Chapter 21

I went back to my room after the reveal yesterday. I did not talk to Sebastian. Out of the corner of my eyes, I knew he wished to talk to me. But I did not even give him a chance.

I knew he had a lot of things to handle. Weren't I a good and considerate fiancee?

He was setting his trap, but he did not even tell me. He had never trusted me one bit.

Weren't relationships about communication and trust? We failed in that criteria over and over again.

Communication between us was basically non-existent. Now that I thought of it. both of us had faults. He did not talk and just assumed I understood him. I got discouraged by the silence and hid in my own shell.

If only either of us has reached out at that time. But there were no ifs. Life went on. Things that were missed were missed.

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"Your family was not killed. They are still alive," Sebastian explained in his usual emotionless face.

"I know." I buried myself deeper into the armchair I was sitting and looked out of the drapes free window.

If the things that happened yesterday were all a trap, that meant Sebastian had planned that from the start. From the time he said it's hunting season. I really doubted he would sacrifice his father. He might seem heartless, he did love his father. The king and the late queen might be the only 2 people he cared for in the world. He had been extremely upset during the king's memorial service in my previous life.

I was just plain stupid for not noticing that everything was a trap.

"Your family and my father is currently living in one of my long forgotten family estates in the country. They'll be back in a few days."

"I see. Thank you for the information."

"Is there still something wrong with the seashell charm?"

I was still not looking at him, fixing my gaze at the window and the scenery behind it. I was familiar with it. The mountains far away, the forest, to the fountain in the garden. I spent hours in my previous life stuck in this room, gazing out of the window.

"No, it's as good as new."

"Then..." And a wave of dizziness hits me. "I have ordered Cook to make the dishes you like."

Why the sudden dizziness? Then it hit me.

"Are you reversing time just now?"

I finally turned my head away from the window and stared at Sebastian. For the first time in my two lives, I saw an embarrassed Sebastian (or as embarrassed an emotionless ice prince could get).

There were a few times I felt dizzy when I was around him. Why did he need to reverse time when he is around me?

I would not be able to know what happened during that erased time. An uncomfortable feeling settled in my heart.

Another wave of dizziness hit me.

"Again?" I asked in an annoyed voice. I am sure no one liked to be moved around like a puppet. It felt like your own time was not under your own control. Who knew how many times I had undergone this same situation? Would I be leaded on unconsciously by Sebastian?

I did not understand what took over me. Maybe it's because of the fact that I realized Sebastian never trusted me or the fact that I noticed how little I knew of Sebastian, my two year husband. I was just really angry and... sad. Sad about my pathetic life. Annoyed and angry with myself because I knew there was still a part of me that likes him.

I am tired.

"I am not feeling very well. I'll take my dinner in my room, your majesty."

I did not feel normal, my feelings were in a turmoil. I needed some time away from Sebastian to sort everything out. I needed to sort out all my conflicting feelings. My feelings for him.

"Is it the repercussion from yesterday? Do you need a healer?"

He sounded worried.

Stop fantasizing, Liana.

"The potion soothed the repercussion, your majesty."

Sebastian looked at me like he did not trust me one bit. Finally he said, "Please take some rest. I'll talk to you tomorrow."

No you wouldn't.