Second String

"You shouldn't have" mama said while smiling. It's really weird, both Amari and mama are smiling like crazy since the twins came.

Yup, they are twins. Ethan being the older brother and Evan being the younger one. They are identical so it's difficult to know who is who but if you take a look closer to their face there is a slight difference, Evan has a mole on the right side of his eye but not really that noticeable since it's small while Ethan has it on the bottom left part of his lip.

"Oh no auntie, it's fine. It's our duty since we are their older brothers" Ethan said while smiling while Evan just rolled his eyes because of what his older brother said. I've just noticed that they have the opposite personalities, Ethan is friendly and kind while Evan is kinda grumpy and somewhat scary, sometimes I caught him glaring at me. Did I do something wrong?

"That's sweet of you" mama said as she chuckled. The twins actually came here to get us. Our things are already in the living room so what's left is to leave the house.

"I think you should be going now. I mean it's a two hour ride, you guys should be there before the sun goes down" mama said as she stood up from the couch and picking Amari's stuff. The twins have actuall been here since this morning and we had lunch together it was awkward- well, just for me I think. Mama, Amari, Ethan and sometimes Evan talked while eating and me? I just remained silent the whole time they're here. I don't know why my face keeps on heating up when seeing both of them, I mean they're handsome and all but I can't change the fact that they are soulmates and I can't have them. I can't even have one-

"Ashton? Are you okay honey?" I haven't notice mama was waving her hands in front of my eyes. Did I just space out again?

"Oh sorry, I'm fine mama" I said as I smiled at her and got up from the couch and picked up my things.

"So, let's go?" I looked at Ethan who was smiling at me. I just nodded my head and look down on the floor. That smile of his makes me blush- I mean what the! I know I'm gay but I can't have feelings to someone I just met and also he has a soulmate. You can't Ashton!

"Ashton!" I looked at Amari who is grinning like crazy.

"You're creeping me out Amari" I said with a slightly confused look. She just giggled as she held my hand and swing it back and forth.

"You are blushing Ashton" she said while we are walking out of our house. Mama is already by the car with the twins, talking.

"W-why should I blush?" I said as I laughed nervously. She just shrugged as we continued walking until we reach the car.

"I'll miss you my babies" mama faced us and hugged the both of us. I hugged back and so has Amari.

"We'll miss you too mama" I said as I kissed her cheeks, Amari doing the same on the other side of mama's cheeks. She broke the hugged and kissed both of our foreheads.

"Take care" mama said while we got on the back of the car.

"You too mama!" Amari said as she waved at mama. Mama waved back.

The ride started and all was silent. It was awkward and I don't want to start a conversation since I don't have anything to talk about. I'm not really good with strangers and I hate myself because I can't approach people and that's why I don't really have close friends.

"So, how old are you two?" I looked at Ethan who was the one who is driving. He wasn't looking at us but I know he was asking me and Amari.

"I'm 12 and Ashton is 17 how about you two?" Thankfully I'm with Amari. She knows I'm an introvert and shy around other people. When I'm with her I don't really talk when not really needed.

"We're 19" Evan said as he looked at Amari with a smile, he looks great when he smile but when he looked at me he frowned and he looked back at the front road. Did I do something wrong to him?

I didn't spoke a word on the car because I was really uncomfortable. It seems like Evan doesn't like me- oh no scratch that, he seems to not like the fact that I exist and thinking this makes some kind of an uncomfortable feeling on my chest. Amari seemed to notice my behavior as she stopped talking with the twins and looked at me.

"Is something wrong?" She asked as she held my hands and looked at it as she smiled a bit. Here we go again with that smiling. Let's just ignore that, she must be just happy.

"Nothing's wrong princess" I mumble as she looked at me and gave her a small smile. She giggled and then she continued talking to the twins. I sighed mentally. I wish I could talk to them like Amari.

The two hour ride feels like years, it maybe because of me being uncomfortable of the situation and awkward like how I always am. I manage to say some words but not really many since me talking and trying hard to get along with someone is not really needed.

After the long ride, finally we made it. I was thankfull but at the same time nervous. Being away from mama and being in a house without her makes me somewhat scared but since Amari is here I think I can manage. Speaking of Amari, she fell asleep not long ago. She maybe tired because of the long ride.

We got out of the car as I pick up both of Amari and my things. I can't really make her carry this because it's heavy and Amari has a weak body. She can easily get sick or get hurt.

"Let me help you" Ethan said as he got Amari's things from me and started to walk towards the door. Evan followed him while Amari is on his back while still sleeping.

I just looked at their backs for a while and noticed that Ethan was an inch or so taller than Evan and I'm a lot smaller than them, Evan is five inches taller than me or maybe much more. I started walking when I noticed them looked at me.

I space out a lot today. They really have a big effect on me and I hate myself because of that, the same feeling that I felt in the past. Why? Why do I have to remember? Why can I see the red strings? Why me?

"Hey? Are you okay?" I felt a hands on both side of my face.

"Huh?" I was confused on what Ethan was talking about.

"Why are you crying baby?" He said as he wiped my tears with his thumb. I didn't realize I was crying until he said so. I just pushed him a bit causing him to let go of my face.

"I'm fine" I mumbled as I wiped the remaining tears with my hand then suddenly someone had pushed me making me fall from the ground. I looked up to see an angry Evan.

"You've already took dad away for so so long and you still haven't had enough so you're taking my brother too?" He hissed. I was speechless. I didn't know what to say. I just remained silent but it made me really scared as tears began to fall from my eyes again. Why do I have to be so weak?

"Evan-" I didn't let Ethan finish as I spoke

"I-I'm sorry" I said as I looked down making the tears from the sides of my eyes fall faster

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