voices as I was frozen in fear at that moment. Their smelly mouths were so close to my ear that their voices seemed to come from inside my head. "It's dark. It's so dark. I want to see the sun, wouldn't it be better if your body was mine?"

"Why are you living? There's no point in living. Life is a waste of time. Please, let me breathe. Can't I just see the sun once?" I blinked and frowned as Madison cried and groaned somewhere in the dark space some distance from me. My eyes were already accustomed to the blinding darkness, and I could see the dark bodies in the form of smoke around my body. They were darker than what we know as darkness, and although they were in the form of smoke, they were in human form. They had no faces, there was a great void where their mouths should have been, and that void was dark.

"I want to see the sun too. Can you give me my sun?" I could breathe now, and their presence didn't seem so frightening, because I had seen worse things than them before. The things that were scarier than them were my stepfamily. If they knew that, maybe they would have taken pity on me and left me alone, but instead I smiled. They began to growl as their dark bodies moved away from my body.

"If my body was yours, how would I see the sun? Yes, life has no meaning, but there is no cure for death either." The dark bodies were withdrawing as I started to move towards Madison's voice. "I don't like living," I said shrugging. "But I don't want to die either." When I stood by Madison's body lying on the ground, I lowered my head and smiled sadly. "It's like the monsters have come back to finish their unfinished business. I can't let them get away, I'll kill them all, then I'll watch their corpses with my hands bloody."

When the light began to emanate from every part of my standing body, all the darkness in the dark area we were in dissipated, and the dark bodies disappeared screaming. When Madison's crying stopped, she removed her hands from her face and turned to face me, and sniffed with her hateful eyes. "Just because you saved me doesn't change the fact that I hate you," she said as she stood up. Still light was emanating from my body as I stared absently into her face, and I was trying to figure out the reason for her senseless hatred. "After all, you're a monster just like them."

I followed behind her as she cleaned the dust off her clothes and started walking towards the elevator. "I saved myself, not you." When I said that, she stopped for a second, but then continued walking quickly.

When she pressed the button to call the elevator, we waited for a few seconds, when the elevator came, she got on the elevator first and then me. When we got out of the elevator, she was rushing down the corridor when I heard Pars calling me and I was startled. There he was, leaning against the wall in all his majesty, studying my body with his impatient face.

I wanted to look at Madison for the last time, but when I turned my head, I couldn't see her anywhere. She disappeared quickly, even though she knew Pars was here. Knowing that I would be scolded, when I went to Pars, he separated his back from the wall he was leaning on and locked his eyes with my eyes. "What happened down there?" he said in his beautiful voice. I still couldn't get used to his voice and every time I heard it, needles pricked my heart.

"I do not know," I said in a whisper. "I think I've made a new enemy." He raised one eyebrow in surprise and smiled crookedly.

"Who? Madison?" His crooked smile suddenly faded as I continued to stare into his eyes, frowning.

"I'm talking about a real enemy," I said, remembering the dark bodies below. "Real enemies who want me dead and my body." His eyes were staring at me as his mocking expression faded, but it was as if I wasn't standing in front of him. It was like he was staring into space. "What were they? Why were they there?"

I rushed after him as he turned and started walking down the corridors of the main headquarters. "Why do not you answer?" He continued walking.

"Shadow Persons. People who can't stand the power of darkness and get involved in the darkness. Sometimes they are good and sometimes bad, they can drive the person they are talking to, to suicide, but if one's will and heart are strong, Shadow Persons can become light and merge into freedom. Is there any other question?" Even though I felt strange when I walked beside his body and realized that his presence was heavy like the Shadow Persons, I did not leave his side. Even though he was a normal person, he could be scarier than them.

"I know what you're thinking," he said with a grin. "Why do people mix with darkness? What is the real reason? Let me tell you the real reason why they mix with darkness. Because they are weak, their minds are crooked and their hearts are broken. If you are strong enough, you will not be afraid of the dark. Those who are afraid of being without light in the darkness always lose in this life. Shadow Persons on that dark floor were our former prisoners. We used to use that floor only to lock prisoners and criminals, but when their souls combined with the power of darkness, a new species emerged. Shadow Persons are powered by darkness. They want to drive people to suicide, they haunt them, they take over their bodies, and want to see the sun. But they always forget a fact: The sun they missed does not come to the sky anymore."

The things he said hurt my heart so much that I kept walking beside him even though I was out of breath. We had left the main headquarters before we realized how far we had walked, and Pars was walking towards our house. I was walking behind him.

"Why did you kill that man?" His steps stopped. A light wind blew and the moon shone in the sky.

"Do people who live by lies have a right to live?" I looked at the moon, I didn't know the answer. I should have acted as I knew.

"Every person has the right to live."

He lifted his head to the sky and looked at the moon. In a split second, as I saw his shoulders falling for a second, he straightened up and sighed. "You lie to yourself, all the time. How does it feel to live in a delusion, Reverie? Tell me, do I look naive enough to deceive me as you deceived yourself? Get your shit together, Gun. You have no right to fall apart, you have no right to feel guilty about the lies told by a criminal. No." This time he was facing me, I could see the muscles in his neck tense. "And most importantly, you have no right to question my decisions. Forget everything, but never forget this fact."

I felt shame in my heart for reminding me of my place again, I got goosebumps. There was mockery in his eyes, there was power. He didn't want me to interfere with him, he didn't want me to question his decisions, and he didn't want me to be me. I had to be the woman of his dreams and ideas. I should have obeyed him and always bowed my head, not answered him. Even though I knew it wasn't true, I had to shut up and keep up. My heart was heavy in my chest because of this. "I will not forget," I said, his green eyes shining in the moonlight. "You won't let me forget anyway." The moon in the sky was shining only for him when he smiled faintly and turned around and continued walking.

But one day, it would shine for me too.

When I turned around a few steps away from our house and looked at the main headquarters, which was far away, I couldn't stop talking. "I think I killed them." Pars stopped in front of the outer door of our house and turned his head towards me before the door opened. There were expressions and feelings on his face that I couldn't decipher. No matter what I did, I couldn't devise anything I saw in him, and I couldn't understand what he was thinking.

"You didn't kill them," he said with a slight smile. "You can't kill them, you can only help them gain freedom. For that, your will and heart must be so strong that you don't have both. Shadow Persons can only be freed as light by people with strong will and heart." I tilted my head curiously as I took a few big steps and walked over to him.

"And can you set them free?" He was surprised, I saw the dark glint running through his green eyes.

The outer door of our house was open, and he looked inside, then at me, and then his lips parted. "Where has it been seen that every strong person sheds hope, light, and freedom around them? I can't understand you, why are you always asking questions you already know the answer to?" I shrugged my shoulders and smiled weakly.

"Where was it seen one day when a girl with no one didn't want to escape the chaos inside her?" He was surprised again, but this time his eyes weren't illuminated by that dark glow. I didn't realize what path I was getting as the corner of his lip curled up, but I was going to go through a lot with him even if I didn't want to.