LET ME GO

"Mr. Hasta, wake up... we've arrived home." Hanin said, gently patting Hasta's cheek, which grew fine hairs around his jaw.

Hasta slowly opened his eyes and looked at Hanin's face which was so real.

"Is it true that we have gone home Nin, you have brought me home?" asked Hasta between conscious and unconscious because of the high dose of the drug.

Hanin smiled nodding her head.

"That's right sir, we're at home.. we're living together again." Hanin replied with feelings of pleasure and joy.

Hasta stared at Hanin's face silently with complicated eyes.

"We live in the same house without your love for me Nin." Hasta said in his heart, which now hurts even more if he sees Hanin sweetly with Rafka.

"Mr. Hasta, let's go inside, okay?" said Hanin, who had been waiting for Hasta for a long time, who was daydreaming.

Without answering Hanin's words, Hasta got out of the car with his body still weak.

"Miss Hanin, let me help Mr. Hasta." said Rahmat who had just arrived after bringing in Hasta's suitcase of clothes first.

"It's not over, Uncle Rahmat, let me help him, and from now on, I'll be the one serving Mr Hasta, whatever it is. I will be fully responsible for everything that happens to Mr. Hasta." said Hanin who couldn't stand to see Hasta's condition because of his illness.

"Thank God, Miss Hanin, finally you are able to care for and love Mr. Hasta more than the two of us," said Rahmat, who was too happy to speak.

Hasta stopped his steps, and looked at Hanin with a hurt look.

"You will torture me even more with all your attention Nin, because I can't have you." Hasta said in his heart.

Arriving in the room, Hasta lay still weak and felt pain in his chest.

"Rest, sir, I will prepare medicine first so you can rest." Hanin said as she took off Hasta's jacket and belt.

"Hanin, let me do it myself," said Hasta, who was suffering from it.

"Let me do it sir, I told you from now on all your needs and needs will be my responsibility." Hanin said seriously.

"Hanin, please you can understand.. all these tasks are done by a wife and you are not my wife Hanin." Said Hasta who didn't want his love to sink deeper.

"I don't care sir, I want to do it all for you." Hanin said with a sad heart because of Hasta's condition.

"Does it include sleeping with me in this room?" challenged Hasta who was unable to face Hanin's stubbornness.

Hanin was silent for a moment, Hasta's question was completely out of her mind.

"It's not like that sir, I mean I will serve all your needs but not including that." Hanin said with a feeling that was awry.

"Yes Nin, it doesn't include sleeping with me because you don't love me and we don't have a legal marriage bond. So I remind you Hanin, your job here is not to serve me, but to learn to achieve your goals. Now get out of my room, I want to rest for a while." Hasta said with a more painful feeling than before.

Hanin's tears just flowed from her eyes. This is the first time Hasta's words really hurt her.

With a broken heart, Hanin came out of Hasta's room and ran to the backyard, spilling all her sadness and pain.

"Grace!! Mercy!" Hasta called with his chest tight.

Rahmat who heard Hasta's call came in a hurry.

"Yes Mr. Hasta, what's wrong?" asked Rahmat with a look of pity when he saw Hasta looked more miserable.

"Please Rahmat go after Hanin, I have hurt her again. Why don't I just die, so I don't feel all this pain anymore." said Hasta by pressing his chest which was very painful to breathe.

Rahmat stood rooted to the spot, between chasing Hanin or guarding Hasta, who looked hurt.

"Grace what are you waiting for? I don't want Hanin to leave this house." Hasta said with his coughing voice that didn't stop.

"But Mr. Hasta, are you in pain?" said Rahmat who was confused about what to do.

Hasta, who couldn't stand it anymore, held his cough that couldn't stop, pressing his chest as hard as he could until Hasta coughed out thick blood from his mouth.

"Uhukk.. Uhukk.. Cough." Hasta pressed his chest very hard.

Thick blood came out of Hasta's mouth again, Hasta's shirt was filled with blood vomit.

"Minah!! Minahhh!" Rahmat shouted calling for Minah who was in the kitchen.

"What's up Rahmat? Oh my God Mr Hasta!" Minah screamed when she saw Hasta who was coughing with blood coming out of his mouth.

"Call Miss Hanin mbok, tell her to come here immediately." said Rahmat while lifting Hasta's head a little higher by providing two pillows as support.

"Just let me be Rahmat, you just look for Hanin." Hasta said with his body feeling weak.

"Miss Hanin has been searched for by Minah, sir, we are now going to the hospital, okay?" said Rahmat with his chest feeling tight.

"No Rahmat, we're not going anywhere." Hasta answered in a low voice between coughs.

"Mr. Hasta, I beg you, we have to go to the hospital," said Rahmat, who saw Hasta was still bleeding from the corners of his mouth.

"Mr. Hastaaaa!!" shouted Hanin, who came with her crying voice after being told by Minah about Hasta's condition who vomited blood.

"What happened to you Mr. Hasta?" asked Hanin, cupping Hasta's face with tears in her eyes.

"I'm okay Nin, don't worry about me." Hasta answered in a weak voice.

"We have to go to the hospital now, sir." Hanin said with a very deep fear of loss.

"No, Nin, I'm fine.. I'm just coughing normally, I ..." yet Hasta continued his words. Hanin's moist lips had kissed his lips very roughly.

Hasta's heart stopped for a moment, with what Hanin had done to him.

"Don't tell me you're fine, we have to go to the hospital now." Hanin said with fullness when she saw Hasta who was dishonest with his illness.