Anxiety 1

Persona 1

I decided to record on what is going on my mind if I have an anxiety attack. So here it goes.

So right now I already finished crying. A silent cry cause I don't want my family to know that I am crying like an idiot and that I have an anxiety. So here it goes why I have an anxiety attack? So I imagined myself being blamed to someone's death there are two scenarios (one is my brother, and one is just a stranger). And like the whole world becomes lifeless as each of them turned their backs on me . Even my family is not an exception to it. And I was like, did I gave my trust to them too much? Or I was just being naive and ignorant? Indeed it hurts knowing that they abandoned me and how they treated me. I know that I'm just being over reacting and its just my imagination. But damn it really hurts. I dont even know why Im having an imagination like this. Am I not normal? For those who experience anxiety attack, did you also overthink things? I guess whether you did or not it will always left a pain in your heart. I imagined these things as it keeps repeating and yes i really wanted it to stop but it keeps lingering me like a slug but I realized that dont give your trust too much because someday youll be left alone and have a battle on your own and only you can help yourself.