WHO AM I

I....I cant remember anything where am I or to be more basic who am I? Why I am walking on this snow and why am I feeling like I am about to be freezed to death. Wait there is a water pit nearby, I need to drink I dont matter if it is water mud or even blood I quickly went to drink it because of the thirst I feel when I arrived at it and I saw a face when I looked to the shallow water it was neither a face of human nor a face of demon but in that moment I didnt even think about what was that thing I drinked the water I drinked it till nothin left in the pit but my thirst wasnt over I felt like, the thirst it was just controlling me and I just couldnt done anything about it while I was on my knees looking at the ground I heard something it was a sound of deer I didnt want to do anything but the thirst just took over me I started running to the deer it try to escape however my speed was unmatchable with its my legs were just moving on their own finally when I was near next to it I lost the control over my hands too my hand raised itself and it hit the deers neck the dividing of the neck of the deer was just like cutting a paper in half I drinked all of the blood of the poor animal while I was drinking I was also crying how could I be so cruel I asked to myself but yet I still couldnt stop drinking the blood of the poor animal I was feasting upon. My thirst was just not satisfied even with the blood of a whole deer I started to feel like I became a demon but that feeling didnt haunt me but it lightened me instead how did I know how becoming a demon feels was it just a regular phreasel worb or was I really going to become one. My head as my body still wants more blood started to feel like it is heavier than my head I fell on my knees once more but this time my head was following my legs and as my head hit the snowy ground I blacked out