Chapter1

#Chapter1

Jacksons P/V

As the sun rose above the trees shedding light onto The Moonrise Pack in a way I'd never seen before,I couldnt help but take in a breath of the crisp spring air. I watched as the pack began to wake starting their day with a smile that held pure content.

There was something much lighter about the pack now. No feelings of dread or fear , instead happiness and peace resonating through the entire pack. The sounds of laughter sang through the mountains daily now a sound I wasnt sure I'd ever actually heard. That of true happiness.

It warmed my heart to see the change my father had installed. Everyone had a sense of belonging a place amoung the pack a home. The rouges as well as the moonrise pack found it difficult to adjust to pack life at first , but looking at them now its hard to believe it was ever any different.

Even my father was like a new man, he was reborn out of the ashes of his grief. Now full of life and love. He was now the alpha he was always meant to be with his mate by his side.

I was grateful for this day and all days since larsen was imprisones by the royal pack. Having said that though the past seemed to loom over me like a constant thunderous cloud. My very own personal storm that was rooted so far inside me I couldnt even find it.

I knew I would never and could never forgive myself for the years I spent under larsen. Fulfilling his evil desires and torturous schemes. I may have had my will bent but I still did those awful things. Now that I had no one dictating to me or forcing my actions I was afraid.

I was fearful of the darkness he imprinted into me. I was no longer the innocent boy who first came here. I was now a man a man who had no idea who he was. I'd never deluded or allowed my mind to wonder into the dreams my heart held. I locked them up tight out of fear of disappointment.

I'd never dreamed of the day I was free to decide my own fate. So now that it was here I didn't know who I was or what I wanted to be. Of course loosing a part of me didn't help the fact.

I hadn't sensed my wolf or felt him stir in my mind nor body since I woke up. Two months I'd been in a coma the poison the crazy doctor had injected me with was apparently unlike anything any of the pack doctors had seen before.

Apart of me felt that maybe this was justice served to me for the terrible things I had done. The other part of me wondered if the doctors were right. They said there is no reason I shouldn't be able to feel my wolf apparently my lack of connection with him is purley psychological.

I shook my head from the solum thoughts that had taken me away from this beautiful day. A couple of pack members passed by polity greeting me. I only offered them a nod in return. I wasn't trying to be hostile or mean I generally didn't interact with anyone other than my father and Sarah. I was to afraid of what my true colours were i wasn't yet ready to find out.

I jumped out of panic as a hand gently brushed my shoulder. I wasnt used to not being able to smell ,sence or hear the way I used to even after all this time. An apologetic look crossed sarahs features as she gave me a moment to regain my composure. She looked so much different since the first time we'd met.

Her hair no longer matted and dirty, it was cut short and framed her soft pink cheeks perfectly. Her once hopeless filled eyes shone with life. She had gained some much needed weight not nearly enough but she looked alot healthier than before.

/"I'm sorry I didn't mean to sneak up on you/"

Shaking my head gently i held my hand up a little ,

/" no its alright, I was lost in my thoughts/"

A gentle smile graced her lips as she looked out onto the pack.

/" you've been doing that alot , care to share? I'm a good listener/"

I joined her as I stood against the wooden railing looking at nothing in paticular. Sighing I shook my head .

/" I don't know, I just I don't see a ..

I trailed of as the words caught in my throat. I felt guilty for even thinking them.

/" a place for yourself here? /"

My eyes shot to sarahs as she held a look of understanding in her blue orbs. My mouth slightly parted in shock as I gently nodded my head.

/"Its ok jackson, I felt the same way when I came back, I didn't know what normal life was anymore years of being locked up will do that to you /"

I bowed my head in shame I had no right to feel this way after what she had endured. I couldn't even begin to imagine what hell she had suffered through. Yet she made it seem so easy to just fit in.

/" ooo no you don't I might of been locked in an actual cell, but you were just as much imprisoned as I was jackson. Look at me ...

I dont know how she did it , she always knew what to say what I was thinking she was a true lunar. Pure hearted with so much love and kindness to give. Understanding and fair. I hesitantly lifted my gaze to hers as she gently grasped my hand.

/" Me and your father know your confused and afraid about who you are and where to go from here, I have no doubt in my mind that you are going to be a wonderful man. However we understand you have to figure out who you are now. That's a journey only you can take. Please just know we are so proud of you Jackson/"

/" how do you know? ..

She raised a questioning eyebrow at my question forcing me to mumble like a a child.

/"That I will be a good man /"

She gently reached up to my face looking at me lovingly the way a mother would her own pup.

/" because you already are ,you just haven't realised it yet/"

/"What am I supposed to do now sarah?/"

She moved away from me and gestured for me to follow her. She lead me through to my father's office not bothering to knock as she waltz right in. My father was alone just sitting back in his chair as if he was waiting for us. I eyed them both suspiciously as Sarah sat beside my fsther. A pleasant smile graced his face as he looked at me.

/" sit down son /"

As soon as I was comfortable my father began to speak. My gaze never leaving his.

/"You need to leave/"

My face fell the first thought in my mind was that he didn't want me anymore. Sarah quickly slapped his arm causing him to frown as she gave him a stern look . Realisation seemed to hit him as he began to fall over his words.

/" no thats not what I meant, I know your not happy and we can't bare to see you torture yourself anymore. You have suffered enough. We love you Jackson all we want is what's best for you .You need to go and see her/"

My heart clench as I thought about her, of course she had been on mind everyday since I woke up but I couldnt bring myself to ask about her. I didn't deserve to know how she was.

/"I can't..

/" yes you can and your going to, she needs you Jackson/"

I looked at them with absolute disbelief what could she possibly need from me, all she needed was for me to leave her alone. She didn't need my face to remind her of the life she once lived.

/"Why would you say that? After everything you know I put her through/"

/"Son listen to me, beta colby called this morning she is killing herself there at a loss on what to do. I'm not saying it will work but all I know is your both struggling with change maybe just maybe this will help you both, king Rowen and colby think this is a good idea./"

My disbelief quickly turned to worry, I thought she would be happy now I

preyed she was. Sarah cut of my turbulent thoughts with her gentle tone.

/" Jackson would you have ever chosen to hurt her ? /"

/"Of course not!/"

I all but stammered out.

/"Then I can guarantee she has already forgiven you, regardless of that. Wouldn't you want to at least try and help her? If there was even a slight chance you could?/"

Without hesitation I nodded, I was to overwhelmed with everything to respond. I never thought I'd see her again. Then Sarah unttered the words to confirm I would.

/"Then you leave tonight, the royal pack are expecting you/"