Chapter 7: To have the talk or not & the aftermath

Oct. 7th (Monday and a month later)

I woke up when something didn't feel right. I saw it was dark outside and Wes wasn't in the bed beside me. I leaned up to see the clock read 5:30 in the morning. I was about to get out of bed when Wes walked into the room from the bathroom. I saw he was fully dressed and had his cut on since he left the bathroom door open and the light in there on.

"I didn't mean to wake you." He said sitting down on the bed on my side of the bed.

"Are you going somewhere?" I asked.

He let out a big breath before nodding his head.

"Some of our guys stopped responding/ checking in. They are on an assignment and my dad is afraid something might have happened to them. Axel, Jonah, and I are going to check on them and make sure everything is okay." He said.

I nodded my head.

"I don't know how long I'm going to be gone baby. I promise I'll call or text you as much as I can." He said running his right hand through my hair.

"I am going to leave my truck here for you. Drive it whenever you have to go anywhere and wear the cut I had made for you. I am also going to leave my credit card and some money for you. If you have problems with anything or don't feel safe, call Jace or Park. I am leaving their numbers on the refrigerator for you." He said and I nodded my head.

"Alright I have to go but go back to sleep." He said before kissing my forehead.

He stood up after that and grabbed the rest of his stuff from the nightstand then he gave me one last look over before walking out of the room and closing the door behind him.

I laid down and tried to go back to sleep.

Wes stayed true to his word and called or texted me whenever he could. Sometimes it would be about 5 times a day other times I was lucky if it was once a day and then a few times he didn't call or text. Jace, Holly, and Tiffany plus his aunt and uncle kept an eye on me and would show up at the house to hang out with me.

Nov. 1st (Friday)

When I woke up, I know at once that Wes is back. I look over to his side of the bed and saw him asleep on his back. I turn on my side to face him and looked at the tattoos on his chest that I have never really paid attention to before.

"Like what you see?" He asked in a sleepy voice after a few minutes.

I looked up to see he was awake and smiling at me.

"I'm glad you are home." I said.

"Me too baby; I've missed you." He said pulling me closer to him.

"What time did you get in?" I asked.

"Early this morning; I didn't want to wake you." He said.

"I really want to kiss you; tell me to kiss you." He said moving his face closer to mine.

"You can kiss me anytime you want to." I said.

"Good to know but I still love it when you tell me to kiss you though." He said smiling.

"Kiss me please." I said.

He crushed his lips to mine. The kiss wasn't slow or sweet and I could tell how much he missed me. It didn't take long before he rolled me onto my back and got on top of me as his tongue slipped into my mouth. He pressed his body a little bit more onto me after a little while and I felt something big plus hard poking me in the stomach.

"Wes." I said in a breathy voice as I broke the kiss.

"Too soon?" He asked in a breathy voice too but I could see in his eyes he was disappointed.

I nodded my head.

"Alright; I'm going to go take a shower." He said getting off of me then off of the bed.

He grabbed some of his clothes from the closet then walked to the bathroom.

It didn't take long until I heard the water going. I got out of bed then walked towards the closet to change my clothes. I had just put on a pair of pants when I thought I heard a moan from the bathroom. I heard it again then I heard a really loud moan then what sounded like Wes hitting the back of the shower. I heard the shower turn off not long after that. I quickly got finished getting dressed then walked towards the kitchen.

Wes' POV

I couldn't blame Snow for not being ready to take the next step after all I've barely been around lately. I couldn't stop myself from making myself come undone when I took a shower. I knew Snow was probably in the kitchen and wouldn't hear me. When I got out of the bathroom, I walked towards the kitchen and saw her sitting at the table with a cup of coffee in front of her.

"You want me to order us breakfast?" I asked after I sat down across from her with my own cup of coffee.

"No." She said looking at her cup and running her index finger on her left hand around the top of the cup.

I just nodded my head as I drunk some of my coffee.

"Snow…" I started to say then she stood up and walked to the sink.

"I have plans with your aunt today. I'll be back later." She said before walking out of the kitchen without even looking at me.

I heard the front door open and close then I shook my head.

I quickly sent Axel a text asking if he wanted to meet up for breakfast. He quickly texted back sure; trouble in paradise? I shook my head before telling him to meet me at Lucinda's Diner in 20 minutes.

Addison's POV

I was sitting in the living room at Wes' aunt and uncle's house facing the window when I saw Wes get on his motorcycle then leave.

"Everything okay honey?" Shannon asked sitting down in the chair that faced the couch.

"I don't think Wes is happy with me." I said.

"Why do you think that?" She asked.

"Yeah because that is crazy. I haven't seen that boy smile or look this happy in a long time." Jason said walking into the living room.

"Honey, let Addison and me talk alone okay?" She asked looking at him.

"Sure; I'll be in the garage." He said then he walked away.

"What's going on Addison?" She asked giving me a look.

"I think I am too inexperience for him. We are taking things so slow and I know he hates that." I said.

She got up and walked to the couch then sat down on my left side before turning to face me. She grabbed both of my hands that were in my lap.

"We are talking about sex." She said and I slowly nodded my head.

"Does he know you are a virgin?" She asked.

"Yes and he said we could move at my pace but I can tell he hates that so far all we have done is kissed/ French kissed a couple of times." I said turning to face her.

"He isn't going to force you to do something you aren't ready for." She said.

"I just hate feeling like I can't give him what he wants." I said almost crying.

"Hey, I am sure he understands you need time especially with your past Addison." She said squeezing my hands.

"I want to take things further but sex…" I started to say shaking my head.

"And that is fine; foreplay is a good thing too." She said.

I gave her a look.

"Oh honey, you really are innocent aren't you? You have never done anything more than kissing someone have you?" She asked.

I shook my head.

"Alright then let me educate you in foreplay." She said.

I stayed at their house for almost 3 hours listening to her. When I finally headed back to our house, Wes wasn't there. He did leave a note on the little desk in the hallway near the door that he was going to be with Axel and Jace plus that he didn't know when he would be back but to text or call him if I needed him.

I grabbed a bottle of water from the refrigerator then a granola bar before heading to the living room. I turned on the TV before taking my phone out of my pocket after I sat down on the couch. I decided to send Wes a text message instead of calling him.

Are you going to be home late? I think we should talk. – Me

Talk about what? – Wes

Us. – Me

That's very vague and usually when someone says we need to talk, it's not a good thing. – Wes

I am not giving you a divorce if that is what you want. – Wes

Please just tell me when you are going to be home so we can talk about this in person. – Me

I don't know and I mean it Snow, I am not giving you a divorce or letting you go. So if you are trying to tell me you are unhappy in this relationship then I will do everything in my power to make you change your mind and make you happy. – Wes

We'll talk when you get home. – Me

I shook my head before putting the phone on the coffee table. I was watching probably like the 6th straight episode of Flash when I heard the front door open and close.

"I got burgers and fries for us to eat." Wes said as I heard him dropping his keys into the bowl on the small desk by the front door.

"Baby." He said when I didn't say anything and I heard him taking off his shoes.

"In the living room." I said.

I heard him walk in the living room and I just kept looking at the TV. He sat down on my left side then pulled the coffee table closer after he put the bag of food and drinks on it.

"So what did you want to talk about?" He asked.

"Let's eat first." I said before grabbing a burger form the bag.

"That bad? So you are unhappy." He said in a mad voice as I took a bite of my burger.

"Talk to me Snow; what's wrong?" He asked taking the burger from my hands then placing it back in the bag as he turned to face me.

"Are you unhappy in this marriage?" I asked not looking up at him.

"What? No, why would you even ask that baby?" He asked tilting my chin up so I would look at him then he kept his left hand under my chin.

"Is this about this morning? Baby, I told you we would move at your pace and if you ever wanted me to stop then I would so when you ended the kiss this morning I followed your wishes and stopped." He said when I didn't say anything.

"I know you did but still doesn't change the disappointment/ mad look in your eyes when I put a stop to it." I said.

"I was not…" He started to say before I interrupted him.

"Yes you were Wes and I heard you in the bathroom." I said then his eyes got big.

"I told you that we would have sex when you were ready and I stand by that. Is it hard for me to keep my word when my penis is always so hard around you? Yes it is but you aren't ready so I will take care of that problem myself until you are ready to give me all of you and for us to have sex." He said.

"I talked to your aunt…" I started to say.

"Seriously Snow, you went to my aunt and talked about the fact we haven't had sex? Baby, that is a personal private thing between the two of us no one else has to know." He said in a mad voice.

"This is all new to me Wes; I needed someone to talk to because I feel like I am failing/ disappointing you because of the way I am and the fact I am so inexperienced with all of this." I said.

"You are not failing or disappointing me baby and you do have someone to talk to; you have me and if you are ever feeling like that or unhappy then tell me and we'll talk about it but please leave my family out of our private life." He said wiping away a tear that was on my cheek.

"I needed another woman's advice Wes." I said.

"Why baby because you haven't done anything wrong in this relationship?" He asked.

"So you would have been okay with me asking you how else I could please you without us having sex?" I asked then his eyes got big.

"You two talked about foreplay or stuff we could do besides kissing that didn't involve sex?" He asked slipping into his low deep voice.

I nodded my head.

"Yes, you could have talked to me about that. Nothing is off limits for us baby." He said.

"Let's eat then we'll continue this conversation." He said before grabbing the bag then handing my hamburger back to me.

We ate in silence and when it became apparent he wasn't going to say anything, I got up then walked to our bedroom and grabbed some clothes before going to the bathroom to take a shower.

When I come to the living room, Wes was on his phone talking to someone. I shook my head and turned around to walk back to the bedroom without walking all the way into the living room.

Wes' POV

I was on the phone talking to Cameron when I thought I heard Snow come out of the bedroom after taking a shower and walk towards the living room. When I didn't see her come into the living room, I turned just in time to see her walk back into our bedroom and shut the door behind her. I said cuss words in my head as I continued to listen to Cameron go on and on about how stupid the assignment Boston and him was on. Around an hour later, I finally got him off of the phone then I got up and turned off the TV before going to the bedroom. As soon as I opened the door, I saw Snow was in the bed under the covers. I could tell she was asleep and I shook my head before walking around to my side of the bed. I quickly took off my clothes and just left my boxers on before getting in the bed. I moved closer to her then put my arm around her waist. I fell asleep no problem and when I woke up it was still dark outside. I looked to see it was 4:50 in the morning. I looked at Snow who now had her head on my chest since I was laying on my back. It was then that I felt my hand was resting on her butt. I slowly moved my hand down some and I smiled when I felt the hem of her nightgown and realized it had ridden up during the night. After a little bit, I slowly got up and put her head on her pillow before grabbing a pair of shorts then going to the kitchen. I was finished cooking breakfast and making coffee by 6:00. It took me a little bit to cook everything because I wanted everything to be perfect. I put everything on a tray before going back to the bedroom. I got back in bed then put the tray across my lap.

"Baby." I said tucking a strand of her hair behind her left ear.

She stirred a little bit but didn't open her eyes.

"Baby." I said.

Addison's POV

"Too early." I said before trying to roll onto my other side away from Wes but he stopped me.

"I made you breakfast." He said before kissing the left side of my neck.

"And we still need to have that talk we didn't have last night." He said.

I quickly opened my eyes then sat up in bed.

"I'll take the food but let's forget about that conversation." I said grabbing a plate of food then quickly eating a piece of bacon.

"I can't forget it Snow. I am right there with you Snow and if you want to do more than kissing then I am up for it." He said taking the plate of food away from me and turning to face me.

"So tell me honestly Snow do you still want to take our relationship past just kissing?" He asked.

"Can I please just have my food back?" I asked.

He shook his head before handing the plate back then he turned to face the tray and grabbed his plate.

When we got done eating, he grabbed the plate and coffee cup from me. He put it back on the tray then he got up and left the room.  I got up and picked out a dark pink dress that Holly had gotten me that stopped a little past my knees. When I made it to the kitchen, I saw Wes standing in front the window that looks into the backyard and he was smoking a cigarette.

"You want to tell me what happened between last night and today that made you change your mind?" He asked in a mad voice and without turning around to face me.

I was about to say something when the doorbell rung and he shook his head. I turned and walked towards the front door. I opened it to see Oliver and he had doughnuts.

"Hey." I said and he smiled at me before kissing my right cheek then walking past me and into the house.

"Wes." Oliver said when he walked into the kitchen.

When I got to the kitchen, I saw Wes putting out his cigarette and waving at Oliver.

"I'll let you two catch up." Wes said before walking past me and out of the kitchen.

Oliver gave me a look as I sat down at the table across from him. I took a doughnut and he nodded his head.

Oliver was about to say something when I heard the bedroom door open and close.

"I have something I need to do; I'll be back later." Wes said as I heard him walk past the kitchen.

"You two okay?" Oliver asked giving me a look after we heard Wes' motorcycle leave the driveway.

"Yeah." I said nodding my head and eating a doughnut.

He gave me a look but I quickly changed the subject to how work has been for him. He stayed for an hour before leaving to go get ready for his shift.

Wes' POV

I was sitting at the bar watching Bailey set up when Jonah sat down beside me.

"You are here early; everything okay?" Jonah asked.

"Yeah." I said before drinking some of the Dr. Pepper Bailey gave me.

"He's been here for an hour already and you two still got an hour until your shift starts." Bailey said looking at Jonah then going back to doing her inventory.

Jonah gave me a look.

"I don't want to talk about it." I said before drinking more of my drink and he nodded his head.

"Addison?" He asked.

I gave him a look.

"You can't avoid her forever or like you use to with the other girls you dated or had one night stands with. You married her Wes and sooner or later you are going to have to go back to the house you two share and talk to her." He said and Bailey nodded her head.

"And I will talk to her as soon as she is ready to talk to me." I said and he gave me another look.

"That is all I am giving you." I said and he nodded his head.

"I'm going to go change my clothes then I'll be back." I said then I stood up and walked away.

The shift went by fast and before I knew it, I was parking my motorcycle back in the garage at 2:30 in the morning. I dropped my keys in the bowl on the little desk before heading towards the bedroom. When I got to the bedroom, I didn't have to turn on the light to see Snow wasn't in the bed. I knew my truck was still in the driveway so I checked every room and didn't see her anywhere. I took out my phone and called her but it went straight to voicemail. I sent her a text but it stayed on delivered and never got read. When I went to get a beer from the refrigerator, I saw a piece of paper on the refrigerator. I turned on the light then grabbed the piece of paper and sat down at the small table. I read the note to see it was from Snow and she said she was going to spend some time at Oliver's house. I balled the paper up and threw it at the garbage can.