Dignity and royalty.

Today, it is the finally promised day, the day that my self and my truth, my world, my love and my soul, will fade and shatter, the day that will be a sign of my loss of my life. The end and the beginning of misery, or true life, as I was told, is a life that belongs only to me. For better or worse, my life guides me to my true self, a life where I lose everything I once thought was only mine. Life takes everything away from me. And i will know, nothing was mine, not even my self. I never realized, it was so difficult for women to find themselves, we have to die for once in our lives, for our lives to truly begin.

I did not realize at the time that this celebration would become a precious memory for me, a memory that brought together everything that I wished I could cherish a little more.

I didn't know that I would miss all of these things like a child misses revenge.

I suddenly remembered the book of dragons. I walked with my hands in the air. The book appeared and opened in front of me. While I was leaning my back on the chair, I started flipping through the pages from where I left them.

"The Shadow Dragon is a mysterious creature of the darkness. With its sleek, black scales and penetrating eyes, it moves silently and swiftly, leaving nothing but a trail of shadows in its wake. Its presence is often overlooked by those around it, as the shadows cast by the Shadow Dragon seem to envelope them, masking its true form and hiding it from sight. This creature is a force to be reckoned with, its power and speed unmatched by any other, and it is said that to gaze into its eyes is to gaze into the abyss itself. It is said to possess a magical aura that allows it to control the elements and bend them to its will. With its deep dark hair and two moles, one red and one blue under its eyes, this creature is a sight to behold. Its powerful presence causes people to be in awe of its majesty and strength. It is said to be a symbol of wisdom, intelligence, loyalty, and courage. As a mythical beast, it is said to be a protector and guardian of the land and its people."

I whispered faintly, "Tian Yang…"

I turned the page:

"The Snowy Hearted Dragon is a powerful and mighty creature. It is believed to have the power to freeze the entire world with its icy breath, and its strength and size are unrivaled. Despite its great power, the Snowy Hearted Dragon is a gentle soul and a kind creature that is seen as a protector and guide to those in need. Its power is so immense that it is said to transcend worlds and time itself, capable of wielding the very elements of nature to its will."

I laughed lightly, "A nice guy even in books.. isn't he.. Qian Yu..."

"The Dust Dragon is a mythical being of the mountains and highlands. With its gray scales and ability to manipulate storms and weather, it is said to bring rain and clouds wherever it goes. Some believe its presence is a sign of hope, while others see it as ominous and a bringer of misfortune. The point of power for the Grey Dragon is its ability to bring rain and refreshment to parched lands. the Dust Dragon, helps to turn the bodies of the dead to dust, aiding in returning them to the earth and sky."

I looked at Phoenix, who was supposedly the crazy saint who was also my sister,

"The Scarlet Phoenix is a bird of legend and lore. Known for its vibrant, red feathers and powerful wings, this magnificent creature is a symbol of beauty, strength, and protection. As a Saint, this creature embodies the essence of kindness and purity. With its white hair flowing in the wind, it represents wisdom and knowledge, and with its blazing fire in its heart, it stands for love and passion. In the story, the Scarlet Phoenix is often described as a guardian angel that protects and guides those who are in need, and is a source of strength and light for those who seek it."

I thought to myself, "Can you give me some light, too? Because my path seems so painful."

The maid knocked on the door, the book evaporated into the air, the servants entered and bowed, "It is time for you to prepare to depart, Your Majesty."

I pulled my legs close to my body, turned around, and hid my face. I whispered, "I want to evaporate, too."

Behind the dressing curtain while the servants were helping me get dressed, the maid spoke, "Your Majesty, I don't think it is appropriate for you to wear this."

I put a black veil on my head, "Who cares? I have to kill my dignity to live."

"Your Majesty, queens only have their dignity. If they lose that, they lose their rule." She said with a look of superior judgment.

I grabbed her by the jaw, "Look, only I can decide this, not you, got it?" I pushed her out of my way and then turned to her, "Leave the dignity that makes you queen, then."

I walked out confidently, a large light garment over my clothes covering me, I passed the main corridor of the Inner Royal Palace, and walked, until I stood in front of the other royals, all of them stood in amazement, Lu Yue Xin spoke, "What the hell is this?"

Naturally, I looked at him out of the corner of my eye and did not respond, because he showed a very sincere expression that made me very angry. Suddenly I heard an unpleasant voice, "I heard everyone praising you, so I thought you had become a respectable woman."

I held my hand tightly and turned around, "Who let this bastard in?" A man with glasses, dressed entirely in black.

His smile disappeared, "What? How do you---" shujin spoke up to interrupt him, "Lee, know your place."

Some people looked as displeased on their faces as I did. Lee bowed to my brother, "Sorry."

Xiao Yan spoke, "Don't you think you're apologizing to the wrong person?"

He laughed lightly, "Excuse me, miss, who are you?"

"You filthy loser, you insult the queen and now the crown princess? Do you want to die so that your mother can meet you?"

He turned to me and his eyes lit up with anger. I turned to leave. He shouted, "Wait!" When I didn't stand up, he pulled me by my collar, the black cover was completely cut off, and a deathly silence fell that made everyone forget what had just happened. Yao Yao pointed at me with her hands, "Cat ears--" Xiao Yao put her hands over Yao Yao mouth, "Shut up, Yao."

He took a few steps back, and looked away. I don't know if out of shock, respect, or sarcasm...but I felt more wronged than ever before. I thought I was starting to forget this feeling...

I buried it so hard and now with every gust of wind, it gently comes out to destroy my life.

(one hour ago)

After the servants informed me that I needed to get ready, they went out to bring clothes and bring bath water. Then I felt something strange above my head, and when I touched it, my heart fell under my feet. I ran to the Mirror hanging on the wall, "Yes? What? Damn!!! Are you kidding me!!!!"

Yes, another damned secret.... I looked at myself in the mirror, and remembered a terrible memory from the past...

(a few years ago)

When I was young, after my uncle brought me, I was very young, then I got to know everyone, I had to study, so I went to a school for nobles with my brother and the others as well, I thought that education and making friends might be a nice thing... That's when I got one of my first heart breaks...

Playing with my brother, I persuaded him, or in the end, I manipulated other ideas to convince him to remove the pair of gloves that he was wearing to play with me in the yard. Even at that age, he used to hide his precious body. He took off his gloves and told me to promise not to touch him, and I broke my promise. Very horribly. I forgot my promise. I held his hands. A fit, holding each others hands, our bodies trembled and we could not bear to be apart from each other, until finally he took my hand away, we were threw on the ground, blood came out of my mouth, we looked at each other, while some adults turned around to catch us, the others did not know about who we were, but the adults knew who we were... Then my ears appeared. I did not forget his look, his fear for me, his sadness and his pain. Their words were like knives in our hearts, and they described us in every way: monsters.

They turned around, "Look at them. Are they demons?" "Look at those rat ears? So disgusting.", "How can a girl with such horrible ears be noble?" "Look at this boy. What's wrong with his eyes? Why is he covering them? So disgusting!"

I hated the world and myself so much at that time, as if I had been told: It's the hard truth you need to know. To Know That you're not welcomed anywhere and no you don't have a HOME of your own.

What's even the meaning of HOME? Maybe I'm the only one who doesn't really know...?

(In Shu room)

"Damn it, when is today?" I looked around to see that it was the 19th, "Damn, this hasn't happened for a while, I didn't know it was the 19th... Is that bastard doing this on purpose? Or doesn't he know? I doubt he's watching me... Surely he would have noticed... I thought it wouldn't happen because... My body has changed.. Is it because of the cursed soul's thing?..."

(Back to the present)

A servant came and bowed to me and then to the rest, "Your Majesty, an important matter has happened." When he raised his head and saw me, he knelt at his feet and put his head on the ground, "Excuse me, Your Majesty." I closed my eyes in anger at the situation...

Honestly, I was always jealous. It was unbearable, so I covered my eyes, covered my ears, muffled my mouth, and forgot my mind. I was locking myself inside myself. I was throwing everything away, forgetting everything. Both the unhappy and happy moments. In the midst of this devastation, I left Some memories to console me. It saddens me that within the framework of those memories, there was no one but me, alone in front of the sea, alone in front of the world.. I was very jealous and envious, but all my feelings faded away. I learned to live. I learned to forget.

Xiao Yao and Yao Yao have always walked freely with their beautiful, colorful wings, because they are young... because they are different from all of us. As for the us, we should not appear in this form in front of others, and it should not be known which animal we have because some do not have an form like that, no. I know even better than everyone else that all of Xin's people have this damn thing, and the fact that I am a weak animal like a cat and have the ability to control crows, makes me as ridiculous as those women in children's stories... just a cat I am...

Suddenly I couldn't see anything anymore. Tian Yang whispered in my ear, "It's okay." While he covered my head.

I wanted to cry after hearing his voice... if it weren't for the seriousness of the situation... As for Lee, he is the family doctor, his mother is from the Snow Clan and his father is from here, so he grew up with us, but I hate him so much and I cannot describe this easily.

Yin An Xin came closer and put his hand on top of my head. Suddenly I felt light. I lifted the cover from me and looked at him. He was a silly child and I don't know when he grew up to this point. He is the person I don't know anything about at all, except the fact that he is the brother of that annoying man over there. I looked at him and smiled, "Thanks." He looked shocked for some reason, but quickly smiled and said in a gentle voice, "It's okay."

I turned to look at the servant, "So, what happened?"

He seemed hesitant, he definitely didn't want to ruin this terrible moment, "The Queen of the West Kingdom, requests that you come and greet her."

Xiao Yan looked disgusted, "How dare she! Also, who gave you the idea to even come and say that to us!"

He said in a frightened voice, "Crown Princess, she has caused a lot of trouble, so I really had no choice..."

She looked at Lu Yue Xin, "Shouldn't you solve this first? You said you would be in charge."

"She's your old friend, what's can i do? Also, dress yourself up first before you talk to me."

"Damn, you are all so disrespectful. Who do you think I am?"

I moved my hands over my body and changed my clothes into a luxurious and wonderful red dress, as well as my crown and red lipstick, everything covered in gold and red, "It seems that today is not the right day for me to lose my dignity."

I moved and crossed between them, "Let's go? Aren't you coming? Let's clean up the mess that this big brother over there got us into, because we are royalty."

They all looked at each other, smiled, and then we all walked, towards something beyond what we knew. As far as our hands can reach.