Changed or Not!?

Hailey

I was looking at him shocked when he said it. He is joking, right? Maybe playing..? He can’t hurt me!

“What are you saying, Robert…” I whispered. I didn’t know how to react to something like this because I had thought I would never face it again. But here he was, again saying the same thing.

“You know what I am saying, don’t you? I don’t think you have any sort of hearing problems. If you do, then tell me, I would consult a doctor” he said so with a smile.

I was completely taken aback. I didn’t know a single thing.

Don’t tell me my entire work, everything I ever did, sacrificed, worked for, and compromised… went to waste. This is a nightmare.

I have to wake up, this can’t be the reality.

I closed my eyes. “Closing your eyes won’t change a thing”

I got up from the couch we were sitting at. He smirked at me. “I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with you”

“Oh you will, Hailey, because it is simple”

“You really should rest, I think you are tired” I started going back when I heard him get up. “You should stop where you are”

I really did stop. He came to me and turned me around. He kept his hand around my neck and it made me somewhat uncomfortable. He pulled my face closer and kissed on my lips but I couldn’t gather the courage to kiss him back. He didn’t say anything, just got away and smirked. His hand was on my neck all the time.

“What happened, Robert?” I asked him. He scoffed.

“Go back to your room”

He got away and I nodded and went back. I needed just one chance anyway.

I went upstairs and I was freaking out. Why did he behave like that? Did I do something wrong? Did he change again?

All the thoughts were killing me. I closed the door and found my heartbeat and breathing accelerated. I knew I was scared.

I went to the bed and sat down. I tried to calm myself and sighed after some time. I wanted to go out, and then down and ask him why he was behaving this way, but I couldn’t get the courage. I was so scared that maybe it will all happen again.

The tortures.

The beatings.

The fear.

I took a deep breath and went to the bathroom. I washed my face again and again and then sighed looking at it in the mirror. I look like I have seen death. my face is completely pale.

I opened the bathroom door and stepped down but immediately gasped and went back when I saw him sitting on the bed and using his phone. It is like horror for me.

He looked at me and smirked. “Come here”

I took a deep breath, my heartbeat increased. My breath was shattered within. I didn’t know what I should do. Maybe run? But no. I have tried it so many times back then and that isn’t a way to escape him. I have realised he can only be treated by love, so I should do so.

I went to him slowly slowly and sat beside him. He kept his phone to another side and then looked at me.

“Are you afraid?”

I looked in his eyes to figure out his expectations in the answer to the question. If I say no and he is still the changed Robert, he may get angry and say something like, ‘why are you not afraid!’, and if he hasn’t changed, he might get sort of angry, and ask me how I can be afraid of my own husband.

I really couldn’t figure out what he expected. “Hm?” he asked again.

“I… uh… yeah maybe a little”

Well in reality I was dead scared.

I looked at him and he sighed. “Don’t be”

“But you just--”

“Don’t be,” he interrupted. “Everything’s okay”

I took a deep breath. What does this all mean, huh? Everything’s okay? Like scaring the shit out of me and... uh!

I sighed. It is good if everything is okay. I should be glad.

“Yeah okay” I smiled. He nodded. He took my hand.

“How are you?” he asked me.

“I am good. What about you?”

“Good too”

“Hm. So, what are we gonna do now?”

He got up. “Come”

I followed him as he went down and then to the garage of our house.

“Oh we are going out? like... OUT!” I was so shocked because he had literally just kept me here without any reason. I mean, there is a reason, I wasn’t well but he had completely stopped me from going out. And now he was taking me out!

“Yes baby, now get in the car”

I blushed and nodded. This is all crazy. I was so afraid and now I am fine, happy and blushing. I don’t know, if I am going crazy, you know, I shouldn’t believe everything he says, at least now when he just changed and changed back. But I think I will go with the flow and do what I think will keep me happy. And that is undoubtedly being with him.

I went and sat inside the car. I sat on the passenger’s seat and he sat on the driver’s seat.

“Where are we going?” I asked him. He looked at me and smiled.

“Well, guess”

“Hm, I can’t guess”

“Did you forget your birthday too?”