True Feelings

∆∆∆∆∆∆ Shiori Scarlet's POV ∆∆∆∆∆∆ 

After parking the car in the parking place. I sighed while putting my head on the steering wheel. It's not like I can't go outside. It's just I don't want to. I am scared of going back to my house. He said he wanted to talk about something serious. He must have noticed that I had been hiding the truth from him. For a long time, I have been hiding it. But I guess I have to tell him either today or tomorrow. I was preparing myself for this day throughout the year. Now that I think of it, I am scared. I don't want to talk about it. I don't want him to hate me. I was the reason for his suffering. He has every right to blame me for that. I tried not to notice how my husband had been torturing him. I didn't know what to do at that point in time. 

I am scared right now. How did it turn out like that?  Today was a normal day. I went to work. While working I was getting distracted easily today. I did feel as if something bad was gonna happen. After lunch break, while I was working, I got a call from Mayumi. Mayumi is my friend from school. She is the 2nd daughter of the Blackforest house. Her elder sister is the current head of the black forest house where I am working now. 

She told me that I should visit their house in a hurry. Seiren is wounded by an orc. 

After hearing that, I couldn't control myself. I didn't even let her finish her line. I hurriedly went to her house. When I hear that Seiren is in danger, I can't control myself. It was as if that day. When I heard Seiren's dad died in an accident, that day I instantly went unconscious. I thought that I had lost my important part. Seiren is the best gift he gave me. Now, that is going to disappear too. If that happens, I will lose my last will to live. I don't want that. I want to love. I want to live with the person I love. I want to live with his only memories if possible. If I lose both of these things, I won't be able to keep myself calm anymore. I prayed to God again and again and God helped me. I learned that Saint-sama was there at that moment. She healed him. He is alright. He is just sleeping. I felt relieved. I felt so relieved that my legs stopped working. I saw him sleeping. Every time I watch him sleeping, I feel relieved. I do feel that Seiren is the only charger for me. If something happened to him, I will definitely die. I am sure of it. 

Seiren is the cutest person alive. You have to admit that no matter what. I am not saying that because I am his mother, but it's true. It's a fact. 

Today was really fun. He woke up. I hugged him unconsciously. But he never finds it uncomfortable. He is a good boy. Even though I have done so many bad things to him. He forgave me. He talked to me as if it was normal. I did get carried away today. I thought I could start a proper mother-son relationship. But he said he wanted to talk about something important. My heart skipped a beat that moment. I am sure he wants to know about his identity. The true identity. I don't want him to know. Because if he learns about his identity he will definitely hate me. 

∆∆∆∆∆End of the Shiori Scarlet's POV∆∆∆∆∆ 

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∆∆∆∆∆ Seiren's POV ∆∆∆∆∆ 

Me and Sonia-san were waiting for mom. Today mom took more time in parking than she usually do. Sonia-san took the remote and switched on the television. It was already on an entertainment channel. She started watching it. But for some reason, I do feel like she is tense. She was just trying to act cool. 

A few minutes later, mom entered the room. For some reason she was a little bit tense too. I used to think mom was someone who rarely showed her emotions. But today, I feel like she is showing her emotions. You just have to see her with the eyes of your heart. I do think it was by the time mom started ignoring me. I stopped talking to her too. I thought I would be a burden to her. But today I feel like that's not true. She did everything she could for my sake. So, I have to apologise to her.

"Mom, please sit beside Sonia-san." 

I told my mom to sit beside Sonia-san. So, that I could talk to both of them freely. 

Mom sat beside Sonia-san. 

"Today was a good day, wasn't it?"

"Yeah." Mom replied awkwardly. 

"As if. I had to skip my class for you. It's not like I was worried about you." Sonia-san answered in her usual Tsundere tune. 

"To be frank, today is the best day for me. I was able to meet some good people. Was able to get something that I had yearned for." I said. 

It was silent everywhere. They were listening to me attentively. 

"But what makes my day truly special is that today I got to know how much you guys love me." saying that, I smiled a bit.

They were both surprised. As if it was something they never expected. 

"That's why I don't want to have this awkward relationship between us. I know that I have caused a lot of trouble for you guys. I knew that I was trash. I promise that I will try not to cause more trouble for you guys. So, please forgive me. I don't want to have this awkward relationship anymore. I want to laugh with you guys. I want to cry with you guys. I want to have a happy family. I know I am being a little selfish. But I beg you guys, please forgive me. I will try to be a good boy from now on." I apologised. 

While apologising, I started crying. I just couldn't control myself. I told them everything that I wanted to say my whole life. 

When I looked at them, I saw their eyes were full of tears. They were crying silently.

My mom and Sonia-san instantly hugged me. 

"I am sorry. It was my fault. It was my fault that you were suffering all these times. I knew that he tortured you every single day. But I couldn't save you. I knew that I was the reason for him torturing you. It was all my fault. I thought you would hate me for sure. I started ignoring you because I thought a person like me has no rights to be the mother of a good boy like me. I felt guilty. But I forgot the most important thing, that is you need affaction more than ignorance. It was all my fault." My mom replied while crying.

On the other hand, my sister was silent. 

"You know that we are hiding something major from you, right?" Mom asked. 

Yeah, I noticed. I don't really know what it is. But I did notice it a long time ago. 

"Yeah."

"I will tell you about that tomorrow," Mom said. So, she was planning to tell me tomorrow. I do know for sure that it is something important.

"I want you guys to forgive me. I know I was a bad mother. But I do want to have a happy family time. I have caused you guys problems. It is selfish of me to ask forgiveness. But please forgive me." Mom asked forgiveness. It's not like it was her problem. Everyone is guilty and no one is guilty here.

It starts from some simple problems. We all felt like we were guilty. We didn't know what to do. So, we thought ignoring it was the right way to handle this. But we were all wrong. When we cause a problem, we should just ask forgiveness. I think that's the only way to have a happy family life. After all, in the end, we loved each other. 

"I am sorry too." Sonia-san apologised too. 

"Hahahahaha." I laughed.

"Hahahahaha." Mom laughed too. 

"W-what? What's funny?" Sonia-san didn't get it.

"In the end, we all felt it was our fault that it turned out like this. So, let's forgive each other and have a happy family." I said.

"Yeah." Mom replied gently with a smile.

"Y-yeah." Sonia-san replied. 

After that, we talked a lot. It was still a bit awkward. But it was still better than nothing. What's more, we were happy.

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"Seiren."

Sonia-san called me. While I was about to enter my room,

"What is it, Sonia-san?"

"From now on, you can call me Onee-chan. Think yourself lucky." She said to me.

I think it's her way to tell me that I should call her 'Onee-chan'.

Well, she can be cute sometimes too. 

"Okay, Sonia-Oneechan."

"I am going to my room." saying that, she hurriedly went to her 

"Cuteeeeeeeeeee."

When I entered my room, I heard a loud voice from Onee-chan's room. 

I am happy that I was able to solve my problem. I think we were able to become a family. I was able to have a happy family that I had yearned for. 

I am really happy. I was able to erase the awkwardness between us. Well, my intuition tells me that I will regret doing this for a different reason.

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