#Chapter19
What are you doing Soaf?
You are letting him toy you.
He's using you- Again.
Suddenly I came to my senses, I jerked my hand away and stood up ghastly. What was I even thinking? This is wrong. This is wrong on so many levels. I can't let him play again. I can be another toy for him. I can't be his cover-up. I'm not so weak.
I'm strong. Strong enough to handle me. Plus, I'm only acting like some bloody hormonal teenager. Okay. Fine. I'm a teenager but I'm seventeen. I think by now I should have quiet control over my feelings or at least I can manage not to show them. Right?
Raymond was watching me with a scowl on his face. Frustration was all over his face. But in his embrace, I almost forgot the presence of Mike. I jolted my head up and saw Mike giving me a confused look at my sudden reaction.