Indescribable feeling

Since Ayden is busy with his exhibition, I told him that I would go home with Diana. He was about to take another day off and I know for sure, miss Susan literally cussed him for that. And he's going to have a big event so I don't want to be another burden for him. At this point, I don't even know if I'm still working with him or not. I let out a soft sigh.

He is so cute. But I think that is a little overprotective. I mean, I know...I make him worry. But...I don't want to be a reason for him to abandon his work.

I plopped myself on my bed. I saw Diana looked restless as she stared at her smartphone. Must be Jade.

"Is he coming over or something?" I asked her lazily. I already know it's Jade. Are they still fighting? Is he coming, because if he's going to come over, then I need Diana to be silent or he will be out of temper?

"Um, I think he's going to explode again," she said, lay down next to me. "By the way, I didn't tell him what happened, he's just still in denial that his sister finally has a boyfriend. And on the other day, I didn't tell him, I don't know how he figured it out but he just did. And let's not tell him what just happened, I don't think he will still be silent, and probably kill your boyfriend for no reason."

She said, hugging me tightly. I see, she literally thinking about the same thing. She looked like she would burst into tears again.

"Don't scare me like that!" she scorned, as her tears finally escaped. "Don't do anything that's going to hurt yourself! I really want to ask you to break up with him, but I know you love him too. And I don't what happened but don't push yourself!"

She pinched my forearms, making me winced.

"I didn't know it would be triggered," I said, slowly. "Sorry that you have to see that."

"What happened? Why it's suddenly triggered? I thought you're doing fine with him? " she asked. I just swallowed my saliva, too scared to tell her what's going on. I scratched my head.

"Did he touched you?!" she roars. Her eyes widened as her veined popping out from her smooth forehead.

"No, no, he didn't but I did! I make the first move!" I said, panicking as she started to accuse him.

"What? Maddison Iyves!" she slapped my shoulder hard, wow, that's hurt as hell.

"He said we should take it easy. And it wasn't him who made a move...it was me. I know it would be bad, but...Dee...I want to try. I thought I will be fine. I didn't know it would be worst." I admitted. She gasped and hit me more.

"Ouch, I'm sorry. Dee…" she keeps hitting my shoulder and I think it would leave a mark. She finally stopped and wipe her tears off.

We both staring at each other, trying to find a word to talk to. I sighed as I grabbed her hand and hold it tight.

I smiled faintly, does my mother would act like this too if she's staying?

"Diane, I admitted that he does trigger some of my memories and things that I don't want to remember, especially that man. But...he soothed it away too. And he calms me down, and it's pleasant...I love it when I'm around him, I feel safe."

She looked at me with tears, she wiped it off harshly. I smiled wider since I think she giving me time to talk.

"To be honest, I don't even know if he's my cure to the pain or he will be the poison and cause me more pain in future. But Diane, I want to try. At least, if I try, I know where my limit lays off, right?" She bit her bottom lip and hugged me tightly.

"I'm sorry… hick...I'm sorry!"she cried harder, and harder. And we heard the door clicking as a familiar voice came through our ears. We both looked at the door, it's Jade. Me and Diana hurriedly wiped off our tears but I think he saw that already.

"Hey!" We both greeted him, who looked absolutely exhausted. He walked forward and took off his jacket and tie, kicked his shoes off.

"Hey." He plopped himself above both of us, crashing us down, making both of us shriek.

He was finally able to lie down in the middle, but because of his large size, I was cramped to the wall and Diana fell from the bed. He immediately sat up and grabbed Diana's hand, and helped her up, and she lay down above him. He just lied down, without even asking why both of us crying.

Perhaps he knows, that will make us cry even more.

"It hurts!" she scowled. And he just gave her a faint smile.

"Hey, sorry for the last time. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. I'm just worried. And how are you?" he asked with a straight face. I smiled a little.

"Hey, me too. I'm sorry too. I know I'm being harsh to you, I know you are worried, and I am still stubborn and sorry about that. You're right, I should have reported it to the police about the other case, but I did. And I don't want to make a bigger scene so I asked for money instead. And the cops told me that I should dress modestly and I think it's hurt me a little. That's why I didn't tell you about that. And it's not the first time...and about Ayden. I love him. So please give me a blessing, brother."

Diana sat up on his lap as she listened to our conversation. And he frowned, gritted his teeth too. He let out a heavy sigh and finally nodded.

"Fine...let me see him. Let's have an official meeting with him." He said, sat up too and kissed his fiance in front of me. I scowled and turned myself into the wall.

"I'm sorry baby, I yelled at you," he said. They haven't reconciled yet? Gosh!

"Hmm...then…" I don't want to hear it. But I heard it! That kissing sound. I am disgusted, stop!!!

I sat up too as Diana giggling and poking me, I'm hungry.

"I want Tuna Tataki," I said to both of them who were still kissing. Impudent!

"Hm? Sure, can you order take away, Jade?" Diana said, jumping out from her lovers and went to the mirror, fixing her lipstick. I glanced at him, dazed into space and finally snapped and grabbed his phone and ordered the food. I could see invisible flowers around him.

I jumped out of bed and grabbed my phone from my tote bag.

Baby, I'm going out with my friends. Have fun working, okay!

-MI-

And he replied within seconds.

Did you call me baby? Awee...I'm jealous, princess. I want to have a date with you too! But have fun! I'm currently working hard for our small family.

-AW-

Another notification comes in and he sends me his photo, a selfie of him, holding a huge frame. I can see a vein popped out at his neck, he tied his hair into a cute small ponytail. I couldn't help but smile.

"Is that him?" I glanced at Jade who sat next to me. "What does he do? How old is he?" he asked with a cold voice.

"He's a photographer, twenty nine years old," I told him, and showed him the photo. "Cute, right?"

He stared at the photo and sighed.

"He still gives me the same vibe with that motherf*cker. Would you be alright? He didn't hurt you, right?"

I glanced at him with a small laugh.

Diana just slowly sat in front of us and grabbed my phone to see the photo.

"He's hot for sure, does he really remind you of that jerk, Jade?" she asked, and I know, she was asking me too. Since she saw what happened last night.

"Hmm...It's just the vibe," he replied slowly. He looked at Diana who was already pale as a sheet and gave her a faint smile.

"What's making you fall for him?" he asked again.

What made me fall for him?

"Is it the face? I mean...he's hot!" Diana added.

His face? Absolutely. But that's not it…

Maybe because of his voice? Or is it the scent? Or perhaps, how is he always there when I need someone? Or perhaps, because he always soothes me from the pain. I love how warm he is, especially when he embraces me. Or maybe whenever he spoke, it sounded like he genuinely meant it. It was just that warm feeling, surprising, shocking and my heart went uncontrollable.

It just indescribable.