Particles of dust danced against the rays of light that filtered in through my open window. I opened my eyes slowly, still feeling disoriented.
What happened to me last night? Yes… I took the pills, then Ethan came, and then…
We had sex. My first time.
Memories started to flow back to me. It was like a dream beyond my wildest imagination. It was like watching a movie through a blurry window, except for the extreme pain and pleasure that was so vivid that I knew it wasn’t a dream.
The sunshine was too bright. I lifted my hand to cover my eyes when I realized every inch of my whole body ached. There were some light bruises over my skin, and they reminded me that I was no longer a virgin.
He claimed me…
I covered my face with my hands.
Tears streamed down my face, yet I wasn’t sure why I was crying. Maybe for the loss of my virginity, maybe for the pain all over my body, or maybe… I was ashamed of the pleasure he brought me.